by either Monsieur or Madame Lepitre, who went out themselves on those
days and were to call for me on their way home. Singular
amusement for
a young lad! My aunt, the Marquise de Listomere, was a great lady, of
ceremonious habits, who would never have dreamed of
offering me money.
Old as a
cathedral, painted like a
miniature,
sumptuous in dress, she
lived in her great house as though Louis XV. were not dead, and saw
none but old women and men of a past day,--a
fossil society which made
me think I was in a graveyard. No one spoke to me and I had not the
courage to speak first. Cold and alien looks made me
ashamed of my
youth, which seemed to annoy them. I counted on this
indifference to
aid me in certain plans; I was
resolved to escape some day directly
after dinner and rush to the Palais-Royal. Once seated at whist my
aunt would pay no attention to me. Jean, the
footman, cared little for
Monsieur Lepitre and would have aided me; but on the day I chose for
my adventure that luckless dinner was longer than usual,--either
because the jaws employed were worn out or the false teeth more
imperfect. At last, between eight and nine o'clock, I reached the
staircase, my heart
beating like that of Bianca Capello on the day of
her
flight; but when the
porter pulled the cord I
beheld in the street
before me Monsieur Lepitre's hackney-coach, and I heard his pursy
voice demanding me!
Three times did fate
interpose between the hell of the Palais-Royal
and the heaven of my youth. On the day when I,
ashamed at twenty years
of age of my own
ignorance, determined to risk all dangers to put an
end to it, at the very moment when I was about to run away from
Monsieur Lepitre as he got into the coach,--a difficult process, for
he was as fat as Louis XVIII. and club-footed,--well, can you believe
it, my mother arrived in a post-chaise! Her glance arrested me; I
stood still, like a bird before a snake. What fate had brought her
there? The simplest thing in the world. Napoleon was then making his
last efforts. My father, who foresaw the return of the Bourbons, had
come to Paris with my mother to
advise my brother, who was employed in
the
imperialdiplomatic service. My mother was to take me back with
her, out of the way of dangers which seemed, to those who followed the
march of events
intelligently, to
threaten the capital. In a few
minutes, as it were, I was taken out of Paris, at the very moment when
my life there was about to become fatal to me.
The tortures of
imagination excited by repressed desires, the
weariness of a life
depressed by
constant privations had
driven me to
study, just as men, weary of fate,
confine themselves in a cloister.
To me, study had become a
passion, which might even be fatal to my
health by imprisoning me at a period of life when young men ought to
yield to the bewitching activities of their springtide youth.
This slight
sketch of my
boyhood, in which you, Natalie, can readily
perceive
innumerable songs of woe, was needful to explain to you its
influence on my future life. At twenty years of age, and
affected by
many morbid elements, I was still small and thin and pale. My soul,
filled with the will to do, struggled with a body that seemed weakly,
but which, in the words of an old
physician at Tours, was undergoing
its final fusion into a
temperament of iron. Child in body and old in
mind, I had read and thought so much that I knew life metaphysically
at its highest reaches at the moment when I was about to enter the
tortuous difficulties of its defiles and the sandy roads of its
plains. A strange chance had held me long in that
delightful period
when the soul awakes to its first tumults, to its desires for joy, and
the savor of life is fresh. I stood in the period between puberty and
manhood,--the one prolonged by my
excessive study, the other tardily
developing its living shoots. No young man was ever more thoroughly
prepared to feel and to love. To understand my history, let your mind
- flatter [´flætə] vt.阿谀,奉承;胜过 (初中英语单词)
- reading [´ri:diŋ] n.(阅)读;朗读;读物 (初中英语单词)
- decree [di´kri:] n.法令;公告;天命 (初中英语单词)
- perish [´periʃ] v.灭亡;消灭;(使)死去 (初中英语单词)
- persuade [pə´sweid] v.(被)说服;使相信 (初中英语单词)
- pointed [´pɔintid] a.尖(锐)的;中肯的 (初中英语单词)
- mysterious [mi´stiəriəs] a.神秘的;难以理解的 (初中英语单词)
- refuge [´refju:dʒ] v.&n.避难(所);庇护 (初中英语单词)
- imagination [i,mædʒi´neiʃən] n.想象(力) (初中英语单词)
- divine [di´vain] a.神圣的 v.预言 (初中英语单词)
- faculty [´fækəlti] n.才干;天赋;院,系 (初中英语单词)
- tendency [´tendənsi] n.趋势;倾向 (初中英语单词)
- institution [,insti´tju:ʃən] n.建立;制定;制度 (初中英语单词)
- capacity [kə´pæsiti] n.容量;智能;能力 (初中英语单词)
- worthy [´wə:ði] a.有价值的;值得的 (初中英语单词)
- academy [ə´kædəmi] n.专科学校;学会;协会 (初中英语单词)
- contact [´kɔntækt] n.接触;联系 v.联络 (初中英语单词)
- instance [´instəns] n.例子,实例,例证 (初中英语单词)
- neglect [ni´glekt] vt.&n.疏忽;忽视;忽略 (初中英语单词)
- monsieur [mə´sjə:] n.先生 (初中英语单词)
- temple [´tempəl] n.庙宇;寺院;太阳穴 (初中英语单词)
- lately [´leitli] ad.近来,不久前 (初中英语单词)
- acquaintance [ə´kweintəns] n.相识;熟人,相识的人 (初中英语单词)
- repair [ri´peə] v.&n.修理,修补 (初中英语单词)
- amount [ə´maunt] n.总数;数量 v.合计 (初中英语单词)
- establishment [i´stæbliʃmənt] n.建(成)立;研究所 (初中英语单词)
- ignorant [´ignərənt] a.无知的,愚昧的 (初中英语单词)
- arrangement [ə´reindʒmənt] n.整理;排列;筹备 (初中英语单词)
- colonial [kə´ləuniəl] a.(关于)殖民地的 (初中英语单词)
- luxury [´lʌkʃəri] n.奢侈(品);享受 (初中英语单词)
- pardon [´pɑ:dən] n.&vt.原谅;饶恕;赦免 (初中英语单词)
- arrival [ə´raivəl] n.到达;到达的人(物) (初中英语单词)
- charge [tʃɑ:dʒ] v.收费;冲锋 n.费用 (初中英语单词)
- interview [´intəvju:] n.&vt.接见;会见;交谈 (初中英语单词)
- philosophy [fi´lɔsəfi] n.哲学;人生观 (初中英语单词)
- system [´sistəm] n.系统,体系,制度 (初中英语单词)
- driven [´driv(ə)n] drive 的过去分词 (初中英语单词)
- moreover [mɔ:´rəuvə] ad.再者,此外,而且 (初中英语单词)
- occupation [,ɔkju´peiʃən] a.职业的;军事占领的 (初中英语单词)
- curiosity [,kjuəri´ɔsiti] n.好奇;奇事;珍品 (初中英语单词)
- unable [ʌn´eibəl] a.不能的;无能为力的 (初中英语单词)
- amusement [ə´mju:zmənt] n.娱乐;文娱设施 (初中英语单词)
- cathedral [kə´θi:drəl] n.大教堂 (初中英语单词)
- ashamed [ə´ʃeimd] a.惭愧;不好意思 (初中英语单词)
- flight [flait] n.逃走;飞行;班机 (初中英语单词)
- beheld [bi´held] behold的过去式(分词) (初中英语单词)
- ignorance [´ignərəns] n.无知,愚昧 (初中英语单词)
- advise [əd´vaiz] vt.忠告;建议;通知 (初中英语单词)
- imperial [im´piəriəl] a.帝国的;庄严的 (初中英语单词)
- intelligently [in´telidʒəntli] ad.聪明地;理智地 (初中英语单词)
- threaten [´θretn] v.恐吓;有….的危险 (初中英语单词)
- constant [´kɔnstənt] a.坚定的;坚贞的 (初中英语单词)
- confine [kən´fain] vt.限制 n.边界;境界 (初中英语单词)
- passion [´pæʃən] n.激情;激怒;恋爱 (初中英语单词)
- sketch [sketʃ] n.素描;短剧 v.草拟 (初中英语单词)
- physician [fi´ziʃən] n.(内科)医生 (初中英语单词)
- delightful [di´laitful] a.讨人喜欢的 (初中英语单词)
- monthly [´mʌnθli] a.每月(的) n.月刊 (高中英语单词)
- solitude [´sɔlitju:d] n.孤独;寂寞;荒凉 (高中英语单词)
- genuine [´dʒenjuin] a.真正的;真诚的 (高中英语单词)
- anguish [´æŋgwiʃ] n.(极度的)痛苦;苦恼 (高中英语单词)
- weaken [´wi:kən] v.(使)弱化;衰弱;稀薄 (高中英语单词)
- eagerness [´i:gənis] n.渴望;热忱 (高中英语单词)
- expectation [,ekspek´teiʃən] n.期待(望);预期 (高中英语单词)
- guardian [´gɑ:diən] n.监护人;保护人 (高中英语单词)
- destiny [´destini] n.命运 (高中英语单词)
- seeing [si:iŋ] see的现在分词 n.视觉 (高中英语单词)
- indifference [in´difrəns] n.冷淡;无足轻重 (高中英语单词)
- mansion [´mænʃən] n.大厦;宅第;官邸 (高中英语单词)
- forbidden [fə´bidn] forbid的过去分词 (高中英语单词)
- napoleon [nə´pəuljən] n.拿破仑 (高中英语单词)
- overthrow [´əuvəθrəu] n.推翻;打倒 (高中英语单词)
- forgiveness [fə´givnis] n.原谅,饶恕;宽仁 (高中英语单词)
- torrent [´tɔrənt] n.奔流,激流,洪流;迸发 (高中英语单词)
- separation [,sepə´reiʃən] n.分离;分开;分居 (高中英语单词)
- precaution [pri´kɔ:ʃən] n.预防 vt.预先警告 (高中英语单词)
- secretly [´si:kritli] ad.秘密地;隐蔽地 (高中英语单词)
- oriental [ɔ:ri´entl] a.东方人的 (高中英语单词)
- virgin [´və:dʒin] a.处女(般)的 n.处女 (高中英语单词)
- bearing [´beəriŋ] n.举止;忍耐;关系 (高中英语单词)
- singular [´siŋgjulə] a.单一的;非凡的 (高中英语单词)
- offering [´ɔfəriŋ] n.提供;礼物;捐献 (高中英语单词)
- miniature [´miniətʃə] n.缩样 a.雏型的 (高中英语单词)
- porter [´pɔ:tə] n.守门人;勤杂工人 (高中英语单词)
- boyhood [´bɔihud] n.少年时代(期) (高中英语单词)
- innumerable [i´nju:mərəbəl] a.无数的,数不清的 (高中英语单词)
- temperament [´tempərəmənt] n.气质;性格 (高中英语单词)
- excessive [ik´sesiv] a.过分的;极端的 (高中英语单词)
- preceding [pri(:)´si:diŋ] a.在先的;前面的 (英语四级单词)
- joyfully [´dʒɔifuli] ad.高兴地,快乐地 (英语四级单词)
- saviour [´seiviə] n.救星;救助者 (英语四级单词)
- fairyland [´fɛərilænd] n.仙境,奇境 (英语四级单词)
- ardent [´ɑ:dənt] a.热心的;热情洋溢的 (英语四级单词)
- sanctuary [´sæŋktʃuəri] n.圣殿;寺院;避难所 (英语四级单词)
- sublime [sə´blaim] a.崇高的,伟大的 (英语四级单词)
- well-to-do [,weltə´du:] a.小康的,富裕的 (英语四级单词)
- aristocratic [,æristə´krætik] a.贵族政治的;贵族的 (英语四级单词)
- superiority [su:piəri´ɔriti, sju:-] n.优越,卓越 (英语四级单词)
- grandeur [´grændʒə] n.伟大;富丽;壮观 (英语四级单词)
- apprehend [,æpri´hend] vt.理解;忧虑;逮捕 (英语四级单词)
- instinctively [in´stiŋktivli] ad.本能地 (英语四级单词)
- mathematics [,mæθə´mætiks] n.数学 (英语四级单词)
- fossil [´fɔsəl] n.老顽固 a.化石的 (英语四级单词)
- resolved [ri´zɔlvd] a.决心的;坚定的 (英语四级单词)
- interpose [,intə´pəuz] v.插入;调解;干预 (英语四级单词)
- diplomatic [,diplə´mætik] a.外交的 (英语四级单词)
- dejected [di´dʒektid] a.垂头丧气的 (英语六级单词)
- librarian [lai´breəriən] n.图书馆管理员,馆长 (英语六级单词)
- departed [di´pɑ:tid] a.已往的;已故的 (英语六级单词)
- emphatically [im´fætikəli] ad.强调地;断然地 (英语六级单词)
- beating [´bi:tiŋ] n.敲;搅打;失败 (英语六级单词)
- unspeakable [ʌn´spi:kəbl] a.不能以言语表达的 (英语六级单词)
- rhetoric [´retərik] n.修辞学(书);辩术 (英语六级单词)
- repentance [ri´pentəns] n.悔悟,悔改;忏悔 (英语六级单词)
- outlay [´autlei] n.费用 vt.支付;花费 (英语六级单词)
- enduring [in´djuəriŋ] a.持久的 (英语六级单词)
- sumptuous [´sʌmptʃuəs] a.奢侈的;豪华的 (英语六级单词)
- footman [´futmən] n.侍应员;男仆 (英语六级单词)
- depressed [di´prest] a.消沉的;萧条的 (英语六级单词)
- affected [ə´fektid] a.做作的;假装的 (英语六级单词)