of him, only to refuse to make any in return. He should see the
light indeed before you put out his eyes! It is wonderful how
you found the heart to do it! Such villainies demand a display
of
resource quite above the
comprehension of those bourgeoises
whom you laugh at and
despise. They can give and
forgive; they
know how to love and suffer. The
grandeur of their devotion
dwarfs us. Rising higher in the social scale, one finds just as
much mud as at the lower end; but with this difference, at the
upper end it is hard and gilded over.
"Yes, to find baseness in
perfection, you must look for a noble
bringing up, a great name, a fair woman, a
duchess. You cannot
fall lower than the lowest unless you are set high above the rest
of the world.--I express my thoughts badly; the wounds you dealt
me are too
painful as yet, but do not think that I
complain. My
words are not the expression of any hope for myself; there is no
trace of
bitterness in them. Know this, madame, for a
certainty--I
forgive you. My
forgiveness is so complete that you
need not feel in the least sorry that you came
hither to find it
against your will. . . . But you might take
advantage of other
hearts as child-like as my own, and it is my duty to spare them
anguish. So you have inspired the thought of justice. Expiate
your sin here on earth; God may perhaps
forgive you; I wish that
He may, but He is inexorable, and will strike."
The broken-spirited, broken-hearted woman looked up, her eyes
filled with tears.
"Why do you cry? Be true to your nature. You could look on
indifferently at the
torture of a heart as you broke it. That
will do, madame, do not cry. I cannot bear it any longer. Other
men will tell you that you have given them life; as for myself, I
tell you, with
rapture, that you have given me blank extinction.
Perhaps you guess that I am not my own, that I am bound to live
for my friends, that from this time forth I must
endure the cold
chill of death, as well as the burden of life? Is it possible
that there can be so much kindness in you? Are you like the
desert tigress that licks the wounds she has inflicted?"
The Duchess burst out sobbing.
"Pray spare your tears, madame. If I believed in them at all,
it would merely set me on my guard. Is this another of your
artifices? or is it not? You have used so many with me; how can
one think that there is any truth in you? Nothing that you do or
say has any power now to move me. That is all I have to say."
Mme de Langeais rose to her feet, with a great
dignity and
humility in her bearing.
"You are right to treat me very hardly," she said,
holding out
a hand to the man who did not take it; "you have not spoken
hardly enough; and I
deserve this
punishment."
"_I_
punish you, madame! A man must love still, to
punish, must
he not? From me you must expect no feeling, nothing resembling
it. If I chose, I might be accuser and judge in my cause, and
pronounce and carry out the
sentence. But I am about to
fulfil a
duty, not a desire of
vengeance of any kind. The cruellest
revenge of all, I think, is scorn of
revenge when it is in our
power to take it. Perhaps I shall be the
minister of your
pleasures; who knows? Perhaps from this time forth, as you
gracefully wear the tokens of
disgrace by which society marks out
the
criminal, you may perforce learn something of the
convict's
sense of honour. And then, you will love!"
The Duchess sat listening; her
meekness was unfeigned; it was no
coquettish
device. When she spoke at last, it was after a
silence.
"Armand," she began, "it seems to me that when I resisted
love, I was obeying all the instincts of woman's
modesty; I
should not have looked for such
reproaches from YOU. I was weak;
you have turned all my
weaknesses against me, and made so many
crimes of them. How could you fail to understand that the
curiosity of love might have carried me further than I ought to
go; and that next morning I might be angry with myself, and
wretched because I had gone too far? Alas! I sinned in
ignorance. I was as
sincere in my wrongdoing, I swear to you, as
in my
remorse. There was far more love for you in my severity
than in my concessions. And besides, of what do you
complain? I