Armand de Montriveau stayed with her till two o'clock in the
morning. From that moment this woman, whom he loved, was neither
a
duchess nor a Navarreins; Antoinette, in her disguises, had
gone so far as to appear to be a woman. On that most blissful
evening, the sweetest prelude ever played by a Parisienne to what
the world calls "a slip"; in spite of all her affectations of a
coyness which she did not feel, the General saw all maidenly
beauty in her. He had some excuse for believing that so many
storms of caprice had been but clouds covering a
heavenly soul;
that these must be lifted one by one like the veils that hid her
divine
loveliness. The Duchess became, for him, the most simple
and girlish
mistress; she was the one woman in the world for him;
and he went away quite happy in that at last he had brought her
to give him such pledges of love, that it seemed to him
impossible but that he should be but her husband
henceforth in
secret, her choice sanctioned by Heaven.
Armand went slowly home, turning this thought in his mind with
the impartiality of a man who is
conscious of all the
responsibilities that love lays on him while he tastes the
sweetness of its joys. He went along the Quais to see the widest
possible space of sky; his heart had grown in him; he would fain
have had the bounds of the
firmament and of earth enlarged. It
seemed to him that his lungs drew an ampler
breath.
In the course of his self-examination, as he walked, he vowed to
love this woman so devoutly, that every day of her life she
should find absolution for her sins against society in unfailing
happiness. Sweet stirrings of life when life is at the full!
The man that is strong enough to steep his soul in the colour of
one
emotion, feels
infinite joy as glimpses open out for him of
an
ardentlifetime that knows no diminution of
passion to the
end; even so it is permitted to certain mystics, in
ecstasy, to
behold the Light of God. Love would be
naught without the belief
that it would last forever; love grows great through constancy.
It was thus that,
wholly absorbed by his happiness, Montriveau
understood
passion.
"We belong to each other forever!"
The thought was like a talisman fulfilling the wishes of his
life. He did not ask whether the Duchess might not change,
whether her love might not last. No, for he had faith. Without
that
virtue there is no future for Christianity, and perhaps it
is even more necessary to society. A
conception of life as
feeling occurred to him for the first time;
hitherto he had lived
by action, the most
strenuousexertion of human energies, the
physical
devotion, as it may be called, of the soldier.
Next day M. de Montriveau went early in the direction of the
Faubourg Saint-Germain. He had made an appointment at a house
not far from the Hotel de Langeais; and the business over, he
went
thither as if to his own home. The General's companion
chanced to be a man for whom he felt a kind of repulsion whenever
he met him in other houses. This was the Marquis de
Ronquerolles, whose
reputation had grown so great in Paris
boudoirs. He was witty, clever, and what was more--courageous;
he set the fashion to all the young men in Paris. As a man of
gallantry, his success and experience were
equally matters of
envy; and neither fortune nor birth was
wanting in his case,
qualifications which add such lustre in Paris to a
reputation as
a leader of fashion.
"Where are you going?" asked M. de Ronquerolles.
"To Mme de Langeais's."
"Ah, true. I forgot that you had allowed her to lime you. You
are
wasting your affections on her when they might be much better
employed
elsewhere. I could have told you of half a score of
women in the
financial world, any one of them a thousand times
better worth your while than that titled courtesan, who does with
her brains what less
artificial women do with----"
"What is this, my dear fellow?" Armand broke in. "The Duchess
is an angel of innocence."
Ronquerolles began to laugh.
"Things being thus, dear boy," said he, "it is my duty to
enlighten you. Just a word; there is no harm in it between