And we always believe it! Out of pure
politeness. Do we not
know what to expect from it for ourselves? Where is the man that
has found but a single opportunity of losing his heart? But you
love to
deceive us, and we
submit to be
deceived, poor foolish
creatures that we are; for your
hypocrisy is, after all, a homage
paid to the
superiority of our sentiments, which are all
purity."
The last words were
spoken with a disdainful pride that made the
novice in love feel like a
worthless bale flung into the deep,
while the Duchess was an angel soaring back to her particular
heaven.
"Confound it!" thought Armand de Montriveau, "how am I to tell
this wild thing that I love her?"
He had told her already a score of times; or rather, the Duchess
had a score of times read his secret in his eyes; and the
passionin this unmistakably great man promised her
amusement, and an
interest in her empty life. So she prepared with no little
dexterity to raise a certain number of redoubts for him to carry
by storm before he should gain an entrance into her heart.
Montriveau should overleap one difficulty after another; he
should be a
plaything for her caprice, just as an
insect teased
by children is made to jump from one finger to another, and in
spite of all its pains is kept in the same place by its
mischievous tormentor. And yet it gave the Duchess inexpressible
happiness to see that this strong man had told her the truth.
Armand had never loved, as he had said. He was about to go, in a
bad
humour with himself, and still more out of
humour with her;
but it
delighted her to see a sullenness that she could conjure
away with a word, a glance, or a gesture.
"Will you come tomorrow evening?" she asked. "I am going to a
ball, but I shall stay at home for you until ten o'clock."
Montriveau spent most of the next day in smoking an indeterminate
quantity of cigars in his study window, and so got through the
hours till he could dress and go to the Hotel de Langeais. To
anyone who had known the
magnificent worth of the man, it would
have been
grievous to see him grown so small, so distrustful of
himself; the mind that might have shed light over undiscovered
worlds shrunk to the proportions of a she-coxcomb's boudoir.
Even he himself felt that he had fallen so low already in his
happiness that to save his life he could not have told his love
to one of his closest friends. Is there not always a trace of
shame in the lover's bashfulness, and perhaps in woman a certain
exultation over diminished
masculinestature? Indeed, but for a
host of motives of this kind, how explain why women are nearly
always the first to
betray the secret?--a secret of which,
perhaps, they soon weary.
"Mme la Duchesse cannot see visitors, monsieur," said the man;
"she is dressing, she begs you to wait for her here."
Armand walked up and down the drawing-room, studying her taste in
the least details. He admired Mme de Langeais herself in the
objects of her choosing; they revealed her life before he could
grasp her
personality and ideas. About an hour later the Duchess
came
noiselessly out of her
chamber. Montriveau turned, saw her
flit like a shadow across the room, and trembled. She came up to
him, not with a bourgeoise's enquiry, "How do I look?" She was
sure of herself; her steady eyes said
plainly, "I am adorned to
please you."
No one surely, save the old fairy
godmother of some
princess in
disguise, could have wound a cloud of gauze about the dainty
throat, so that the dazzling satin skin beneath should gleam
through the gleaming folds. The Duchess was dazzling. The pale
blue colour of her gown,
repeated in the flowers in her hair,
appeared by the
richness of its hue to lend substance to a
fragile form grown too
whollyethereal; for as she glided towards
Armand, the loose ends of her scarf floated about her, putting
that
valiantwarrior in mind of the bright damosel flies that
hover now over water, now over the flowers with which they seem
to
mingle and blend.