the trees and the many falling torrents in the mountains filled the
air with
delicate and haunting music. Yet I was prostrated with
sadness. My heart wept for the sight of Olalla, as a child weeps
for its mother. I sat down on a
boulder on the verge of the low
cliffs that bound the
plateau to the north. Thence I looked down
into the
woodedvalley of a
stream, where no foot came. In the
mood I was in, it was even
touching to behold the place untenanted;
it lacked Olalla; and I thought of the delight and glory of a life
passed
wholly with her in that strong air, and among these rugged
and lovely surroundings, at first with a whimpering
sentiment, and
then again with such a fiery joy that I seemed to grow in strength
and
stature, like a Samson.
And then suddenly I was aware of Olalla
drawing near. She appeared
out of a grove of cork-trees, and came straight towards me; and I
stood up and waited. She seemed in her walking a creature of such
life and fire and lightness as amazed me; yet she came quietly and
slowly. Her
energy was in the slowness; but for inimitable
strength, I felt she would have run, she would have flown to me.
Still, as she approached, she kept her eyes lowered to the ground;
and when she had drawn quite near, it was without one glance that
she addressed me. At the first note of her voice I started. It
was for this I had been
waiting; this was the last test of my love.
And lo, her enunciation was
precise and clear, not lisping and
incomplete like that of her family; and the voice, though deeper
than usual with women, was still both
youthful and womanly. She
spoke in a rich chord; golden contralto strains mingled with
hoarseness, as the red threads were mingled with the brown among
her tresses. It was not only a voice that spoke to my heart
directly; but it spoke to me of her. And yet her words immediately
plunged me back upon
despair.
'You will go away,' she said, 'to-day.'
Her example broke the bonds of my speech; I felt as
lightened of a
weight, or as if a spell had been dissolved. I know not in what
words I answered; but,
standing before her on the cliffs, I poured
out the whole
ardour of my love, telling her that I lived upon the
thought of her, slept only to dream of her
loveliness, and would
gladly forswear my country, my language, and my friends, to live
for ever by her side. And then,
strongly commanding myself, I
changed the note; I
reassured, I comforted her; I told her I had
divined in her a pious and
heroic spirit, with which I was worthy
to sympathise, and which I longed to share and
lighten. 'Nature,'
I told her, 'was the voice of God, which men
disobey at peril; and
if we were thus
humbly drawn together, ay, even as by a
miracle of
love, it must imply a
divinefitness in our souls; we must be
made,' I said - 'made for one another. We should be mad rebels,' I
cried out - 'mad rebels against God, not to obey this instinct.'
She shook her head. 'You will go to-day,' she
repeated, and then
with a
gesture, and in a sudden, sharp note - 'no, not to-day,' she
cried, 'to-morrow!'
But at this sign of relenting, power came in upon me in a tide. I
stretched out my arms and called upon her name; and she leaped to
me and clung to me. The hills rocked about us, the earth quailed;
a shock as of a blow went through me and left me blind and dizzy.
And the next moment she had
thrust me back, broken
rudely from my
arms, and fled with the speed of a deer among the cork-trees.
I stood and shouted to the mountains; I turned and went back
towards the residencia, waltzing upon air. She sent me away, and
yet I had but to call upon her name and she came to me. These were
but the
weaknesses of girls, from which even she, the strangest of
her sex, was not exempted. Go? Not I, Olalla - O, not I, Olalla,
my Olalla! A bird sang near by; and in that season, birds were
rare. It bade me be of good cheer. And once more the whole
countenance of nature, from the
ponderous and
stable mountains down
to the lightest leaf and the smallest darting fly in the shadow of