the water became a cradle-song to lull my thoughts asleep; when a
piece of mud on the deck was sometimes an
intolerable eyesore, and
sometimes quite a
companion for me, and the object of pleased
consideration; - and all the time, with the river
running and the
shores changing upon either hand, I kept counting my strokes and
forgetting the hundreds, the happiest animal in France.
DOWN THE OISE: CHURCH INTERIORS
WE made our first stage below Compiegne to Pont Sainte Maxence. I
was
abroad a little after six the next morning. The air was
biting, and smelt of frost. In an open place a score of women
wrangled together over the day's market; and the noise of their
negotiation sounded thin and querulous like that of sparrows on a
winter's morning. The rare passengers blew into their hands, and
shuffled in their
wooden shoes to set the blood agog. The streets
were full of icy shadow, although the chimneys were smoking
overhead in golden
sunshine. If you wake early enough at this
season of the year, you may get up in December to break your fast
in June.
I found my way to the church; for there is always something to see
about a church, whether living worshippers or dead men's tombs; you
find there the deadliest
earnest, and the hollowest
deceit; and
even where it is not a piece of history, it will be certain to leak
out some
contemporarygossip. It was scarcely so cold in the
church as it was without, but it looked colder. The white nave was
positively
arctic to the eye; and the tawdriness of a continental
altar looked more
forlorn than usual in the
solitude and the bleak
air. Two priests sat in the chancel,
reading and waiting
penitents; and out in the nave, one very old woman was engaged in
her devotions. It was a wonder how she was able to pass her beads
when
healthy young people were breathing in their palms and
slapping their chest; but though this
concerned me, I was yet more
dispirited by the nature of her exercises. She went from chair to
chair, from altar to altar, circumnavigating the church. To each
shrine she dedicated an equal number of beads and an equal length
of time. Like a
prudentcapitalist with a somewhat
cynical view of
the
commercialprospect, she desired to place her supplications in
a great
variety of
heavenly securities. She would risk nothing on
the credit of any single intercessor. Out of the whole company of
saints and angels, not one but was to suppose himself her champion
elect against the Great Assize! I could only think of it as a
dull,
transparent jugglery, based upon
unconscious unbelief.
She was as dead an old woman as ever I saw; no more than bone and
parchment,
curiously put together. Her eyes, with which she
interrogated mine, were
vacant of sense. It depends on what you
call
seeing, whether you might not call her blind. Perhaps she had
known love: perhaps borne children, suckled them and given them
pet names. But now that was all gone by, and had left her neither
happier nor wiser; and the best she could do with her mornings was
to come up here into the cold church and juggle for a slice of
heaven. It was not without a gulp that I escaped into the streets
and the keen morning air. Morning? why, how tired of it she would
be before night! and if she did not sleep, how then? It is
fortunate that not many of us are brought up
publicly to justify
our lives at the bar of
threescore years and ten;
fortunate that
such a number are knocked opportunely on the head in what they call
the flower of their years, and go away to suffer for their follies
in private somewhere else. Otherwise, between sick children and
discontented old folk, we might be put out of all
conceit of life.
I had need of all my cerebral
hygiene during that day's
paddle:
the old devotee stuck in my
throatsorely. But I was soon in the
seventh heaven of stupidity; and knew nothing but that somebody was
paddling a canoe, while I was counting his strokes and forgetting
the hundreds. I used sometimes to be afraid I should remember the
hundreds; which would have made a toil of a pleasure; but the