case known to the lady-like
matron; but her forbidding countenance
prevented me. She condescended to look on the patients, and make
general enquiries, two or three times a week; but the nurses knew
the hour when the visit of
ceremony would
commence, and every thing
was as it should be.
"After my dismission, I was more at a loss than ever for a
subsistence, and, not to weary you with a
repetition of the same
unavailing attempts,
unable to stand at the washing-tub, I began
to consider the rich and poor as natural enemies, and became a
thief from principle. I could not now cease to reason, but I hated
mankind. I despised myself, yet I justified my conduct. I was
taken, tried, and condemned to six months'
imprisonment in a house
of
correction. My soul recoils with
horror from the remembrance
of the insults I had to
endure, till, branded with shame, I was
turned loose in the street, pennyless. I wandered from street to
street, till, exhausted by
hunger and
fatigue, I sunk down senseless
at a door, where I had
vainly demanded a
morsel of bread. I was
sent by the inhabitant to the work-house, to which he had surlily
bid me go,
saying, he 'paid enough in
conscience to the poor,'
when, with parched tongue, I implored his
charity. If those
well-meaning people who exclaim against beggars, were acquainted
with the
treatment the poor receive in many of these
wretched
asylums, they would not
stifle so easily
involuntarysympathy, by
saying that they have all
parishes to go to, or wonder that the
poor dread to enter the
gloomy walls. What are the common run of
workhouses, but prisons, in which many
respectable old people, worn
out by immoderate labour, sink into the grave in sorrow,
to which they are carried like dogs!"
Alarmed by some indistinct noise, Jemima rose
hastily to
listen, and Maria, turning to Darnford, said, "I have indeed been
shocked beyond expression when I have met a pauper's funeral.
A
coffin carried on the shoulders of three or four ill-looking
wretches, whom the
imagination might easily
convert into a band of
assassins, hastening to
conceal the
corpse, and quarrelling about
the prey on their way. I know it is of little
consequence how we
are consigned to the earth; but I am led by this
brutal insensibility,
to what even the animal
creation appears
forcibly to feel, to advert
to the
wretched, deserted manner in which they died."
"True," rejoined Darnford, "and, till the rich will give more
than a part of their
wealth, till they will give time and attention
to the wants of the distressed, never let them boast of
charity.
Let them open their hearts, and not their purses, and employ their
minds in the service, if they are really actuated by humanity;
or
charitable institutions will always be the prey of
the lowest order of knaves."
Jemima returning, seemed in haste to finish her tale. "The
overseer farmed the poor of different
parishes, and out of the
bowels of
poverty was wrung the money with which he purchased this
dwelling, as a private
receptacle for
madness. He had been a keeper
at a house of the same
description, and
conceived that he could
make money much more
readily in his old
occupation. He is a
shrewd--shall I say it?--villain. He observed something resolute
in my manner, and offered to take me with him, and
instruct me how
to treat the disturbed minds he meant to
intrust to my care. The
offer of forty pounds a year, and to quit a workhouse, was not to
be despised, though the condition of shutting my eyes and hardening
my heart was annexed to it.
"I agreed to accompany him; and four years have I been attendant
on many
wretches, and"--she lowered her voice,--"the
witness of
many enormities. In
solitude my mind seemed to recover its force,