derision, named them the "monks." This last title I
supposed to
be intended for
satire, and knew to be fatuously wrong. I was
thoroughly acquainted with monks--in books--and well knew the cut
of their long frocks, their shaven polls, and their
fascinatingbig dogs, with brandy-bottles round their necks, incessantly
hauling happy travellers out of the snow. The only dog at the
settlement was an Irish terrier, and the good fellows who owned
him, and were owned by him, in common, wore clothes of the most
nondescript order, and
mostlycultivated side-whiskers. I had
wandered up there one day, searching (as usual) for something I
never found, and had been taken in by them and treated as friend
and comrade. They had made me free of their ideal little rooms,
full of books and pictures, and clean of the antimacassar taint;
they had shown me their
chapel, high, hushed; and faintly
scented, beautiful with a strange new beauty born both of what it
had and what it had not--that too familiar dowdiness of common
places of
worship. They had also fed me in their dining-hall,
where a long table stood on trestles plain to view, and all the
woodwork was natural, unpainted, healthily scrubbed, and
redolent of the forest it came from. I brought away from that
visit, and kept by me for many days, a sense of cleanness, of the
freshness that pricks the senses--the
freshness of cool spring
water; and the large swept spaces of the rooms, the red tiles,
and the oaken settles, suggested a comfort that had no connexion
with padded upholstery.
On this particular morning I was in much too unsociable a mind
for paying friendly calls. Still, something in the
aspect of the
place harmonised with my
humour, and I worked my way round to the
back, where the ground, after affording level enough for a
kitchen-garden, broke steeply away. Both the word Gothic and the
thing itself were still unknown to me; yet
doubtless the
architecture of the place,
consistent throughout, accounted for
its sense of comradeship in my hour of disheartenment. As I
mused there, with the low, grey, purposeful-looking building
before me, and thought of my pleasant friends within, and what
good times they always seemed to be having, and how they larked
with the Irish terrier, whose
footing was one of a perfect
equality, I thought of a certain look in their faces, as if they
had a common purpose and a business, and were
acting under orders
thoroughly recognised and understood. I remembered, too,
something that Martha had told me, about these same fellows doing
"a power o' good," and other hints I had collected
vaguely, of
renouncements, rules, self-denials, and the like. Thereupon, out
of the depths of my morbid soul swam up a new and
fascinatingidea; and at once the
career of arms seemed over-acted and stale,
and piracy, as a
profession, flat and
unprofitable. This, then,
or something like it, should be my
vocation and my revenge.
A severer line of business, perhaps, such as I had read of;
something that included black bread and a hair-shirt. There
should be vows, too--irrevocable, blood curdling vows; and an
iron
grating. This iron
grating was the most necessary feature
of all, for I intended that on the other side of it my relations
should range themselves--I mentally ran over the
catalogue, and
saw that the whole gang was present, all in their proper places--
a sad-eyed row, combined in tristful
appeal. "We see our error
now," they would say; "we were always dull dogs, slow to catch--
especially in those akin to us--the finer qualities of soul! We
misunderstood you, misappreciated you, and we own up to it. And
now--" "Alas, my dear friends," I would strike in here, waving
towards them an ascetic hand--one of the emaciated sort, that
lets the light shine through at the finger-tips--"Alas, you
come too late! This conduct is
fitting and meritorious on your
part, and indeed I always expected it of you, sooner or later;
but the die is cast, and you may go home again and
bewail at your
leisure this too tardy
repentance of yours. For me, I am vowed
and dedicated, and my relations
henceforth are austerity and holy
works. Once a month, should you wish it, it shall be your
privilege to come and gaze at me through this very solid
grating;