the new conditions, and adapted himself to them without a murmur!
When the military spirit was
abroad, who so ready to be a
squadron of
cavalry, a horde of Cossacks, or
artillery pounding
into position? He had even served with honour as a gun-boat,
during a period when naval
strategy was the only theme; and no
false equine pride ever hindered him from
taking the part of a
roaring
locomotive, earth-shaking, clangorous, annihilating time
and space. Really it was no longer clear how life, with its
manifold emergencies, was to be carried on at all without a
fellow like the spotty horse, ready to step in at critical
moments and take up just the part required of him.
In moments of
mentaldepression, nothing is quite so
consoling as the honest smell of a painted animal; and
mechanically I turned towards the shelf that had been so long the
Ararat of our weather-beaten Ark. The shelf was empty, the Ark
had cast off moorings and sailed away to Poplar, and had taken
with it its haunting smell, as well as that pleasant sense of
disorder that the best conducted Ark is always able to impart.
The sliding roof had
rarely been known to close entirely. There
was always a pair of giraffe-legs sticking out, or an
elephant-
trunk,
taking from the stiffness of its
outline, and reminding us
that our motley crowd of friends inside were uncomfortably
cramped for room and only too ready to leap in a
cascade on the
floor and
browse and
gallop,
flutter and
bellow and neigh, and be
their natural selves again. I think that none of us ever really
thought very much of Ham and Shem and Japhet. They were only
there because they were in the story, but nobody really
wanted them. The Ark was built for the animals, of course--
animals with tails, and trunks, and horns, and at least three
legs
apiece, though some unfortunates had been
unable to retain
even that number. And in the animals were of course included the
birds--the dove, for
instance, grey with black wings, and the
red-crested woodpecker--or was it a hoo-poe?--and the insects,
for there was a dear
beetle, about the same size as the dove,
that held its own with any of the mammalia.
Of the doll-department Charlotte had naturally been sole chief
for a long time; if the staff were not in their places to-day, it
was not I who had any official right to take notice. And yet one
may have been member of a Club for many a year without ever
exactly understanding the use and object of the other members,
until one enters, some Christmas day or other
holiday, and,
surveying the deserted armchairs, the untenanted sofas, the
barren hat-pegs, realizes, with
depression, that those other
fellows had their allotted functions, after all. Where was old
Jerry? Where were Eugenie, Rosa, Sophy, Esmeralda? We had long
drifted apart, it was true, we spoke but
rarely; perhaps,
absorbed in new ambitions, new achievements, I had even come to
look down on these
conservative, unprogressive members who were
so clearly content to remain simply what they were. And now that
their corners were unfilled, their chairs unoccupied--well, my
eyes were opened and I wanted 'em back!
However, it was no business of mine. If grievances were the
question, I hadn't a leg to stand upon. Though my catapults were
officially confiscated, I knew the
drawer in which they were
incarcerated, and where the key of it was
hidden, and I
could make life a burden, if I chose, to every living thing
within a square-mile
radius, so long as the catapult was restored
to its
drawer in due and
decent time. But I wondered how the
others were
taking it. The edict hit them more
severely. They
should have my moral
countenance at any rate, if not more, in any
protest or countermine they might be planning. And, indeed,
something seemed possible, from the dogged,
sullen air with which
the two of them had trotted off in the direction of the
raspberry-canes. Certain spots always had their insensible
attraction for certain moods. In love, one sought the orchard.
Weary of
discipline, sick of convention, impassioned for the
road, the
mining camp, the land across the border, one made for
the big
meadow. Mutinous, sulky, charged with plots and
conspiracies, one always got behind the shelter of the
raspberry-canes.
. . . . . . .
"You can come too if you like," said Harold, in a subdued sort of
way, as soon as he was aware that I was sitting up in bed
watching him. "We didn't think you'd care, 'cos you've got to
catapults. But we're goin' to do what we've settled to do, so
it's no good sayin' we hadn't ought and that sort of thing, 'cos
we're goin' to!"
The day had passed in an
ominous peacefulness. Charlotte and
Harold had kept out of my way, as well as out of everybody
else's, in a purposeful manner that ought to have bred suspicion.
In the evening we had read books, or fitfully drawn ships and
battles on fly-leaves, apart, in separate corners, void of
conversation or
criticism, oppressed by the lowering tidiness of
the
universe, till
bedtime came, and disrobement, and
prayers even more
mechanical than usual, and
lastly bed itself
without so much as a giraffe under the pillow. Harold had
grunted himself between the sheets with an ostentatious pretence
of overpowering
fatigue; but I noticed that he pulled his pillow
forward and propped his head against the brass bars of his crib,
and, as I was acquainted with most of his tricks and subterfuges,
it was easy for me to gather that a
painful wakefulness was his
aim that night.
I had dozed off, however, and Harold was out and on his feet,
poking under the bed for his shoes, when I sat up and grimly
regarded him. Just as he said I could come if I liked, Charlotte
slipped in, her face rigid and set. And then it was borne in
upon me that I was not on in this scene. These youngsters had
planned it all out, the piece was their own, and the
mounting, and the cast. My sceptre had fallen, my rule had
ceased. In this magic hour of the summer night laws went for
nothing, codes were cancelled, and those who were most in touch
with the
moonlight and the warm June spirit and the topsy-
turvydom that reigns when the clock strikes ten, were the true
lords and lawmakers.
Humbly, almost
timidly, I followed without a protest in the wake
of these two remorseless, purposeful young persons, who were
marching straight for the
schoolroom. Here in the
moonlight the
grim big box stood visible--the box in which so large a portion
of our past and our
personality lay entombed, cold, swathed in
paper, awaiting the
carrier of the morning who should speed them
forth to the strange, cold, distant Children's Hospital, where
their little failings would all be misunderstood and no one
would make allowances. A
dreamyspectator, I stood idly by
while Harold propped up the lid and the two plunged in their arms
and probed and felt and grappled.
"Here's Rosa," said Harold, suddenly. "I know the feel of her
hair. Will you have Rosa out?"
"Oh, give me Rosa!" cried Charlotte with a sort of gasp. And
when Rosa had been dragged forth, quite
unmoved apparently,
placid as ever in her moonfaced
contemplation of this comedy-
world with its ups and downs, Charlotte
retired with her to the
window-seat, and there in the
moonlight the two exchanged their
private confidences, leaving Harold to his
exploration alone.
"Here's something with sharp corners," said Harold, presently.
"Must be Leotard, I think. Better let HIM go."
"Oh, yes, we can't save Leotard," assented Charlotte,
limply.
Poor old Leotard! I said nothing, of course; I was not on in
this piece. But, surely, had Leotard heard and rightly
understood all that was going on above him, he must have sent up