more and we should all be
aboard, the hawsers would splash
in the water, the sails would fill and
strain. From the deck I
should see the little walled town
recede and sink and grow dim,
while every
plunge of our bows brought us nearer to the happy
island--it was an island we were bound for, I knew well! Already
I could see the island-people waving hands on the
crowded quay,
whence the little houses ran up the hill to the castle, crowning
all with its towers and battlements. Once more we should ride
together, a merry
procession, clattering up the steep street and
through the grim
gateway; and then we should have arrived, then
we should all dine together, then we should have reached home!
And then--
OW! OW! OW!
Bitter it is to
stumble out of an opalescent dream into the cold
daylight; cruel to lose in a second a sea-
voyage, an island, and
a castle that was to be practically your own; but cruellest
and bitterest of all to know, in
addition to your loss, that the
fingers of an angry aunt have you tight by the scruff of your
neck. My beautiful book was gone too--ravished from my grasp by
the dressy lady, who joined in the
outburst of denunciation as
heartily as if she had been a relative--and
naught was left me
but to blubber dismally, awakened of a sudden to the harshness of
real things and the unnumbered hostilities of the
actual world.
I cared little for their reproaches, their abuse; but I sorrowed
heartily for my lost ship, my vanished island, my uneaten dinner,
and for the knowledge that, if I wanted any angels to play with,
I must
henceforth put up with the anaemic, night-gowned
nonentities that hovered over the bed of the Sunday-school child
in the pages of the Sabbath Improver.
I was led ignominiously out of the house, in a pulpy, watery
state, while the
butler handled his swing doors with a
stony, impassive
countenance, intended for the
deception of the
very elect, though it did not
deceive me. I knew well enough
that next time he was off duty, and strolled around our way, we
should meet in our kitchen as man to man, and I would punch him
and ask him riddles, and he would teach me tricks with corks and
bits of string. So his unsympathetic manner did not add to my
depression.
I maintained a
diplomatic blubber long after we had been packed
into our pony-carriage and the lodge-gate had clicked behind us,
because it served as a sort of armour-plating against heckling
and
argument and abuse, and I was thinking hard and wanted to be
let alone. And the thoughts that I was thinking were two.
First I thought, "I've got ahead of Charlotte THIS time!"
And next I thought, "When I've grown up big, and have money
of my own, and a full-sized walking-stick, I will set out early
one morning, and never stop till I get to that little walled
town." There ought to be no real difficulty in the task. It
only meant asking here and asking there, and people were very
obliging, and I could describe every stick and stone of it.
As for the island which I had never even seen, that was not so
easy. Yet I felt
confident that somehow, at some time, sooner or
later, I was destined to arrive.
A SAGA OF THE SEAS
It happened one day that some ladies came to call, who were not
at all the sort I was used to. They suffered from a
grievance,
so far as I could gather, and the burden of their plaint was
Man--Men in general and Man in particular. (Though the words
were but
spoken, I could clearly
discern the capital M in their
acid utterance.)
Of course I was not present
officially, so to speak. Down below,
in my sub-world of chair-legs and hearthrugs and the undersides
of sofas, I was
working out my own floor-problems, while they
babbled on far above my head,
considering me as but a chair-leg,
or even something lower in the scale. Yet I was listening hard
all the time, with that
respectfulconsideration one gives to
all
grown-up people's remarks, so long as one knows no better.
It seemed a serious
indictment enough, as they rolled it out. In
tact, considerateness, and right
appreciation, as well as in
taste and aesthetic sensibilities--we failed at every point, we
breeched and bearded prentice-jobs of Nature; and I began to feel
like collapsing on the
carpet from sheer
spiritual anaemia. But
when one of them, with a swing of her skirt, prostrated a whole
regiment of my brave tin soldiers, and never apologized nor even
offered her aid toward revivifying the battle-line, I could not
help feeling that in tactfulness and
consideration for others she
was still a little to seek. And I said as much, with some
directness of language.
That was the end of me, from a society point of view. Rudeness
to visitors was the unpardonable sin, and in two seconds I
had my marching orders, and was
sullenly wending my way to the
St. Elelena of the
nursery. As I climbed the stair, my thoughts
reverted somehow to a game we had been playing that very morning.
It was the good old game of Rafts,--a game that will be played
till all the oceans are dry and all the trees in the world are
felled--and after. And we were all
crowded together on the
precarious little
platform, and Selina occupied every bit as much
room as I did, and Charlotte's legs didn't
dangle over any more
than Harold's. The
pitiless sun
overhead beat on us all with
tropic impartiality, and the hungry sharks, whose fins scored the
limitless Pacific stretching out on every side, were impelled by
an
appetite that made no exceptions as to sex. When we shared
the
ultimatebiscuit and circulated the last water-keg, the girls
got an
absolute fourth
apiece, and neither more nor less; and
the only partiality shown was entirely in favour of
Charlotte, who was allowed to
perceive and to hail the saviour-
sail on the
horizon. And this was only because it was her turn
to do so, not because she happened to be this or that. Surely,
the rules of the raft were the rules of life, and in what, then,
did these visitor-ladies'
grievance consist?
Puzzled and a little sulky, I pushed open the door of the
deserted
nursery, where the raft that had rocked beneath so many
hopes and fears still occupied the ocean-floor. To the dull eye,
that merely tarries upon the outsides of things, it might have
appeared unromantic and even unraftlike, consisting only as it
did of a round sponge-bath on a bald deal towel-horse placed flat
on the floor. Even to myself much of the recent raft-glamour
seemed to have
departed as I half-mechanically stepped inside and
curled myself up in it for a
solitaryvoyage. Once I was
in, however, the old magic and
mystery returned in full flood,
when I discovered that the inequalities of the towel-horse caused
the bath to rock,
slightly, indeed, but easily and incessantly.
A few minutes of this
delightfulmotion, and one was fairly
launched. So those women below didn't want us? Well, there were
other women, and other places, that did. And this was going to
be no scrambling raft-affair, but a full-blooded
voyage of the
Man, equipped and purposeful, in search of what was his rightful
own.
Whither should I shape my course, and what sort of
vessel should
I
charter for the
voyage? The
shipping of all England was mine
to pick from, and the far corners of the globe were my rightful
inheritance. A
frigate, of course, seemed the natural vehicle
for a boy of spirit to set out in. And yet there was something
rather "uppish" in commanding a
frigate at the very first
set-off, and little spread was left for the
ambition. Frigates,
too, could always be acquired later by sheer adventure; and your
real hero generally saved up a square-rigged ship for the final
achievement and the rapt return. No, it was a
schooner that I
was
aboard of--a
schooner whose masts raked devilishly as the
leaping seas hissed along her low black gunwale. Many
hairbrained youths started out on a mere
cutter; but I was
prudent, and besides I had some inkling of the serious affairs
that were ahead.
I have said I was already on board; and, indeed, on this occasion