and he did not now wish to
consult with anyone as to the great
step which he had determined to take. As he had said to his
daughter, no one knows where the shoe pinches but the wearer.
There are some points on which no man can be
contented to
follow the advice of another--some subjects on which a man
can
consult his own
conscience only. Our
warden had made
up his mind that it was good for him at any cost to get rid of
this
grievance; his daughter was the only person whose
concurrence appeared necessary to him, and she did concur with
him most
heartily. Under such circumstances he would not,
if he could help it,
consult anyone further, till advice would be
useless. Should the archdeacon catch him, indeed, there
would be much advice, and much
consultation of a kind not
to be avoided; but he hoped better things; and as he felt that
he could not now
converse on
indifferent subjects, he resolved
to see no one till after his
interview with the attorney-general.
He determined to take
sanctuary in Westminster Abbey, so
he again went
thither in an omnibus, and
finding that the
doors were not open for morning service, he paid his twopence,
and went in as a sightseer. It occurred to him that he had no
definite place of rest for the day, and that he should be
absolutely worn out before his
interview if he attempted to walk
about from 10 A.M. to 10 P.M., so he sat himself down on a
stone step, and gazed up at the figure of William Pitt, who
looks as though he had just entered the church for the first
time in his life and was anything but pleased at
findinghimself there.
He had been sitting unmolested about twenty minutes when
the verger asked him whether he wouldn't like to walk round.
Mr Harding didn't want to walk
anywhere, and declined,
merely observing that he was
waiting for the morning service.
The verger,
seeing that he was a
clergyman, told him that the
doors of the choir were now open, and showed him into a seat.
This was a great point gained; the archdeacon would certainly
not come to morning service at Westminster Abbey, even
though he were in London; and here the
warden could rest
quietly, and, when the time came, duly say his prayers.
He longed to get up from his seat, and examine the music-
books of the choristers, and the copy of the litany from which
the service was chanted, to see how far the little details at
Westminster corresponded with those at Barchester, and
whether he thought his own voice would fill the church well
from the Westminster precentor's seat. There would, however,
be impropriety in such meddling, and he sat perfectly
still, looking up at the noble roof, and guarding against the
coming fatigues of the day.
By degrees two or three people entered; the very same
damp old woman who had nearly obliterated him in the
omnibus, or some other just like her; a couple of young ladies
with their veils down, and gilt crosses
conspicuous on their
prayer-books; an old man on crutches; a party who were
seeing the abbey, and thought they might as well hear the
service for their twopence, as opportunity served; and a young
woman with her prayer-book done up in her handkerchief,
who rushed in late, and, in her
hurried entry, tumbled over
one of the forms, and made such a noise that
everyone, even
the officiating minor canon, was startled, and she herself was
so frightened by the echo of her own
catastrophe that she was
nearly thrown into fits by the panic.
Mr Harding was not much edified by the manner of the
service. The minor canon in question
hurried in, somewhat
late, in a surplice not in the neatest order, and was followed by
a dozen choristers, who were also not as trim as they might
have been: they all jostled into their places with a quick
hurried step, and the service was soon commenced. Soon
commenced and soon over--for there was no music, and time
was not unnecessarily lost in the chanting. On the whole
Mr Harding was of opinion that things were managed better
at Barchester, though even there he knew that there was room
for improvement.
It appears to us a question whether any
clergyman can go
through our church service with decorum, morning after morning,
in an
immense building, surrounded by not more than a
dozen listeners. The best actors cannot act well before empty
benches, and though there is, of course, a higher
motive in one
case than the other, still even the best of clergymen cannot but