'But, Mr Harding, I must express what I feel, lest you
should think there is personal
enmity in what I'm going to do.'
'Personal
enmity! Going to do! Why, you're not going
to cut my
throat, nor put me into the Ecclesiastical Court!'
Bold tried to laugh, but he couldn't. He was quite in
earnest, and determined in his course, and couldn't make a
joke of it. He walked on
awhile in silence before he recommenced
his attack, during which Mr Harding, who had still the bow
in his hand, played rapidly on an
imaginaryvioloncello. 'I
fear there is reason to think that John Hiram's will is not
carried out to the letter, Mr Harding,' said the young man at
last; 'and I have been asked to see into it.'
'Very well, I've no
objection on earth; and now we need
not say another word about it.'
'Only one word more, Mr Harding. Chadwick has referred
me to Cox and Cummins, and I think it my duty to apply to
them for some statement about the hospital. In what I do I
may appear to be interfering with you, and I hope you will
forgive me for doing so.'
'Mr Bold,' said the other, stopping, and
speaking with some
solemnity, 'if you act
justly, say nothing in this matter but the
truth, and use no
unfair weapons in carrying out your purposes,
I shall have nothing to
forgive. I
presume you think
I am not entitled to the
income I receive from the hospital,
and that others are entitled to it. Whatever some may do, I
shall never
attribute to you base motives because you hold an
opinion opposed to my own and
adverse to my interests: pray
do what you consider to be your duty; I can give you no
assistance, neither will I offer you any
obstacle. Let me,
however, suggest to you, that you can in no wise forward your
views nor I mine, by any
discussion between us. Here comes
Eleanor and the ponies, and we'll go in to tea.'
Bold, however, felt that he could not sit down at ease with
Mr Harding and his daughter after what had passed, and
therefore excused himself with much
awkwardapology; and
merely raising his hat and bowing as he passed Eleanor and the
pony chair, left her in disappointed
amazement at his
departure.
Mr Harding's
demeanour certainly impressed Bold with a
full
conviction that the
warden felt that he stood on strong
grounds, and almost made him think that he was about to
interfere without due
warrant in the private affairs of a just
and
honourable man; but Mr Harding himself was anything
but satisfied with his own view of the case.
In the first place, he wished for Eleanor's sake to think well
of Bold and to like him, and yet he could not but feel disgusted
at the
arrogance of his conduct. What right had he to say
that John Hiram's will was not fairly carried out? But then
the question would arise within his heart,--Was that will fairly
acted on? Did John Hiram mean that the
warden of his
hospital should receive
considerably more out of the legacy
than all the twelve old men together for whose behoof the
hospital was built? Could it be possible that John Bold was
right, and that the
reverendwarden of the hospital had been
for the last ten years and more the
unjust recipient of an
incomelegally and equitably belonging to others? What if it should
be proved before the light of day that he, whose life had been
so happy, so quiet, so respected, had absorbed #800 to which
he had no title, and which he could never repay? I do not
say that he feared that such was really the case; but the first
shade of doubt now fell across his mind, and from this evening,
for many a long, long day, our good, kind
lovingwarden was
neither happy nor at ease.
Thoughts of this kind, these first moments of much misery,
oppressed Mr Harding as he sat sipping his tea,
absent and
ill at ease. Poor Eleanor felt that all was not right, but her
ideas as to the cause of the evening's
discomfort did not go
beyond her lover, and his sudden and uncivil
departure. She
thought there must have been some quarrel between Bold and
her father, and she was half angry with both, though she did
not attempt to explain to herself why she was so.
Mr Harding thought long and deeply over these things, both
before he went to bed and after it, as he lay awake, questioning
within himself the validity of his claim to the
income which he
enjoyed. It seemed clear at any rate that, however unfortunate
he might be at having been placed in such a position, no one
could say that he ought either to have refused the appointment
first, or to have rejected the
income afterwards. All the
world--meaning the
ecclesiastical world as confined to the
English church--knew that the
wardenship of the Barchester
Hospital was a snug sinecure, but no one had ever been
blamed for accepting it. To how much blame, however,
would he have been open had he rejected it! How mad would
he have been thought had he declared, when the situation was
vacant and offered to him, that he had scruples as to receiving
#800 a year from John Hiram's property, and that he had
rather some stranger should possess it! How would Dr
Grantly have
shaken his wise head, and have consulted with
his friends in the close as to some
decentretreat for the coming
insanity of the poor minor canon! If he was right in accepting
the place, it was clear to him also that he would be wrong in
rejecting any part of the
income attached to it. The
patronage
was a
valuable appanage of the
bishopric; and surely it would
not be his duty to
lessen the value of that preferment which
had been bestowed on himself; surely he was bound to stand
by his order.
But somehow these
arguments, though they seemed logical,
were not
satisfactory. Was John Hiram's will fairly carried
out? that was the true question: and if not, was it not his
especial duty to see that this was done--his
especial duty,
whateverinjury it might do to his order--however ill such
duty might be received by his
patron and his friends? At the
idea of his friends, his mind turned unhappily to his son-in-law.
He knew well how
strongly he would be supported by Dr Grantly,
if he could bring himself to put his case into the archdeacon's
hands and to allow him to fight the battle; but he knew also that
he would find no
sympathy there for his doubts, no friendly
feeling, no
inward comfort. Dr Grantly would be ready enough to
take up his
cudgel against all comers on
behalf of the church
militant, but he would do so on the
distasteful ground of the
church's infallibility. Such a
contest would give no comfort to
Mr Harding's doubts. He was not so
anxious to prove himself
right, as to be so.
I have said before that Dr Grantly was the
working man of
the diocese, and that his father the
bishop was somewhat
inclined to an idle life. So it was; but the
bishop, though he
had never been an active man, was one whose qualities had
rendered him dear to all who knew him. He was the very
opposite to his son; he was a bland and a kind old man, opposed
by every feeling to
authoritative demonstrations and episcopal
ostentation. It was perhaps well for him, in his situation,
that his son had early in life been able to do that which
he could not well do when he was younger, and which he could
not have done at all now that he was over seventy. The
bishop knew how to
entertain the
clergy of his diocese, to
talk easy small-talk with the rectors' wives, and put curates at
their ease; but it required the strong hand of the archdeacon
to deal with such as were refractory either in their doctrines or
their lives.
The
bishop and Mr Harding loved each other warmly.