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were too young to know its meaning. I would not have accepted



the position if I had not meant to make it useful and honorable.

I am not bound to regard family dignity in any other light."



Dorothea felt wretched. She thought her husband altogether

in the wrong, on more grounds than Will had mentioned.



"It is better for us not to speak on the subject," she said,

with a tremulousness not common in her voice, "since you and



Mr. Casaubon disagree. You intend to remain?" She was looking

out on the lawn, with melancholy meditation.



"Yes; but I shall hardly ever see you now," said Will, in a tone

of almost boyish complaint.



"No," said Dorothea, turning her eyes full upon him, "hardly ever.

But I shall hear of you. I shall know what you are doing for



my uncle."

"I shall know hardly anything about you," said Will. "No one



will tell me anything."

"Oh, my life is very simple," said Dorothea, her lips curling



with an exquisite smile, which irradiated her melancholy.

"I am always at Lowick."



"That is a dreadful imprisonment," said Will, impetuously.

"No, don't think that," said Dorothea. "I have no longings."



He did not speak, but she replied to some change in his expression.

"I mean, for myself. Except that I should like not to have so much



more than my share without doing anything for others. But I have

a belief of my own, and it comforts me."



"What is that?" said Will, rather jealous of the belief.

"That by desiring what is perfectly good, even when we don't



quite know what it is and cannot do what we would, we are part

of the divine power against evil--widening the skirts of light



and making the struggle with darkness narrower."

"That is a beautiful mysticism--it is a--"



"Please not to call it by any name," said Dorothea, putting out

her hands entreatingly. "You will say it is Persian, or something



else geographical. It is my life. I have found it out, and cannot

part with it. I have always been finding out my religion since I



was a little girl. I used to pray so much--now I hardly ever pray.

I try not to have desires merely for myself, because they may not



be good for others, and I have too much already. I only told you,

that you might know quite well how my days go at Lowick."



"God bless you for telling me!" said Will, ardently, and rather

wondering at himself. They were looking at each other like two



fond children who were talking confidentially of birds.

"What is YOUR religion?" said Dorothea. "I mean--not what you



know about religion, but the belief that helps you most?"

"To love what is good and beautiful when I see it," said Will.



"But I am a rebel: I don't feel bound, as you do, to submit to what I

don't like."



"But if you like what is good, that comes to the same thing,"

said Dorothea, smiling.



"Now you are subtle," said Will.

"Yes; Mr. Casaubon often says I am too subtle. I don't feel as if I



were subtle," said Dorothea, playfully. "But how long my uncle is!

I must go and look for him. I must really go on to the Hall.



Celia is expecting me."

Will offered to tell Mr. Brooke, who presently came and said



that he would step into the carriage and go with Dorothea as far

as Dagley's, to speak about the small delinquent who had been caught



with the Ieveret. Dorothea renewed the subject of the estate

as they drove along, but Mr. Brooke, not being taken unawares,



got the talk under his own control.

"Chettam, now," he replied; "he finds fault with me, my dear;



but I should not preserve my game if it were not for Chettam,

and he can't say that that expense is for the sake of the tenants,



you know. It's a little against my feeling:--poaching, now, if you

come to look into it--I have often thought of getting up the subject.



Not long ago, Flavell, the Methodist preacher, was brought up for

knocking down a hare that came across his path when he and his wife



were walking out together. He was pretty quick, and knocked it on

the neck."



"That was very brutal, I think," said Dorothea

"Well, now, it seemed rather black to me, I confess, in a






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