they slip off and disappear; and you never see them again. Gone
back, I suppose."
"Of course," said I. "Don't see what they ever came away for;
_I_ wouldn't,--to be told you've broken things when you haven't,
and stopped having tea with the servants in the kitchen, and not
allowed to have a dog to sleep with you. But _I've_ known
people, too, who've gone there."
The artist stared, but without incivility.
"Well, there's Lancelot," I went on. "The book says he died, but
it never seemed to read right, somehow. He just went away, like
Arthur. And Crusoe, when he got tired of wearing clothes
and being
respectable. And all the nice men in the stones who
don't marry the Princess, 'cos only one man ever gets married in
a book, you know. They'll be there!"
"And the men who never come off," he said, "who try like the
rest, but get knocked out, or somehow miss,--or break down or get
bowled over in the melee,--and get no Princess, nor even a
second-class kingdom,--some of them'll be there, I hope?"
"Yes, if you like," I replied, not quite under
standing him; "if
they're friends of yours, we'll ask 'em, of course."
"What a time we shall have!" said the artist, reflectively; "and
how shocked old Marcus Aurelius will be!"
The shadows had lengthened uncannily, a tide of golden haze was
flooding the grey-green surface of the downs, and the artist
began to put his traps together,
preparatory to a move. I felt
very low; we would have to part, it seemed, just as we were
getting on so well together. Then he stood up, and he was very
straight and tall, and the
sunset was in his hair and beard as he
stood there, high over me. He took my hand like an equal.
"I've enjoyed our conversation very much," he said. "That was an
interesting subject you started, and we haven't half
exhausted
it. We shall meet again, I hope."
"Of course we shall," I replied, surprised that there should be
any doubt about it.
"In Rome, perhaps?" said he.
"Yes, in Rome," I answered, "or Piccy-the-other-place, or
somewhere."
"Or else," said he, "in that other city,--when we've found the
way there. And I'll look out for you, and you'll sing out as
soon as you see me. And we'll go down the street arm-in-arm, and
into all the shops, and then I'll choose my house, and you'll
choose your house, and we'll live there like princes and good
fellows."
"Oh, but you'll stay in my house, won't you?" I cried; "wouldn't
ask everybody; but I'll ask YOU."
He
affected to consider a moment; then "Right!" he said: "I
believe you mean it, and I WILL come and stay with you. I
won't go to anybody else, if they ask me ever so much. And I'll
stay quite a long time, too, and I won't be any trouble."
Upon this
compact we parted, and I went down-heartedly from the
man who understood me, back to the house where I never could do
anything right. How was it that everything seemed natural and
sensible to him, which these uncles, vicars, and other
grown-upmen took for the merest
tomfoolery? Well, he would explain this,
and many another thing, when we met again. The Knights' Road!
How it always brought consolation! Was he possibly one of those
vanished knights I had been looking for so long? Perhaps he
would be in
armour next time,--why not? He would look well in
armour, I thought. And I would take care to get there first, and
see the
sunlight flash and play on his
helmet and
shield, as he
rode up the High Street of the Golden City.
Meantime, there only remained the
finding it,--an easy
matter.
THE SECRET DRAWER
IT must surely have served as a boudoir for the ladies of old
time, this little used,
rarely entered
chamber where the
neglected old
bureau stood. There was something very
feminine in
the faint hues of its faded brocades, in the rose and blue of
such bits of china as yet remained, and in the
delicate old-world
fragrance of pot-pourri from the great bowl--blue and white, with
funny holes in its cover--that stood on the
bureau's flat top.
Modern aunts disdained this out-of-the-way, back-water, upstairs
room, preferring to do their accounts and
grapple with their
correspondence in some central position more in the whirl of
things,
whence one eye could be kept on the
carriage drive, while
the other was alert for malingering servants and marauding
children. Those aunts of a former generation--I sometimes felt--
would have suited our habits better. But even by us children, to
whom few places were private or reserved, the room was
visited but
rarely. To be sure, there was nothing particular in
it that we coveted or required,--only a few spindle-legged gilt-
backed chairs; an old harp, on which, so the legend ran, Aunt
Eliza herself used once to play, in years
remote, unchronicled; a
corner-cupboard with a few pieces of china; and the old
bureau.
But one other thing the room possessed,
peculiar to itself; a
certain sense of privacy,--a power of making the
intruder feel
that he WAS intruding,--perhaps even a
faculty of hinting that
some one might have been sitting on those chairs,
writing at the
bureau, or fingering the china, just a second before one entered.
No such
violent word as "haunted" could possibly apply to this
pleasant
old-fashionedchamber, which indeed we all rather liked;
but there was no doubt it was reserved and stand-offish, keeping
itself to itself.
Uncle Thomas was the first to draw my attention to the
possibilities of the old
bureau. He was pottering about the
house one afternoon, having ordered me to keep at his heels for
company,--he was a man who hated to be left one minute alone,--
when his eye fell on it. H'm! Sheraton!" he remarked. (He had
a smattering of most things, this uncle, especially the
vocabularies.) Then he let down the flap, and examined the empty
pigeon-holes and dusty panelling. "Fine bit of inlay," he went
on: "good work, all of it. I know the sort. There's a secret
drawer in there somewhere." Then, as I
breathlessly drew near,
he suddenly exclaimed: "By Jove, I do want to smoke!" and
wheeling round he
abruptly fled for the garden, leaving me with
the cup dashed from my lips. What a strange thing, I mused, was
this smoking, that takes a man suddenly, be he in the court, the
camp, or the grove, grips him like an Afreet, and whirls him off
to do its
imperious behests! Would it be even so with myself, I
wondered, in those unknown
grown-up years to come?
But I had no time to waste in vain speculations. My whole being
was still vibrating to those magic syllables, "secret
drawer;"
and that particular chord had been touched that never fails to
thrill responsive to such words as CAVE, TRAP-DOOR, SLIDING-
PANEL, BULLION, INGOTS, or SPANISH DOLLARS. For, besides its
own special bliss, who ever heard of a secret
drawer with nothing
in it? And oh, I did want money so badly! I mentally ran
over the list of demands which were pressing me the most
imperiously.
First, there was the pipe I wanted to give George Jannaway.
George, who was Martha's young man, was a
shepherd, and a great
ally of mine; and the last fair he was at, when he bought his
sweetheart fairings, as a right-minded
shepherd should, he had
purchased a lovely snake
expressly for me; one of the wooden
sort, with joints, waggling deliciously in the hand; with yellow
spots on a green ground,
sticky and strong-smelling, as a fresh-
painted snake ought to be; and with a red-flannel tongue, pasted
cunningly into its jaws. I loved it much, and took it to bed
with me every night, till what time its
spinal cord was loosed
and it fell apart, and went the way of all
mortal joys. I
thought it so nice of George to think of me at the fair, and
that's why I wanted to give him a pipe. When the young year was
chill and lambing-time was on, George inhabited a little wooden
house on wheels, far out on the
wintry downs, and saw no faces
but such as were sheepish and woolly and mute; ant when he and
Martha were married, she was going to carry his dinner out
to him every day, two miles; and after it, perhaps he would smoke
my pipe. It seemed an idyllic sort of
existence, for both the
parties
concerned; but a pipe of quality, a pipe fitted to be
part of a life such as this, could not be procured (so Martha
informed me) for a less sum than eighteen pence. And meantime--!
Then there was the fourpence I owed Edward; not that he was
bothering me for it, but I knew he was in need of it himself, to
pay back Selina, who wanted it to make up a sum of two shillings,
to buy Harold an ironclad for his approaching birthday,--H. M. S.
Majestic, now lying
uselessly careened in the toyshop window,
just when her country had such sore need of her.
And then there was that boy in the village who had caught a young
squirrel, and I had never yet possessed one, and he wanted a
shilling for it, but I knew that for ninepence in cash--but what
was the good of these sorry, threadbare reflections? I had wants
enough to
exhaust any possible find of
bullion, even if it
amounted to half a
sovereign. My only hope now lay in the magic
drawer, and here I was
standing and letting the precious
minutes slip by. Whether "
findings" of this sort could, morally
speaking, be considered "keepings," was a point that did not
occur to me.
The room was very still as I approached the
bureau,--possessed,
it seemed to be, by a sort of hush of
expectation. The faint
odour of orris-root that floated forth as I let down the flap,
seemed to
identify itself with the yellows and browns of the old
wood, till hue and scent were of one quality and interchangeable.
Even so, ere this, the pot-pourri had mixed itself with the tints
of the old brocade, and brocade and pot-pourri had long been one.
With
expectant fingers I explored the empty pigeon-holes and
sounded the depths of the softly-sliding
drawers. No books that
I knew of gave any general
recipe for a quest like this; but the
glory, should I succeed unaided, would be all the greater.
To him who is destined to arrive, the fates never fail to afford,
on the way, their small encouragements; in less than two minutes,
I had come across a rusty button-hook. This was truly
magnificent. In the
nursery there existed, indeed, a general
button-hook, common to either sex; but none of us possessed
a private and special button-hook, to lend or refuse as suited
the high
humour of the moment. I pocketed the treasure carefully
and proceeded. At the back of another
drawer, three old foreign
stamps told me I was surely on the highroad to fortune.
Following on these bracing incentives, came a dull blank period
of unrewarded search. In vain I removed all the
drawers and felt
over every inch of the smooth surfaces, from front to back.
Never a knob, spring or
projection met the thrilling finger-tips;
unyielding the old
bureau stood, stoutly guarding its secret, if
secret it really had. I began to grow weary and disheartened.
This was not the first time that Uncle Thomas had proved shallow,
uninformed, a guide into blind alleys where the echoes mocked
you. Was it any good persisting longer? Was anything any good
whatever? In my mind I began to
review past disappointments, and
life seemed one long record of
failure and of non-arriral.
Disillusioned and
depressed, I left my work and went to the
window. The light was ebbing from the room, and outside seemed
to be collecting itself on the
horizon for its concentrated
effort of
sunset. Far down the garden, Uncle Thomas was holding
Edward in the air reversed, and smacking him. Edward, gurgling
hysterically, was
striking blind fists in the direction where he
judged his uncle's
stomach should
rightly be; the
contents of his
pockets--a motley show--were strewing the lawn. Somehow, though
I had been put through a similar
performance an hour or two ago,
myself, it all seemed very far away and cut off from me.
Westwards the clouds were massing themselves in a low violet
bank; below them, to north and south, as far round as eye could
reach, a narrow
streak of gold ran out and stretched away,