only obscured it - there were to be no particulars till he should
have submitted his
conception to the
supreme authority. He had
thrown up his
commission, he had thrown up his book, he had thrown
up everything but the
instant need to hurry to Rapallo, on the
Genoese shore, where Vereker was making a stay. I wrote him a
letter which was to await him at Aden - I
besought him to relieve
my
suspense. That he had found my letter was indicated by a
telegram which, reaching me after weary days and in the
absence of
any answer to my laconic
dispatch to him at Bombay, was evidently
intended as a reply to both
communications. Those few words were
in familiar French, the French of the day, which Covick often made
use of to show he wasn't a prig. It had for some persons the
opposite effect, but his message may fairly be paraphrased. "Have
patience; I want to see, as it breaks on you, the face you'll
make!" "Tellement envie de voir ta tete!" - that was what I had to
sit down with. I can certainly not be said to have sat down, for I
seem to remember myself at this time as rattling
constantly between
the little house in Chelsea and my own. Our im
patience,
Gwendolen's and mine, was equal, but I kept hoping her light would
be greater. We all spent during this
episode, for people of our
means, a great deal of money in telegrams and cabs, and I counted
on the
receipt of news from Rapallo immediately after the junction
of the discoverer with the discovered. The
interval seemed an age,
but late one day I heard a hansom precipitated to my door with the
crash engendered by a hint of liberality. I lived with my heart in
my mouth and
accordingly bounded to the window - a
movement which
gave me a view of a young lady erect on the footboard of the
vehicle and
eagerly looking up at my house. At sight of me she
flourished a paper with a
movement that brought me straight down,
the
movement with which, in melodramas, handkerchiefs and reprieves
are flourished at the foot of the scaffold.
"Just seen Vereker - not a note wrong. Pressed me to bosom - keeps
me a month." So much I read on her paper while the cabby dropped a
grin from his perch. In my
excitement I paid him profusely and in
hers she suffered it; then as he drove away we started to walk
about and talk. We had talked, heaven knows, enough before, but
this was a
wondrous lift. We pictured the whole scene at Rapallo,
where he would have written, mentioning my name, for
permission to
call; that is I pictured it, having more material than my
companion, whom I felt hang on my lips as we stopped on purpose
before shop-windows we didn't look into. About one thing we were
clear: if he was staying on for fuller
communication we should at
least have a letter from him that would help us through the dregs
of delay. We understood his staying on, and yet each of us saw, I
think, that the other hated it. The letter we were clear about
arrived; it was for Gwendolen, and I called on her in time to save
her the trouble of bringing it to me. She didn't read it out, as
was natural enough; but she
repeated to me what it chiefly
embodied. This consisted of the
remarkable statement that he'd
tell her after they were married exactly what she wanted to know.
"Only THEN, when I'm his wife - not before," she explained. "It's
tantamount to
saying - isn't it? - that I must marry him straight
off!" She smiled at me while I flushed with
disappointment, a
vision of fresh delay that made me at first
unconscious of my
surprise. It seemed more than a hint that on me as well he would
impose some
tiresome condition. Suddenly, while she reported
several more things from his letter, I remembered what he had told
me before going away. He had found Mr. Vereker deliriously
interesting and his own possession of the secret a real
intoxication. The buried treasure was all gold and gems. Now that
it was there it seemed to grow and grow before him; it would have
been, through all time and
taking all tongues, one of the most
wonderful flowers of
literary art. Nothing, in
especial, once you
were face to face with it, could show for more consummately DONE.
When once it came out it came out, was there with a splendour that
made you
ashamed; and there hadn't been, save in the bottomless
vulgarity of the age, with every one tasteless and tainted, every
sense stopped, the smallest reason why it should have been
overlooked. It was great, yet so simple, was simple, yet so great,
and the final knowledge of it was an experience quite apart. He
intimated that the charm of such an experience, the desire to drain
it, in its
freshness, to the last drop, was what kept him there
close to the source. Gwendolen,
franklyradiant as she tossed me
these fragments, showed the elation of a
prospect more
assured than
my own. That brought me back to the question of her marriage,
prompted me to ask if what she meant by what she had just surprised
me with was that she was under an
engagement.
"Of course I am!" she answered. "Didn't you know it?" She seemed
astonished, but I was still more so, for Corvick had told me the
exact
contrary. I didn't mention this, however; I only reminded
her how little I had been on that score in her confidence, or even
in Corvick's, and that,
moreover I wasn't in
ignorance of her
mother's interdict. At bottom I was troubled by the disparity of
the two accounts; but after a little I felt Corvick's to be the one
I least doubted. This simply reduced me to asking myself if the
girl had on the spot improvised an
engagement - vamped up an old
one or dashed off a new - in order to arrive at the satisfaction
she desired. She must have had resources of which I was destitute,
but she made her case
slightly more intelligible by returning
presently: "What the state of things has been is that we felt of
course bound to do nothing in mamma's lifetime."
"But now you think you'll just
dispense with mamma's consent?"
"Ah it mayn't come to that!" I wondered what it might come to, and
she went on: "Poor dear, she may
swallow the dose. In fact, you
know," she added with a laugh, "she really MUST!" - a proposition
of which, on
behalf of every one
concerned, I fully acknowledged
the force.
CHAPTER VIII.
NOTHING more vexatious had ever happened to me than to become aware
before Corvick's
arrival in England that I shouldn't be there to
put him through. I found myself
abruptly called to Germany by the
alarming
illness of my younger brother, who, against my advice, had
gone to Munich to study, at the feet indeed of a great master, the
art of
portraiture in oils. The near
relative who made him an
allowance had threatened to
withdraw it if he should, under
specious pretexts, turn for superior truth to Paris - Paris being
somehow, for a Cheltenham aunt, the school of evil, the abyss. I
deplored this
prejudice at the time, and the deep
injury of it was
now
visible - first in the fact that it hadn't saved the poor boy,
who was clever, frail and foolish, from congestion of the lungs,
and second in the greater break with London to which the event
condemned me. I'm afraid that what was uppermost in my mind during
several
anxious weeks was the sense that if we had only been in
Paris I might have run over to see Corvick. This was
actually out
of the question from every point of view: my brother, whose
recovery gave us both plenty to do, was ill for three months,
during which I never left him and at the end of which we had to
face the
absoluteprohibition of a return to England. The
consideration of
climate imposed itself, and he was in no state to
meet it alone. I took him to Meran and there spent the summer with
him,
trying to show him by example how to get back to work and
nursing a rage of another sort that I tried NOT to show him.
The whole business proved the first of a
series of
phenomena so
strangely interlaced that, taken together - which was how I had to
take them - they form as good an
illustration as I can recall of
the manner in which, for the good of his soul
doubtless, fate
sometimes deals with a man's avidity. These incidents certainly
had larger bearings than the
comparatively meagre
consequence we
are here
concerned with - though I feel that
consequence also a
thing to speak of with some respect. It's
mainly in such a light,
I
confess, at any rate, that the ugly fruit of my exile is at this
hour present to me. Even at first indeed the spirit in which my
avidity, as I have called it, made me regard that term owed no
element of ease to the fact that before coming back from Rapallo
George Corvick addressed me in a way I objected to. His letter had