This wasn't a
challenge - it was fatherly advice. If I had had one
of his books at hand I'd have
repeated my recent act of faith - I'd
have spent half the night with him. At three o'clock in the
morning, not
sleeping, remembering
moreover how
indispensable he
was to Lady Jane, I stole down to the library with a candle. There
wasn't, so far as I could discover, a line of his
writing in the
house.
CHAPTER IV.
RETURNING to town I feverishly collected them all; I picked out
each in its order and held it up to the light. This gave me a
maddening month, in the course of which several things took place.
One of these, the last, I may as well immediately mention, was that
I acted on Vereker's advice: I renounced my
ridiculous attempt. I
could really make nothing of the business; it proved a dead loss.
After all I had always, as he had himself noted, liked him; and
what now occurred was simply that my new
intelligence and vain
preoccupation damaged my
liking. I not only failed to run a
general
intention to earth, I found myself
missing the subordinate
intentions I had
formerly enjoyed. His books didn't even remain
the
charming things they had been for me; the exasperation of my
search put me out of
conceit of them. Instead of being a pleasure
the more they became a
resource the less; for from the moment I was
unable to follow up the author's hint I of course felt it a point
of honour not to make use professionally of my knowledge of them.
I HAD no knowledge - nobody had any. It was humiliating, but I
could bear it - they only annoyed me now. At last they even bored
me, and I accounted for my
confusion - perversely, I allow - by the
idea that Vereker had made a fool of me. The buried treasure was a
bad joke, the general
intention a
monstrous pose.
The great point of it all is, however, that I told George Corvick
what had
befallen me and that my information had an
immense effect
upon him. He had at last come back, but so,
unfortunately, had
Mrs. Erme, and there was as yet, I could see, no question of his
nuptials. He was
immensely stirred up by the
anecdote I had
brought from Bridges; it fell in so completely with the sense he
had had from the first that there was more in Vereker than met the
eye. When I remarked that the eye seemed what the printed page had
been
expressly invented to meet he immediately accused me of being
spiteful because I had been foiled. Our
commerce had always that
pleasant
latitude. The thing Vereker had mentioned to me was
exactly the thing he, Corvick, had wanted me to speak of in my
review. On my suggesting at last that with the
assistance I had
now given him he would
doubtless be prepared to speak of it himself
he admitted
freely that before doing this there was more he must
understand. What he would have said, had he reviewed the new book,
was that there was
evidently in the
writer's inmost art something
to BE understood. I hadn't so much as hinted at that: no wonder
the
writer hadn't been flattered! I asked Corvick what he really
considered he meant by his own super
subtlety, and, unmistakeably
kindled, he replied: "It isn't for the
vulgar - it isn't for the
vulgar!" He had hold of the tail of something; he would pull hard,
pull it right out. He pumped me dry on Vereker's strange
confidence and, pronouncing me the luckiest of mortals, mentioned
half a dozen questions he wished to
goodness I had had the gumption
to put. Yet on the other hand he didn't want to be told too much -
it would spoil the fun of
seeing what would come. The
failure of
MY fun was at the moment of our meeting not complete, but I saw it
ahead, and Corvick saw that I saw it. I, on my side, saw likewise
that one of the first things he would do would be to rush off with
my story to Gwendolen.
On the very day after my talk with him I was surprised by the
receipt of a note from Hugh Vereker, to whom our
encounter at
Bridges had been recalled, as he mentioned, by his falling, in a
magazine, on some article to which my
signature was
attached. "I
read it with great pleasure," he wrote, "and remembered under its
influence our
lively conversation by your bedroom fire. The
consequence of this has been that I begin to
measure the temerity
of my having saddled you with a knowledge that you may find
something of a burden. Now that the fit's over I can't imagine how
I came to be moved so much beyond my wont. I had never before
mentioned, no matter in what state of
expansion, the fact of my
little secret, and I shall never speak of that
mystery again. I
was
accidentally so much more explicit with you than it had ever
entered into my game to be, that I find this game - I mean the
pleasure of playing it - suffers
considerably. In short, if you
can understand it, I've rather spoiled my sport. I really don't
want to give anybody what I believe you clever young men call the
tip. That's of course a
selfish solicitude, and I name it to you
for what it may be worth to you. If you're disposed to
humour me
don't repeat my
revelation. Think me demented - it's your right;
but don't tell anybody why."
The sequel to this
communication was that as early on the
morrow as
I dared I drove straight to Mr. Vereker's door. He occupied in
those years one of the honest old houses in Kensington Square. He
received me immediately, and as soon as I came in I saw I hadn't
lost my power to
minister to his mirth. He laughed out at sight of
my face, which
doubtless expressed my perturbation. I had been
indiscreet - my compunction was great. "I HAVE told somebody," I
panted, "and I'm sure that person will by this time have told
somebody else! It's a woman, into the bargain."
"The person you've told?"
"No, the other person. I'm quite sure he must have told her."
"For all the good it will do her - or do ME! A woman will never
find out."
"No, but she'll talk all over the place: she'll do just what you
don't want."
Vereker thought a moment, but wasn't so disconcerted as I had
feared: he felt that if the harm was done it only served him
right. "It doesn't matter - don't worry."
"I'll do my best, I promise you, that your talk with me shall go no
further."
"Very good; do what you can."
"In the meantime," I pursued, "George Corvick's possession of the
tip may, on his part, really lead to something."
"That will be a brave day."
I told him about Corvick's cleverness, his
admiration, the
intensity of his interest in my
anecdote; and without making too
much of the divergence of our
respective estimates mentioned that
my friend was already of opinion that he saw much further into a
certain affair than most people. He was quite as fired as I had
been at Bridges. He was
moreover in love with the young lady:
perhaps the two together would
puzzle something out.
Vereker seemed struck with this. "Do you mean they're to be
married?"
"I dare say that's what it will come to."
"That may help them," he conceded, "but we must give them time!"
I spoke of my own renewed
assault and confessed my difficulties;
whereupon he
repeated his former advice: "Give it up, give it up!"
He
evidently didn't think me
intellectually equipped for the
adventure. I stayed half an hour, and he was most good-natured,
but I couldn't help pronouncing him a man of unstable moods. He
had been free with me in a mood, he had repented in a mood, and now
in a mood he had turned
indifferent. This general levity helped me
to believe that, so far as the subject of the tip went, there
wasn't much in it. I contrived however to make him answer a few
more questions about it, though he did so with
visible im
patience.
For himself, beyond doubt, the thing we were all so blank about was
vividly there. It was something, I guessed, in the primal plan,
something like a
complex figure in a Persian
carpet. He highly
approved of this image when I used it, and he used another himself.
"It's the very string," he said, "that my pearls are strung on!"
The reason of his note to me had been that he really didn't want to
give us a grain of succour - our
density was a thing too perfect in
its way to touch. He had formed the habit of depending on it, and