down, as Miss Erme would have said, I was
uneasy, I was expectant.
At the core of my disconcerted state - for my wonted
curiositylived in its ashes - was the sharpness of a sense that Corvick
would at last probably come out somewhere. He made, in defence of
his
credulity, a great point of the fact that from of old, in his
study of this
genius, he had caught whiffs and hints of he didn't
know what, faint wandering notes of a
hidden music. That was just
the rarity, that was the charm: it fitted so
perfectly into what I
reported.
If I returned on several occasions to the little house in Chelsea I
dare say it was as much for news of Vereker as for news of Miss
Erme's ailing parent. The hours spent there by Corvick were
present to my fancy as those of a chessplayer bent with a silent
scowl, all the lamplit winter, over his board and his moves. As my
imagination filled it out the picture held me fast. On the other
side of the table was a ghostlier form, the faint figure of an
antagonist good-humouredly but a little
wearily secure - an
antagonist who leaned back in his chair with his hands in his
pockets and a smile on his fine clear face. Close to Corvick,
behind him, was a girl who had begun to strike me as pale and
wasted and even, on more familiar view, as rather handsome, and who
rested on his shoulder and hung on his moves. He would take up a
chessman and hold it poised a while over one of the little squares,
and then would put it back in its place with a long sigh of
disappointment. The young lady, at this, would
slightly but
uneasily shift her position and look across, very hard, very long,
very
strangely, at their dim participant. I had asked them at an
early stage of the business if it mightn't
contribute to their
success to have some closer
communication with him. The special
circumstances would surely be held to have given me a right to
introduce them. Corvick immediately replied that he had no wish to
approach the altar before he had prepared the sacrifice. He quite
agreed with our friend both as to the delight and as to the honour
of the chase - he would bring down the animal with his own rifle.
When I asked him if Miss Erme were as keen a shot he said after
thinking: "No, I'm
ashamed to say she wants to set a trap. She'd
give anything to see him; she says she requires another tip. She's
really quite morbid about it. But she must play fair - she SHAN'T
see him!" he
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emphatically added. I wondered if they hadn't even
quarrelled a little on the subject - a
suspicion not corrected by
the way he more than once exclaimed to me: "She's quite incredibly
literary, you know - quite fantastically!" I remember his
sayingof her that she felt in italics and thought in capitals. "Oh when
I've run him to earth," he also said, "then, you know, I shall
knock at his door. Rather - I beg you to believe. I'll have it
from his own lips: 'Right you are, my boy; you've done it this
time!' He shall crown me
victor - with the
critical laurel."
Meanwhile he really avoided the chances London life might have
given him of meeting the
distinguishednovelist; a danger, however,
that disappeared with Vereker's leaving England for an indefinite
absence, as the newspapers announced - going to the south for
motives connected with the health of his wife, which had long kept
her in
retirement. A year - more than a year - had elapsed since
the
incident at Bridges, but I had had no further sight of him. I
think I was at bottom rather
ashamed - I hated to
remind him that,
though I had irremediably missed his point, a
reputation for
acuteness was rapidly overtaking me. This
scruple led me a dance;
kept me out of Lady Jane's house, made me even decline, when in
spite of my bad manners she was a second time so good as to make me
a sign, an
invitation to her beautiful seat. I once became aware
of her under Vereker's
escort at a concert, and was sure I was seen
by them, but I slipped out without being caught. I felt, as on
that occasion I splashed along in the rain, that I couldn't have
done anything else; and yet I remember
saying to myself that it was
hard, was even cruel. Not only had I lost the books, but I had
lost the man himself: they and their author had been alike spoiled
for me. I knew too which was the loss I most regretted. I had
taken to the man still more than I had ever taken to the books.
CHAPTER VI.
SIX months after our friend had left England George Corvick, who
made his living by his pen,
contracted for a piece of work which
imposed on him an
absence of some length and a journey of some
difficulty, and his
undertaking of which was much of a surprise to
me. His
brother-in-law had become editor of a great
provincialpaper, and the great
provincial paper, in a fine
flight of fancy,
had conceived the idea of sending a "special commissioner" to
India. Special commissioners had begun, in the "metropolitan
press," to be the fashion, and the
journal in question must have
felt it had passed too long for a mere country cousin. Corvick had
no hand, I knew, for the big brush of the
correspondent, but that
was his
brother-in-law's affair, and the fact that a particular
task was not in his line was apt to be with himself exactly a
reason for accepting it. He was prepared to out-Herod the
metropolitan press; he took
solemn precautions against
priggishness, he
exquisitely outraged taste. Nobody ever knew it -
that offended principle was all his own. In
addition to his
expenses he was to be
conveniently paid, and I found myself able to
help him, for the usual fat book, to a plausible
arrangement with
the usual fat
publisher. I naturally inferred that his obvious
desire to make a little money was not unconnected with the prospect
of a union with Gwendolen Erme. I was aware that her mother's
opposition was largely addressed to his want of means and of
lucrative abilities, but it so happened that, on my
saying the last
time I saw him something that bore on the question of his
separation from our young lady, he brought out with an emphasis
that startled me: "Ah I'm not a bit engaged to her, you know!"
"Not overtly," I answered, "because her mother doesn't like you.
But I've always taken for granted a private understanding."
"Well, there WAS one. But there isn't now." That was all he said
save something about Mrs. Erme's having got on her feet again in
the most
extraordinary way - a remark pointing, as I
supposed, the
moral that private understandings were of little use when the
doctor didn't share them. What I took the liberty of more closely
inferring was that the girl might in some way have estranged him.
Well, if he had taken the turn of
jealousy for
instance it could
scarcely be
jealousy of me. In that case - over and above the
absurdity of it - he wouldn't have gone away just to leave us
together. For some time before his going we had indulged in no
allusion to the buried treasure, and from his silence, which my
reserve simply emulated, I had drawn a sharp
conclusion. His
courage had dropped, his
ardour had gone the way of mine - this
appearance at least he left me to scan. More than that he couldn't
do; he couldn't face the
triumph with which I might have greeted an
explicit
admission. He needn't have been afraid, poor dear, for I
had by this time lost all need to
triumph. In fact I considered I
showed magnanimity in not reproaching him with his
collapse, for
the sense of his having thrown up the game made me feel more than
ever how much I at last depended on him. If Corvick had broken
down I should never know; no one would be of any use if HE wasn't.
It wasn't a bit true I had ceased to care for knowledge; little by
little my
curiosity not only had begun to ache again, but had
become the familiar
torment of my days and my nights. There are
doubtless people to whom
torments of such an order appear hardly
more natural than the contortions of disease; but I don't after all
know why I should in this connexion so much as mention them. For
the few persons, at any rate,
abnormal or not, with whom my
anecdote is
concerned,
literature was a game of skill, and skill
meant courage, and courage meant honour, and honour meant
passion,
meant life. The stake on the table was of a special substance and