"And I," replied Etienne, "can _I_ go on the
seashore after sundown?"
The double meaning of this speech, full of the gentle playfulness of a
first desire, made the old man smile.
"You have a daughter, Beauvouloir."
"Yes, monseigneur,--the child of my old age; my
darling child.
Monseigneur, the duke, your father, charged me so
earnestly to watch
your precious health that, not being able to go to Forcalier, where
she was, I have brought her here, to my great regret. In order to
conceal her from all eyes, I have placed her in the house monseigneur
used to occupy. She is so
delicate I fear everything, even a sudden
sentiment or
emotion. I have never taught her anything; knowledge
would kill her."
"She knows nothing!" cried Etienne, surprised.
"She has all the talents of a good
housewife, but she has lived as the
plants live. Ignorance, monseigneur, is as
sacred a thing as
knowledge. Knowledge and
ignorance are only two ways of living, for
the human creature. Both
preserve the soul and
envelop it; knowledge
is your
existence, but
ignorance will save my daughter's life. Pearls
well-hidden escape the diver, and live happy. I can only compare my
Gabrielle to a pearl; her skin has the pearl's translucence, her soul
its
softness, and until this day Forcalier has been her fostering
shell."
"Come with me," said Etienne, throwing on a cloak. "I want to walk on
the
seashore, the air is so soft."
Beauvouloir and his master walked in silence until they reached a spot
where a line of light, coming from between the shutters of a
fisherman's house, had furrowed the sea with a golden rivulet.
"I know not how to express," said Etienne, addressing his companion,
"the sensations that light, cast upon the water, excites in me. I have
often watched it streaming from the windows of that room," he added,
pointing back to his mother's
chamber, "until it was extinguished."
"Delicate as Gabrielle is," said Beauvouloir, gaily, "she can come and
walk with us; the night is warm, and the air has no dampness. I will
fetch her; but be
prudent, monseigneur."
Etienne was too timid to propose to accompany Beauvouloir into the
house; besides, he was in that torpid state into which we are plunged
by the influx of ideas and sensations which give birth to the dawn of
passion. Conscious of more freedom in being alone, he cried out,
looking at the sea now gleaming in the moonlight,--
"The Ocean has passed into my soul!"
The sight of the lovely living statuette which was now advancing
towards him, silvered by the moon and wrapped in its light, redoubled
the palpitations of his heart, but without causing him to suffer.
"My child," said Beauvouloir, "this is monseigneur."
In a moment poor Etienne longed for his father's
colossal figure; he
would fain have seemed strong, not puny. All the vanities of love and
manhood came into his heart like so many arrows, and he remained in
gloomy silence, measuring for the first time the
extent of his
imperfections. Embarrassed by the
salutation of the young girl, he
returned it
awkwardly, and stayed beside Beauvouloir, with whom he
talked as they paced along the shore;
presently, however, Gabrielle's
timid and deprecating
countenance emboldened him, and he dared to
address her. The
incident of the song was the result of mere chance.
Beauvouloir had intentionally made no preparations; he thought,
wisely, that between two beings in whom
solitude had left pure hearts,
love would arise in all its
simplicity. The
repetition of the air by
Gabrielle was a ready text on which to begin a conversation.
During this
promenade Etienne was
conscious of that
bodily buoyancy
which all men have felt at the moment when a first love transports
their vital principle into another being. He offered to teach
Gabrielle to sing. The poor lad was so glad to show himself to this
young girl invested with some slight
superiority that he trembled with
pleasure when she accepted his offer. At that moment the moonlight
fell full upon her, and enabled Etienne to note the points of her
resemblance to his mother, the late
duchess. Like Jeanne de Saint-
Savin, Beauvouloir's daughter was
slender and
delicate; in her, as in
the
duchess,
sadness and
suffering conveyed a
mysterious charm. She
had that
nobility of manner
peculiar to souls on whom the ways of the
world have had no influence, and in whom all is noble because all is
natural. But in Gabrielle's veins there was also the blood of "la
belle Romaine," which had flowed there from two generations, giving to
this young girl the
passionate heart of a courtesan in an absolutely
pure soul; hence the
enthusiasm that sometimes reddened her cheek,
sanctified her brow, and made her
exhale her soul like a flash of
light, and communicated the
sparkle of flame to all her motions.
Beauvouloir shuddered when he noticed this
phenomenon, which we may
call in these days the phosphorescence of thought; the old physician
of that period regarded it as the precursor of death.
Hidden beside her father, Gabrielle endeavored to see Etienne at her
ease, and her looks expressed as much
curiosity as pleasure, as much
kindliness as
innocentdaring. Etienne detected her in stretching her
neck around Beauvouloir with the
movement of a timid bird looking out
of its nest. To her the young man seemed not
feeble, but
delicate; she
found him so like herself that nothing alarmed her in this sovereign
lord. Etienne's
sicklycomplexion, his beautiful hands, his languid
smile, his hair parted in the middle into two straight bands, ending
in curls on the lace of his large flat
collar, his noble brow,
furrowed with
youthful wrinkles,--all these contrasts of
luxury and
weakness, power and pettiness, pleased her; perhaps they gratified the
instinct of
maternalprotection, which is the germ of love; perhaps,
also, they stimulated the need that every woman feels to find
distinctive signs in the man she is prompted to love. New ideas, new
sensations were rising in each with a force, with an
abundance that
enlarged their souls; both remained silent and
overcome, for
sentiments are least demonstrative when most real and deep. All
durable love begins by
dreamymeditation. It was
suitable that these
two beings should first see each other in the softer light of the
moon, that love and its splendors might not
dazzle them too suddenly;
it was well that they met by the shores of the Ocean,--vast image of
the vastness of their feelings. They parted filled with one another,
fearing, each, to have failed to please.
From his window Etienne watched the lights of the house where
Gabrielle was. During that hour of hope mingled with fear, the young
poet found fresh meanings in Petrarch's sonnets. He had now seen
Laura, a
delicate,
delightful figure, pure and glowing like a sunray,
intelligent as an angel,
feeble as a woman. His twenty years of study
found their meaning, he understood the
mystic marriage of all
beauties; he perceived how much of womanhood there was in the poems he
adored; in short, he had so long loved un
consciously that his whole
past now blended with the
emotions of this
glorious night. Gabrielle's
resemblance to his mother seemed to him an order divinely given. He
did not
betray his love for the one in
loving the other; this new love
continued HER maternity. He contemplated that young girl, asleep in
the
cottage, with the same feelings his mother had felt for him when
he was there. Here, again, was a similitude which bound this present
to the past. On the clouds of memory the saddened face of his mother
appeared to him; he saw once more her
feeble smile, he heard her
gentle voice; she bowed her head and wept. The lights in the
cottagewere extinguished. Etienne sang once more the pretty canzonet, with a
new expression, a new meaning. From afar Gabrielle again replied. The
young girl, too, was making her first
voyage into the charmed land of
amorous
ecstasy. That echoed answer filled with joy the young man's
heart; the blood flowing in his veins gave him a strength he never yet
had felt, love made him powerful. Feeble beings alone know the
voluptuous joy of that new
creation entering their life. The poor, the
suffering, the ill-used, have joys ineffable; small things to them are
worlds. Etienne was bound by many a tie to the dwellers in the City of
Sorrows. His recent
accession to
grandeur had caused him
terror only;
love now shed within him the balm that created strength; he loved
Love.
The next day Etienne rose early to
hasten to his old house, where
Gabrielle, stirred by
curiosity and an
impatience she did not
acknowledge to herself, had already curled her hair and put on her
prettiest
costume. Both were full of the eager desire to see each
other again,--mutually fearing the results of the
interview. As for
Etienne, he had chosen his finest lace, his best-embroidered mantle,
his violet-velvet
breeches; in short, those handsome habiliments which
we connect in all memoirs of the time with the pallid face of Louis
XIII., a face oppressed with pain in the midst of
grandeur, like that