MONTHS, the whole truth about Mr. Abel. Hardly less could have
been looked for from his nearest friend, and I had hoped that the
discussion in the newspapers would have ceased, at all events,
until the appearance of the promised book. It has not been so;
and at this distance from Guiana I was not aware of how much
conjectural matter was being printed week by week in the local
press, some of which must have been
painfulreading to Mr. Abel's
friends. A darkened
chamber, the
existence of which had never
been suspected in that familiar house in Main Street, furnished
only with an ebony stand on which stood a cinerary urn, its
surface ornamented with flower and leaf and thorn, and winding
through it all the figure of a
serpent; an
inscription, too, of
seven short words which no one could understand or rightly
interpret; and finally the
disposal of the
mysterious ashes--that
was all there was relating to an
untold chapter in a man's life
for
imagination to work on. Let us hope that now, at last, the
romance-weaving will come to an end. It was, however, but
natural that the keenest
curiosity should have been excited; not
only because of that
peculiar and
indescribable charm of the man,
which all recognized and which won all hearts, but also because
of that
hidden chapter--that
sojourn in the desert, about which
he preserved silence. It was felt in a vague way by his
intimates that he had met with
unusual experiences which had
profoundlyaffected him and changed the course of his life. To
me alone was the truth known, and I must now tell,
briefly as
possible, how my great friendship and close
intimacy with him
came about.
When, in 1887, I arrived in Georgetown to take up an appointment
in a public office, I found Mr. Abel an old
resident there, a man
of means and a favourite in society. Yet he was an alien, a
Venezuelan, one of that
turbulent people on our border whom the
colonists have always looked on as their natural enemies. The
story told to me was that about twelve years before that time he
had arrived at Georgetown from some
remote district in the
interior; that he had journeyed alone on foot across half the
continent to the coast, and had first appeared among them, a
young stranger, penniless, in rags, wasted almost to a skeleton
by fever and
misery of all kinds, his face blackened by long
exposure to sun and wind. Friendless, with but little English,
it was a hard struggle for him to live; but he managed somehow,
and
eventually letters from Caracas informed him that a
considerable property of which he had been deprived was once more
his own, and he was also invited to return to his country to take
his part in the government of the Republic. But Mr. Abel, though
young, had already outlived political passions and aspirations,
and,
apparently, even the love of his country; at all events, he
elected to stay where he was--his enemies, he would say
smilingly, were his best friends--and one of the first uses he
made of his fortune was to buy that house in Main Street which
was afterwards like a home to me.
I must state here that my friend's full name was Abel Guevez de
Argensola, but in his early days in Georgetown he was called by
his Christian name only, and later he wished to be known simply
as "Mr. Abel."
I had no sooner made his
acquaintance than I ceased to wonder at
the
esteem and even
affection with which he, a Venezuelan, was
regarded in this British colony. All knew and liked him, and the
reason of it was the personal charm of the man, his kindly
disposition, his manner with women, which pleased them and
excited no man's jealousy--not even the old hot-tempered
planter's, with a very young and pretty and light-headed
wife--his love of little children, of all wild creatures, of
nature, and of
whatsoever was furthest removed from the common
material interests and concerns of a
purelycommercial community.
The things which excited other men--
politics, sport, and the
price of crystals--were outside of his thoughts; and when men had
done with them for a season, when like the
tempest they had
"blown their fill" in office and club-room and house and wanted a
change, it was a
relief to turn to Mr. Abel and get him to
discourse of his world--the world of nature and of the spirit.
It was, all felt, a good thing to have a Mr. Abel in Georgetown.
That it was indeed good for me I quickly discovered. I had
certainly not expected to meet in such a place with any person to
share my tastes--that love of
poetry which has been the chief
passion and delight of my life; but such a one I had found in Mr.
Abel. It surprised me that he, suckled on the
literature of
Spain, and a reader of only ten or twelve years of English
literature, possessed a knowledge of our modern
poetry as
intimate as my own, and a love of it
equally great. This feeling
brought us together and made us two--the
nervous olive-skinned
Hispano-American of the tropics and the phlegmatic blue-eyed
Saxon of the cold north--one in spirit and more than brothers.
Many were the
daylight hours we spent together and "tired the sun
with talking"; many, past counting, the precious evenings in that
restful house of his where I was an almost daily guest. I had
not looked for such happiness; nor, he often said, had he. A
result of this
intimacy was that the vague idea
concerning his
hidden past, that some
unusual experience had
profoundlyaffectedhim and perhaps changed the whole course of his life, did not
diminish, but, on the
contrary, became accentuated, and was often
in my mind. The change in him was almost
painful to witness
whenever our wandering talk touched on the subject of the
aborigines, and of the knowledge he had acquired of their
character and languages when living or travelling among them; all
that made his conversation most engaging--the
lively, curious
mind, the wit, the
gaiety of spirit tinged with a tender
melancholy--appeared to fade out of it; even the expression of
his face would change, becoming hard and set, and he would deal
you out facts in a dry
mechanical way as if
reading them in a
book. It grieved me to note this, but I dropped no hint of such
a feeling, and would never have
spoken about it but for a quarrel
which came at last to make the one brief
solitary break in that
close friendship of years. I got into a bad state of health, and
Abel was not only much
concerned about it, but annoyed, as if I
had not treated him well by being ill, and he would even say that
I could get well if I wished to. I did not take this seriously,
but one morning, when
calling to see me at the office, he
attacked me in a way that made me
downright angry with him. He
told me that indolence and the use of stimulants was the cause of
my bad health. He spoke in a mocking way, with a presence of not
quite meaning it, but the feeling could not be
wholly disguised.
Stung by his reproaches, I blurted out that he had no right to
talk to me, even in fun, in such a way. Yes, he said, getting
serious, he had the best right--that of our friendship. He would
be no true friend if he kept his peace about such a matter.
Then, in my haste, I retorted that to me the friendship between
us did not seem so perfect and complete as it did to him. One
condition of friendship is that the partners in it should be
known to each other. He had had my whole life and mind open to
him, to read it as in a book. HIS life was a closed and clasped
volume to me.
His face darkened, and after a few moments' silent
reflection he
got up and left me with a cold good-bye, and without that
hand-grasp which had been
customary between us.
After his
departure I had the feeling that a great loss, a great
calamity, had
befallen me, but I was still smarting at his too
candid
criticism, all the more because in my heart I acknowledged
its truth. And that night, lying awake, I repented of the cruel
retort I had made, and
resolved to ask his
forgiveness and leave
it to him to determine the question of our future relations. But
he was
beforehand with me, and with the morning came a letter
begging my
forgiveness and asking me to go that evening to dine
with him.