that sometimes I think that is why I am still here, eating and
sleeping, thinking and dreaming,
writing this
narrative of my
various me's, and awaiting the incontestable rope that will put an
ephemeral period in my long-linked existence.
And then came death in life. I
learned the trick, Ed Morrell taught
it me, as you shall see. It began through Warden Atherton and
Captain Jamie. They must have
experienced a recrudescence of panic
at thought of the
dynamite they believed
hidden. They came to me in
my dark cell, and they told me
plainly that they would
jacket me to
death if I did not
confess where the
dynamite was
hidden. And they
assured me that they would do it
officially without any hurt to
their own official skins. My death would appear on the prison
register as due to natural causes.
Oh, dear, cotton-wool citizen, please believe me when I tell you
that men are killed in prisons to-day as they have always been
killed since the first prisons were built by men.
I well knew the
terror, the agony, and the danger of the
jacket.
Oh, the men spirit-broken by the
jacket! I have seen them. And I
have seen men crippled for life by the
jacket. I have seen men,
strong men, men so strong that their
physical stamina resisted all
attacks of prison
tuberculosis, after a prolonged bout with the
jacket, their
resistance broken down, fade away, and die of
tuberculosis within six months. There was Slant-Eyed Wilson, with
an unguessed weak heart of fear, who died in the
jacket within the
first hour while the unconvinced inefficient of a prison doctor
looked on and smiled. And I have seen a man
confess, after half an
hour in the
jacket, truths and fictions that cost him years of
credits.
I had had my own experiences. At the present moment half a thousand
scars mark my body. They go to the scaffold with me. Did I live a
hundred years to come those same scars in the end would go to the
grave with me.
Perhaps, dear citizen who permits and pays his hang-dogs to lace the
jacket for you--perhaps you are unacquainted with the
jacket. Let
me describe, it, so that you will understand the method by which I
achieved death in life, became a
temporary master of time and space,
and vaulted the prison walls to rove among the stars.
Have you ever seen
canvas tarpaulins or
rubber blankets with brass
eyelets set in along the edges? Then imagine a piece of stout
canvas, some four and one-half feet in length, with large and heavy
brass eyelets
running down both edges. The width of this
canvas is
never the full girth of the human body it is to surround. The width
is also irregular--broadest at the shoulders, next broadest at the
hips, and narrowest at the waist.
The
jacket is spread on the floor. The man who is to be punished,
or who is to be
tortured for
confession, is told to lie face-
downward on the flat
canvas. If he refuses, he is man-handled.
After that he lays himself down with a will, which is the will of
the hang-dogs, which is your will, dear citizen, who feeds and fees
the hang-dogs for doing this thing for you.
The man lies face-downward. The edges of the
jacket are brought as
nearly together as possible along the centre of the man's back.
Then a rope, on the principle of a shoe-lace, is run through the
eyelets, and on the principle of a shoe-lacing the man is laced in
the
canvas. Only he is laced more
severely than any person ever
laces his shoe. They call it "cinching" in prison lingo. On
occasion, when the guards are cruel and vindictive, or when the
command has come down from above, in order to
insure the
severity of
the lacing the guards press with their feet into the man's back as
they draw the lacing tight.
Have you ever laced your shoe too
tightly, and, after half an hour,
experienced that excruciating pain across the instep of the
obstructed
circulation? And do you remember that after a few
minutes of such pain you simply could not walk another step and had
to untie the shoe-lace and ease the
pressure? Very well. Then try
to imagine your whole body so laced, only much more
tightly, and
that the
squeeze, instead of being merely on the instep of one foot,
is on your entire trunk, compressing to the
seeming of death your
heart, your lungs, and all the rest of your vital and essential
organs.
I remember the first time they gave me the
jacket down in the
dungeons. It was at the
beginning of my incorrigibility, shortly
after my entrance to prison, when I was weaving my loom-task of a
hundred yards a day in the jute-mill and finishing two hours ahead
of the average day. Yes, and my jute-sacking was far above the
average demanded. I was sent to the
jacket that first time,
according to the prison books, because of "skips" and "breaks" in
the cloth, in short, because my work was
defective. Of course this
was
ridiculous. In truth, I was sent to the
jacket because I, a new
convict, a master of
efficiency, a trained
expert in the elimination
of waste
motion, had elected to tell the
stupid head
weaver a few
things he did not know about his business. And the head
weaver,
with Captain Jamie present, had me called to the table where
atrocious weaving, such as could never have gone through my loom,
was exhibited against me. Three times was I thus called to the
table. The third
calling meant
punishment according to the loom-
room rules. My
punishment was twenty-four hours in the
jacket.
They took me down into the dungeons. I was ordered to lie face-
downward on the
canvas spread flat upon the floor. I refused. One
of the guards, Morrison, gulletted me with his thumbs. Mobins, the
dungeon
trusty, a
convict himself, struck me
repeatedly with his
fists. In the end I lay down as directed. And, because of the
struggle I had vexed them with, they laced me extra tight. Then
they rolled me over like a log upon my back.
It did not seem so bad at first. When they closed my door, with
clang and clash of levered boltage, and left me in the utter dark,
it was eleven o'clock in the morning. For a few minutes I was aware
merely of an
uncomfortable constriction which I
fondly believed
would ease as I grew accustomed to it. On the
contrary, my heart
began to thump and my lungs seemed
unable to draw sufficient air for
my blood. This sense of suffocation was
terrorizing, and every
thump of the heart threatened to burst my already bursting lungs.
After what seemed hours, and after what, out of my countless
succeeding experiences in the
jacket I can now fairly conclude to
have been not more than half-an-hour, I began to cry out, to yell,
to
scream, to howl, in a very
madness of dying. The trouble was the
pain that had
arisen in my heart. It was a sharp,
definite pain,
similar to that of pleurisy, except that it stabbed hotly through
the heart itself.
To die is not a difficult thing, but to die in such slow and
horrible fashion was maddening. Like a trapped beast of the wild, I
experienced ecstasies of fear, and yelled and howled until I
realized that such vocal exercise merely stabbed my heart more hotly
and at the same time consumed much of the little air in my lungs.
I gave over and lay quiet for a long time--an
eternity it seemed
then, though now I am
confident that it could have been no longer
than a quarter of an hour. I grew dizzy with semi-asphyxiation, and
my heart thumped until it seemed surely it would burst the
canvasthat bound me. Again I lost control of myself and set up a mad
howling for help.
In the midst of this I heard a voice from the next dungeon.
"Shut up," it shouted, though only
faintly it percolated to me.
"Shut up. You make me tired."
"I'm dying," I cried out.
"Pound your ear and forget it," was the reply.
"But I AM dying," I insisted.