"Then why worry?" came the voice. "You'll be dead pretty quick an'
out of it. Go ahead and croak, but don't make so much noise about
it. You're interruptin' my beauty sleep."
So angered was I by this callous
indifference that I recovered self-
control and was
guilty of no more than smothered groans. This
endured an endless time--possibly ten minutes; and then a tingling
numbness set up in all my body. It was like pins and needles, and
for as long as it hurt like pins and needles I kept my head. But
when the prickling of the multitudinous darts ceased to hurt and
only the
numbness remained and continued verging into greater
numbness I once more grew frightened.
"How am I goin' to get a wink of sleep?" my neighbour, complained.
"I ain't any more happy than you. My
jacket's just as tight as
yourn, an' I want to sleep an' forget it."
"How long have you been in?" I asked, thinking him a new-comer
compared to the centuries I had already suffered.
"Since day before
yesterday," was his answer.
"I mean in the
jacket," I amended.
"Since day before
yesterday, brother."
"My God!" I
screamed.
"Yes, brother, fifty straight hours, an' you don't hear me raisin' a
roar about it. They cinched me with their feet in my back. I am
some tight, believe ME. You ain't the only one that's got troubles.
You ain't ben in an hour yet."
"I've been in hours and hours," I protested.
"Brother, you may think so, but it don't make it so. I'm just
tellin' you you ain't ben in an hour. I heard 'm lacin' you."
The thing was
incredible. Already, in less than an hour, I had died
a thousand deaths. And yet this neighbour, balanced and equable,
calm-voiced and almost beneficent
despite the harshness of his first
remarks, had been in the
jacket fifty hours!
"How much longer are they going to keep you in?" I asked.
"The Lord only knows. Captain Jamie is real peeved with me, an' he
won't let me out until I'm about croakin'. Now, brother, I'm going
to give you the tip. The only way is shut your face an' forget it.
Yellin' an' hollerin' don't win you no money in this joint. An' the
way to forget is to forget. Just get to rememberin' every girl you
ever knew. That'll cat up hours for you. Mebbe you'll feel
yourself gettin' woozy. Well, get woozy. You can't beat that for
killin' time. An' when the girls won't hold you, get to thinkin' of
the fellows you got it in for, an' what you'd do to 'em if you got a
chance, an' what you're goin' to do to 'em when you get that same
chance."
That man was Philadelphia Red. Because of prior
conviction he was
serving fifty years for
highwayrobbery committed on the streets of
Alameda. He had already served a dozen of his years at the time he
talked to me in the
jacket, and that was seven years ago. He was
one of the forty lifers who were double-crossed by Cecil Winwood.
For that offence Philadelphia Red lost his credits. He is middle-
aged now, and he is still in San Quentin. If he survives he will be
an old man when they let him out.
I lived through my twenty-four hours, and I have never been the same
man since. Oh, I don't mean
physically, although next morning, when
they unlaced me, I was semi-paralyzed and in such a state of
collapse that the guards had to kick me in the ribs to make me crawl
to my feet. But I was a changed man mentally, morally. The brute
physicaltorture of it was
humiliation and
affront to my spirit and
to my sense of justice. Such
discipline does not
sweeten a man. I
emerged from that first
jacketing filled with a
bitterness and a
passionate
hatred that has only increased through the years. My
God--when I think of the things men have done to me! Twenty-four
hours in the
jacket! Little I thought that morning when they kicked
me to my feet that the time would come when twenty-four hours in the
jacket meant nothing; when a hundred hours in the
jacket found me
smiling when they released me; when two hundred and forty hours in
the
jacket found the same smile on my lips.
Yes, two hundred and forty hours. Dear cotton-woolly citizen, do
you know what that means? It means ten days and ten nights in the
jacket. Of course, such things are not done
anywhere in the
Christian world nineteen hundred years after Christ. I don't ask
you to believe me. I don't believe it myself. I merely know that
it was done to me in San Quentin, and that I lived to laugh at them
and to compel them to get rid of me by swinging me off because I
bloodied a guard's nose.
I write these lines to-day in the Year of Our Lord 1913, and to-day,