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uncertainty. He immediately went into his wife's room,
and after having talked to her for some time about indifferent
matters, he could not
forbear asking her what she had done, and
who she had seen, and
accordingly she gave him an
account: when
he found she did not name the Duke de Nemours he asked her
trembling, if those were all she had seen, in order to give her
an occasion to name the Duke, and that he might not have the
grief to see she made use of any evasion. As she had not seen
him, she did not name him; when Monsieur de Cleves with accents
of sorrow, said, "And have you not seen the Duke de Nemours, or
have you forgot him?" "I have not seen him indeed," answered
she; "I was ill, and I sent one of my women to make my
excuses." "You was ill then only for him," replied Monsieur
de Cleves, "since you admitted the visits of others: why this
distinction with respect to the Duke de Nemours? Why is not he
to you as another man? Why should you be afraid of
seeing him?
Why do you let him
perceive that you are so? Why do you show him
that you make use of the power which his
passion gives you over
him? Would you dare refuse to see him, but that you knew he
distinguishes your rigour from incivility? But why should you
exercise that rigour towards him? From a person like you, all
things are favours, except indifference." "I did not think,"
replied Madam de Cleves, "whatever suspicions you have of the
Duke de Nemours, that you could
reproach me for not admitting a
visit from him." "But I do
reproach you, Madam," replied he,
"and I have good ground for so doing; why should you not see
him, if he has said nothing to you? but Madam, he has spoke to
you; if his
passion had been expressed only by silence, it would
not have made so great an
impression upon you; you have not
thought fit to tell me the whole truth; you have concealed the
greatest part from me; you have repented even of the little you
have acknowledged, and you have not the
resolution to go on; I am
more
unhappy than I imagined, more
unhappy than any other man in
the world: you are my wife, I love you as my
mistress, and I see
you at the same time in love with another, with the most amiable
man of the Court, and he sees you every day, and knows you are in
love with him: Alas! I believed that you would
conquer your
passion for him, but sure I had lost my reason when I believed it
was possible." "I don't know," replied Madam de Cleves very
sorrowfully, "whether you was to blame in judging
favourably of
so
extraordinary a
proceeding as mine; nor do I know if I was not
mistaken when I thought you would do me justice." "Doubt it
not, Madam," replied Monsieur de Cleves, "you was
mistaken; you
expected from me things as impossible as those I expected from
you: how could you hope I should continue master of my reason?
Had you forgot that I was
desperately in love with you, and that
I was your husband? Either of these two circumstances is enough
to hurry a man into extremities; what may they not do both
together? Alas! What do they not do? My thoughts are
violentand
uncertain, and I am not able to control them; I no longer
think myself
worthy of you, nor do I think you are
worthy of me;
I adore you, I hate you, I
offend you, I ask your
pardon, I
admire you, I blush for my
admiration: in a word, I have nothing
of tranquillity or reason left about me: I wonder how I have been
able to live since you spoke to me at Colomiers, and since you
learned, from what the Queen-Dauphin told you, that your
adventure was known; I can't discover how it came to be known,
nor what passed between the Duke de Nemours and you upon the
subject; you will never explain it to me, nor do I desire you to
do it; I only desire you to remember that you have made me the
most
unfortunate, the most
wretched of men."
Having spoke these words, Monsieur de Cleves left his wife, and
set out the next day without
seeing her; but he wrote her a
letter full of sorrow, and at the same time very kind and
obliging: she gave an answer to it so moving and so full of
assurances both as to her past and future conduct, that as those
assurances were grounded in truth, and were the real effect of
her sentiments, the letter made great
impressions on Monsieur de
Cleves, and gave him some tranquillity; add to this that the Duke
de Nemours going to the King as well as himself, he had the
satisfaction to know that he would not be in the same place with
Madam de Cleves. Everytime that lady spoke to her husband, the
passion he expressed for her, the handsomeness of his behaviour,
the friendship she had for him, and the thought of what she owed
him, made
impressions in her heart that weakened the idea of the
Duke de Nemours; but it did not continue long, that idea soon
returned more
lively than before.
For a few days after the Duke was gone, she was hardly sensible
of his
absence; afterwards it tortured her; ever since she had
been in love with him, there did not pass a day, but she either
feared or wished to meet him, and it was a wounding thought to
her to consider that it was no more in the power of fortune to
contrive their meeting.
She went to Colomiers, and ordered to be carried
thither the
large pictures she had caused to be copied from the originals
which the Duchess of Valentinois had procured to be drawn for her
fine house of Annett. All the
remarkable actions that had passed
in the late King's reign were represented in these pieces, and
among the rest was the Siege of Mets, and all those who had
distinguished themselves at that Siege were painted much to the
life. The Duke de Nemours was of this number, and it was that
perhaps which had made Madam de Cleves
desirous of having the
pictures.
Madam de Martigues not being able to go along with the Court,
promised her to come and pass some days at Colomiers. Though
they divided the Queen's favour, they lived together without envy
or
coldness; they were friends, but not confidants; Madam de
Cleves knew that Madam de Martigues was in love with the
Viscount, but Madam de Martigues did not know that Madam de
Cleves was in love with the Duke de Nemours, nor that she was
beloved by him. The relation Madam de Cleves had to the Viscount
made her more dear to Madam de Martigues, and Madam de Cleves was
also fond of her as a person who was in love as well as herself,
and with an
intimate friend of her own lover.
Madam de Martigues came to Colomiers according to her promise,
and found Madam de Cleves living in a very
solitary manner: that
Princess
affected a perfect
solitude, and passed the evenings in
her garden without being accompanied even by her domestics; she
frequently came into the
pavilion where the Duke de Nemours had
overheard her conversation with her husband; she
delighted to be
in the bower that was open to the garden, while her women and
attendants waited in the other bower under the
pavilion, and
never came to her but when she called them. Madam de Martigues
having never seen Colomiers was surprised at the
extraordinarybeauty of it, and particularly with the pleasantness of the
pavilion. Madam de Cleves and she usually passed the evenings
there. The liberty of being alone in the night in so
agreeable a
place would not permit the conversation to end soon between two
young ladies, whose hearts were enflamed with
violentpassions,
and they took great pleasure in conversing together, though they
were not confidants.
Madam de Martigues would have left Colomiers with great
reluctance had she not quitted it to go to a place where the
Viscount was; she set out for Chambort, the Court being there.
The King had been anointed at Rheims by the Cardinal of Loraine,
and the design was to pass the rest of the summer at the castle