equally impossible that her husband should, or should not have
spoken of it. What the Duke de Nemours had said to her, that
curiosity might make a husband do indiscreet things, seemed so
justly
applicable to Monsieur de Cleves's condition, that she
could not think he said it by chance, and the
probability of this
made her conclude that Monsieur de Cleves had abused the
confidence she had placed in him. They were so taken up, the one
and the other, with their
respective thoughts, that they
continued silent a great while; and when they broke from this
silence, they only
repeated the same things they had already said
very often; their hearts and affections grew more and more
estranged from each other.
It is easy to imagine how they passed the night; Monsieur de
Cleves could no longer
sustain the
misfortune of
seeing a woman
whom he adored in love with another; he grew quite heartless, and
thought he had reason to be so in an affair where his honour and
reputation were so deeply wounded: he knew not what to think of
his wife, and was at a loss what conduct he should
prescribe to
her, or what he should follow himself; he saw nothing on all
sides but precipices and rocks; at last, after having been long
tossed to and fro in
suspense, he considered he was soon to set
out for Spain, and
resolved to do nothing which might increase
the
suspicion or knowledge of his
unfortunate condition. He went
to his wife, and told her that what they had to do was not to
debate between themselves who had discovered the secret; but to
make it appear that the story which was got
abroad was a business
in which she had no concern; that it depended upon her to
convince the Duke de Nemours and others of it; that she had
nothing to do but to
behave herself to him with that
coldness and
reserve which she ought to have for a man who professed love to
her; that by this
proceeding she would easily remove the opinion
he entertained of her being in love with him; and
therefore she
needed not to trouble herself as to what he might
hitherto have
thought, since if for the future she discovered no
weakness, his
former thoughts would
vanish of themselves; and that especially
she ought to
frequent the Louvre and the assemblies as usual.
Having said this, Monsieur de Cleves left his wife without
waiting her answer; she thought what he said very
reasonable, and
the
resentment she had against the Duke de Nemours made her
believe she should be able to
comply with it with a great deal of
ease; but it seemed a hard task to her to appear at the marriage
with that freedom and tranquillity of spirit as the occasion
required. Nevertheless as she was to carry the Queen-Dauphin's
train, and had been
distinguished with that honour in preference
to a great many other Princesses, it was impossible to excuse
herself from it without making a great deal of noise and putting
people upon enquiring into the reasons of it. She
resolvedtherefore to do her
utmost, and employed the rest of the day in
preparing herself for it, and in endeavouring to forget the
thoughts that gave her so much
uneasiness; and to this purpose
she locked herself up in her
closet. Of all her griefs the most
violent was that she had reason to
complain of the Duke de
Nemours, and could find no excuse to urge in his favour; she
could not doubt but he had
related this adventure to the Viscount
de Chartres; he had owned it himself, nor could she any more
doubt from his manner of
speaking of it, but that he knew the
adventure
related to her; how could she excuse so great an
imprudence? and what was become of that
extremediscretion which
she had so much admired in this Prince? "He was discreet,"
said she, "while he was
unhappy; but the thought of being happy,
though on
uncertain grounds, has put an end to his
discretion; he
could not consider that he was
beloved, without desiring to have
it known; he said everything he could say; I never acknowledged
it was he I was in love with; he suspected it, and has declared
his
suspicions; if he had been sure of it, he might have acted as
he has; I was to blame for thinking him a man
capable of
concealing what flattered his
vanity; and yet it is for this man,
whom I thought so different from other men, that I am become like
other women, who was so
unlike them before. I have lost the
heart and
esteem of a husband who ought to have been my
happiness; I shall soon be looked upon by all the world as a
person led away by an idle and
violentpassion; he for whom I
entertain this
passion is no longer
ignorant of it; and it was to
avoid these
misfortunes that I hazarded my quiet, and even my
life." These sad reflections were followed by a
torrent of
tears; but however great her grief was, she
plainly perceived she
should be able to support it, were she but satisfied in the Duke
de Nemours.
The Duke was no less
uneasy than she; the in
discretion he had
been
guilty of in telling what he did to the Viscount de
Chartres, and the
mischievous consequences of it, vexed him to
the heart; he could not represent to himself the
affliction and
sorrow he had seen Madam de Cleves in without being pierced with
anguish; he was inconsolable for having said things to her about
this adventure, which, though
gallant enough in themselves,
seemed on this occasion too gross and impolite, since they gave
Madam de Cleves to understand he was not
ignorant that she was
the woman who had that
violentpassion, and that he was the
object of it. It was before the
utmost of his wishes to have a
conversation with her, but now he found he ought rather to fear
than desire it. "What should I say to her!" says he; "should
I go to discover further to her what I have made her too
sensibleof already! Shall I tell how I know she loves me; I, who have
never dared to say I loved her? Shall I begin with
speakingopenly of my
passion, that she may see my hopes have inspired me
with
boldness? Can I even think of approaching her, and of
giving her the trouble to
endure my sight? Which way could I
justify myself? I have no excuse, I am
unworthy of the least
regard from Madam de Cleves, and I even
despair of her ever
looking upon me: I have given her by my own fault better means of
defending herself against me than any she was searching for, and
perhaps searching for to no purpose. I lose by my imprudence the
glory and happiness of being loved by the most beautiful and
deserving lady in the world; but if I had lost this happiness,
without involving her in the most
extreme grief and sufferings at
the same time, I should have had some comfort; for at this moment
I am more
sensible of the harm I have done her, than of that I
have done myself in forfeiting her favour."
The Duke de Nemours continued turning the same thoughts over and
over, and tormenting himself a great while; the desire he had to
speak to Madam de Cleves came
constantly into his mind; he
thought of the means to do it; he thought of
writing to her; but
at last he found,
considering the fault he had committed and the
temper she was in, his best way was to show her a profound
respect by his
affliction and his silence, to let her see he
durst not present himself before her, and to wait for what time,
chance, and the
inclination she had for him might produce to his
advantage. He
resolved also not to
reproach the Viscount de
Chartres for his unfaithfulness, for fear of confirming his
suspicions.
The preparations for the espousals and marriage of Madame on the
next day so entirely took up the thoughts of the Court, that
Madam de Cleves and the Duke de Nemours easily concealed from the
public their grief and
uneasiness. The Queen-Dauphin spoke but
slightly to Madam de Cleves of the conversation they had had with
the Duke de Nemours; and Monsieur de Cleves industriously shunned
speaking to his wife of what was past; so that she did not find
herself under so much
embarrassment as she had imagined.
The espousals were solemnised at the Louvre; and after the feast
and ball all the Royal family went to lie at the Bishop's Palace,