answer she had received from him. The artist went to his atelier and
picked up the letter, whose
concise brutality had broken the tender
heart of the poor mother, and shattered the
edifice of trust her
maternalpreference had erected. When Joseph returned to her
bedsidehe had the good feeling to be silent. He did not speak of his brother
in the three weeks during which--we will not say the
illness, but--the
death agony of the poor woman lasted. Bianchon, who came every day and
watched his patient with the
devotion of a true friend, told Joseph
the truth on the first day of her seizure.
"At her age," he said, "and under the circumstances which have
happened to her, all we can hope to do is to make her death as little
painful as possible."
She herself felt so surely called of God that she asked the next day
for the religious help of old Abbe Loraux, who had been her confessor
for more than twenty-two years. As soon as she was alone with him, and
had poured her griefs into his heart, she said--as she had said to
Madame Hochon, and had
repeated to herself again and again throughout
her life:--
"What have I done to
displease God? Have I not loved Him with all my
soul? Have I wandered from the path of grace? What is my sin? Can I be
guilty of wrong when I know not what it is? Have I the time to repair
it?"
"No," said the old man, in a gentle voice. "Alas! your life seems to
have been pure and your soul spotless; but the eye of God, poor
afflicted creature, is keener than that of his ministers. I see the
truth too late; for you have misled even me."
Hearing these words from lips that had never
spoken other than
peaceful and pleasant words to her, Agathe rose suddenly in her bed
and opened her eyes wide, with
terror and distress.
"Tell me! tell me!" she cried.
"Be comforted," said the
priest. "Your
punishment is a proof that you
will receive
pardon. God chastens his elect. Woe to those whose
misdeeds meet with
fortunate success; they will be kneaded again in
humanity until they in their turn are
sorely punished for simple
errors, and are brought to the
maturity of
celestial fruits. Your
life, my daughter, has been one long error. You have fallen into the
pit which you dug for yourself; we fail ever on the side we have
ourselves weakened. You gave your heart to an
unnatural son, in whom
you made your glory, and you have misunderstood the child who is your
true glory. You have been so deeply
unjust that you never even saw the
striking
contrast between the brothers. You owe the comfort of your
life to Joseph, while your other son has pillaged you
repeatedly. The
poor son, who loves you with no return of equal
tenderness, gives you
all the comfort that your life has had; the rich son, who never thinks
of you, despises you and desires your death--"
"Oh! no," she cried.
"Yes," resumed the
priest, "your
humble position stands in the way of
his proud hopes. Mother, these are your sins! Woman, your sorrows and
your
anguish foretell that you shall know the peace of God. Your son
Joseph is so noble that his
tenderness has never been lessened by the
injustice your
maternalpreferences have done him. Love him now; give
him all your heart during your remaining days; pray for him, as I
shall pray for you."
The eyes of the mother, opened by so firm a hand, took in with one
retrospective glance the whole course of her life. Illumined by this
flash of light, she saw her
involuntary wrong-doing and burst into
tears. The old
priest was so deeply moved at the
repentance of a being
who had sinned
solely through
ignorance, that he left the room hastily
lest she should see his pity.
Joseph returned to his mother's room about two hours after her
confessor had left her. He had been to a friend to borrow the
necessary money to pay his most pressing debts, and he came in on
tiptoe, thinking that his mother was asleep. He sat down in an
armchair without her
seeing him; but he
sprang up with a cold chill
running through him as he heard her say, in a voice broken with
sobs,--
"Will he
forgive me?"
"What is it, mother?" he exclaimed, shocked at the
stricken face of
the poor woman, and thinking the words must mean the delirium that
precedes death.
"Ah, Joseph! can you
pardon me, my child?" she cried.
"For what?" he said.
"I have never loved you as you deserved to be loved."
"Oh, what an accusation!" he cried. "Not loved me? For seven years
have we not lived alone together? All these seven years have you not
taken care of me and done everything for me? Do I not see you every
day,--hear your voice? Are you not the gentle and indulgent companion
of my
miserable life? You don't understand painting?--Ah! but that's a
gift not always given. I was
saying to Grassou only
yesterday: 'What
comforts me in the midst of my trials is that I have such a good
mother. She is all that an artist's wife should be; she sees to
everything; she takes care of my material wants without ever troubling
or worrying me.'"
"No, Joseph, no; you have loved me, but I have not returned you love
for love. Ah! would that I could live a little longer-- Give me your
hand."
Agathe took her son's hand, kissed it, held it on her heart, and
looked in his face a long time,--letting him see the azure of her eyes
resplendent with a
tenderness she had
hitherto bestowed on Philippe
only. The
painter, well fitted to judge of expression, was so struck
by the change, and saw so
plainly how the heart of his mother had
opened to him, that he took her in his arms, and held her for some
moments to his heart, crying out like one beside himself,--"My mother!
oh, my mother!"
"Ah! I feel that I am
forgiven!" she said. "God will
confirm the
child's
pardon of its mother."
"You must be calm: don't
torment yourself; hear me. I feel myself
loved enough in this one moment for all the past," he said, as he laid
her back upon the pillows.
During the two weeks' struggle between life and death, there glowed
such love in every look and
gesture and
impulse of the soul of the
pious creature, that each effusion of her feelings seemed like the
expression of a
lifetime. The mother thought only of her son; she
herself counted for nothing; sustained by love, she was
unaware of her
sufferings. D'Arthez, Michel Chrestien, Fulgence Ridal, Pierre
Grassou, and Bianchon often kept Joseph company, and she heard them
talking art in a low voice in a corner of her room.
"Oh, how I wish I knew what color is!" she exclaimed one evening as
she heard them discussing one of Joseph's pictures.
Joseph, on his side, was sublimely
devoted to his mother. He never
left her
chamber; answered
tenderness by
tenderness, cherishing her
upon his heart. The
spectacle was never afterwards forgotten by his
friends; and they themselves, a band of brothers in
talent and
nobility of nature, were to Joseph and his mother all that they should
have been,--friends who prayed, and truly wept; not
saying prayers and
shedding tears, but one with their friend in thought and action.
Joseph, inspired as much by feeling as by
genius, divined in the
occasional expression of his mother's face a desire that was deep
hidden in her heart, and he said one day to d'Arthez,--
"She has loved that brigand Philippe too well not to want to see him
before she dies."
Joseph begged Bixiou, who frequented the Bohemian regions where
Philippe was still
occasionally to be found, to
persuade that
shameless son to play, if only out of pity, a little
comedy of
tenderness which might wrap the mother's heart in a winding-sheet of
illusive happiness. Bixiou, in his
capacity as an observing and
misanthropical scoffer, desired nothing better than to
undertake such
a
mission. When he had made known Madame Bridau's condition to the
Comte de Brambourg, who received him in a bedroom hung with yellow