before her in the gloom Simoneau sat
silently watching her.
CHAPTER III
THE PROCESSION
I cannot describe my agony during the morning of the following day.
I remember it as a
hideous dream in which my impressions were so
ghastly and so confused that I could not
formulate them. The
persistent yearning for a sudden
awakening increased my
torture, and
as the hour for the
funeral drew nearer my
anguish became more
poignant still.
It was only at
daybreak that I had recovered a fuller
consciousnessof what was going on around me. The creaking of hinges startled me
out of my stupor. Mme Gabin had just opened the window. It must
have been about seven o'clock, for I heard the cries of hawkers in
the street, the
shrill voice of a girl
offering groundsel and the
hoarse voice of a man shouting "Carrots! The
clamorousawakening of
Paris pacified me at first. I could not believe that I should be
laid under the sod in the midst of so much life; and, besides, a
sudden tht would cheer you up."
She was addressing Marguerite, and a slow trickling sound as of
something filtering indicated that she had been making some coffee.
"I don't mind owning," she continued, "that I needed it. At my age
sitting up IS
trying. The night seems so
dreary when there is a
misfortune in the house. DO have a cup of coffee, my dear--just a
drop."
She persuaded Marguerite to taste it.
"Isn't it nice and hot?" she continued, "and doesn't it set one up?
Ah, you'll be
wanting all your strength
presently for what you've
got to go through today. Now if you were
sensible you'd step into
my room and just wait there."
"No, I want to stay here," said Marguerite resolutely.
Her voice, which I had not heard since the
previous evening, touched
me
strangely. It was changed, broken as by tears. To feel my dear
wife near me was a last
consolation. I knew that her eyes were
fastened on me and that she was
weeping with all the
anguish of her
heart.
The minutes flew by. An
inexplicable noise sounded from beyond the
door. It seemed as if some people were bringing a bulky piece of
furniture
upstairs and knocking against the walls as they did so.
Suddenly I understood, as I heard Marguerite begin to sob; it was
the
coffin.
"You are too early," said Mme Gabin crossly. "Put it behind the
bed."
What o'clock was it? Nine, perhaps. So the
coffin had come. Amid
the opaque night around me I could see it
plainly, quite new, with
roughly planed boards. Heavens! Was this the end then? Was I to
be borne off in that box which I realized was lying at my feet?
However, I had one
supreme joy. Marguerite, in spite of her
weakness, insisted upon discharging all the last offices. Assisted
by the old woman, she dressed me with all the
tenderness of a wife
and a sister. Once more I felt myself in her arms as she clothed me
in various garments. She paused at times,
overcome by grief; she
clasped me convulsively, and her tears rained on my face. Oh, how I
longed to return her
embrace and cry, "I live!" And yet I was lying
there
powerless,
motionless, inert!
"You are foolish," suddenly said Mme Gabin; "it is all wasted."
"Never mind," answered Marguerite, sobbing. "I want him to wear his
very best things."
I understood that she was dressing me in the clothes I had worn on
my
wedding day. I had kept them carefully for great occasions.
When she had finished she fell back exhausted in the armchair.
Simoneau now spoke; he had probably just entered the room.
"They are below," he whispered.
"Well, it ain't any too soon," answered Mme Gabin, also lowering her
voice. "Tell them to come up and get it over."
"But I dread the
despair of the poor little wife."
The old woman seemed to
reflect and
presently resumed: "Listen to
me, Monsieur Simoneau. You must take her off to my room. I
wouldn't have her stop here. It is for her own good. When she is
out of the way we'll get it done in a jiffy."
These words pierced my heart, and my
anguish was
intense when I
realized that a struggle was
actuallytaking place. Simoneau had
walked up to Marguerite, imploring her to leave the room.
"Do, for pity's sake, come with me!" he pleaded. "Spare yourself
useless pain."
"No, no!" she cried. "I will remain till the last minute. Remember
that I have only him in the world, and when he is gone I shall be
all alone!"
From the
bedside Mme Gabin was prompting the young man.
"Don't parley--take hold of her, carry her off in your arms."
Was Simoneau about to lay his hands on Marguerite and bear her away?
She screamed. I wildly endeavored to rise, but the springs of my
limbs were broken. I remained rigid,
unable to lift my eyelids to
see what was going on. The struggle continued, and my wife clung to
the furniture, repeating, "Oh, don't, don't! Have mercy! Let me
go! I will not--"
He must have lifted her in his stalwart arms, for I heard her
moaning like a child. He bore her away; her sobs were lost in the
distance, and I fancied I saw them both--he, tall and strong,
pressing her to his breast; she, fainting,
powerless and conquered,
following him
wherever he listed.
"Drat it all! What a to-do!" muttered Mme Gabin. "Now for the tug
of war, as the coast is clear at last."
In my
jealousmadness I looked upon this
incident as a monstrous
outrage. I had not been able to see Marguerite for twenty-four
hours, but at least I had still heard her voice. Now even this was
denied me; she had been torn away; a man had eloped with her even
before I was laid under the sod. He was alone with her on the other
side of the wall, comforting her--embracing her, perhaps!
But the door opened once more, and heavy footsteps shook the floor.
"Quick, make haste,"
repeated Mme Gabin. "Get it done before the
lady comes back."
She was
speaking to some strangers, who merely answered her with
uncouth grunts.
"You understand," she went on, "I am not a relation; I'm only a
neighbor. I have no interest in the matter. It is out of pure good
nature that I have mixed myself up in their affairs. And I ain't
overcheerful, I can tell you. Yes, yes, I sat up the whole blessed
night--it was pretty cold, too, about four o'clock. That's a fact.
Well, I have always been a fool--I'm too soft-hearted."
The
coffin had been dragged into the center of the room. As I had
not awakened I was condemned. All
clearnessdeparted from my ideas;
everything seemed to
revolve in a black haze, and I
experienced such
utter lassitude that it seemed almost a
relief to leave off hoping.
"They haven't spared the material," said one of the undertaker's men
in a gruff voice. "The box is too long."
"He'll have all the more room," said the other, laughing.
I was not heavy, and they chuckled over it since they had three
flights of stairs to
descend. As they were seizing me by the
shoulders and feet I heard Mme Gabin fly into a
violent passion.
"You cursed little brat," she screamed, "what do you mean by poking
your nose where you're not wanted? Look here, I'll teach you to spy
and pry."
Dede had slipped her tousled head through the
doorway to see how the
gentleman was being put into the box. Two ringing slaps resounded,
however, by an
explosion of sobs. And as soon as the mother
returned she began to
gossip about her daughter for the benefit of
the two men who were settling me in the
coffin.
"She is only ten, you know. She is not a bad girl, but she is
frightfully
inquisitive. I do not beat her often; only I WILL be
obeyed."