respect. She the first--the only one! But in the
instant she
saw the son of that other woman she felt herself removed into the
cold, the darkness, the silence of a
solitude impenetrable and
immense--very far from him, beyond the
possibility of any hope,
into an infinity of wrongs without any redress.
She
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strode nearer to Joanna. She felt towards that woman anger,
envy,
jealousy. Before her she felt humiliated and enraged. She
seized the
hangingsleeve of the
jacket in which Joanna was
hiding her face and tore it out of her hands, exclaiming loudly--
"Let me see the face of her before whom I am only a servant and a
slave. Ya-wa! I see you!"
Her
unexpected shout seemed to fill the sunlit space of cleared
grounds, rise high and run on far into the land over the
unstirring tree-tops of the forests. She stood in sudden
stillness, looking at Joanna with surprised contempt.
"A Sirani woman!" she said, slowly, in a tone of wonder.
Joanna rushed at Willems--clung to him,
shrieking: "Defend me,
Peter! Defend me from that woman!"
"Be quiet. There is no danger," muttered Willems, thickly.
Aissa looked at them with scorn. "God is great! I sit in the
dust at your feet," she exclaimed jeeringly, joining her hands
above her head in a
gesture of mock
humility. "Before you I am
as nothing." She turned to Willems
fiercely,
opening her arms
wide. "What have you made of me?" she cried, "you lying child of
an
accursed mother! What have you made of me? The slave of a
slave. Don't speak! Your words are worse than the
poison of
snakes. A Sirani woman. A woman of a people despised by all."
She
pointed her finger at Joanna, stepped back, and began to
laugh.
"Make her stop, Peter!" screamed Joanna. "That
heathen woman.
Heathen! Heathen! Beat her, Peter."
Willems caught sight of the
revolver which Aissa had laid on the
seat near the child. He spoke in Dutch to his wife, without
moving his head.
"Snatch the boy--and my
revolver there. See. Run to the boat.
I will keep her back. Now's the time."
Aissa came nearer. She stared at Joanna, while between the short
gusts of broken
laughter she raved, fumbling distractedly at the
buckle of her belt.
"To her! To her--the mother of him who will speak of your
wisdom, of your courage. All to her. I have nothing. Nothing.
Take, take."
She tore the belt off and threw it at Joanna's feet. She flung
down with haste the armlets, the gold pins, the flowers; and the
long hair, released, fell scattered over her shoulders, framing
in its
blackness the wild exaltation of her face.
"Drive her off, Peter. Drive off the
heathen savage," persisted
Joanna. She seemed to have lost her head
altogether. She
stamped, clinging to Willems' arm with both her hands.
"Look," cried Aissa. "Look at the mother of your son! She is
afraid. Why does she not go from before my face? Look at her.
She is ugly."
Joanna seemed to understand the
scornful tone of the words. As
Aissa stepped back again nearer to the tree she let go her
husband's arm, rushed at her madly, slapped her face, then,
swerving round, darted at the child who, unnoticed, had been
wailing for some time, and, snatching him up, flew down to the
waterside, sending
shriek after
shriek in an
access of
insaneterror.
Willems made for the
revolver. Aissa passed
swiftly, giving him
an
unexpected push that sent him staggering away from the tree.
She caught up the
weapon, put it behind her back, and cried--
"You shall not have it. Go after her. Go to meet danger. . . .
Go to meet death. . . . Go unarmed. . . . Go with empty hands
and sweet words . . . as you came to me. . . . Go
helpless and
lie to the forests, to the sea . . . to the death that waits for
you. . . ."
She ceased as if strangled. She saw in the
horror of the passing
seconds the half-naked, wild-looking man before her; she heard
the faint shrillness of Joanna's
insaneshrieks for help
somewhere down by the
riverside. The
sunlight streamed on her,
on him, on the mute land, on the murmuring river--the gentle
brilliance of a
serene morning that, to her, seemed traversed by
ghastly flashes of
uncertain darkness. Hate filled the world,
filled the space between them--the hate of race, the hate of
hopeless
diversity, the hate of blood; the hate against the man
born in the land of lies and of evil from which nothing but
misfortune comes to those who are not white. And as she stood,
maddened, she heard a
whisper near her, the
whisper of the dead
Omar's voice
saying in her ear: "Kill! Kill!"
She cried,
seeing him move--
"Do not come near me . . . or you die now! Go while I remember
yet . . . remember. . . ."
Willems pulled himself together for a struggle. He dared not go
unarmed. He made a long
stride, and saw her raise the
revolver.
He noticed that she had not cocked it, and said to himself that,
even if she did fire, she would surely miss. Go too high; it was
a stiff
trigger. He made a step nearer--saw the long
barrelmoving unsteadily at the end of her
extended arm. He thought:
This is my time . . . He bent his knees
slightly, throwing his
body forward, and took off with a long bound for a tearing rush.
He saw a burst of red flame before his eyes, and was deafened by
a report that seemed to him louder than a clap of thunder.
Something stopped him short, and he stood aspiring in his
nostrils the acrid smell of the blue smoke that drifted from
before his eyes like an
immense cloud. . . . Missed, by Heaven!
. . . Thought so! . . . And he saw her very far off, throwing
her arms up, while the
revolver, very small, lay on the ground
between them. . . . Missed! . . . He would go and pick it up
now. Never before did he understand, as in that second, the joy,
the
triumphant delight of
sunshine and of life. His mouth was
full of something salt and warm. He tried to cough; spat out. . .
. Who
shrieks: In the name of God, he dies!--he dies!--Who
dies?--Must pick up--Night!--What? . . . Night already. . . .
* * * * * *
Many years afterwards Almayer was telling the story of the great
revolution in Sambir to a chance
visitor from Europe. He was a
Roumanian, half
naturalist, half orchid-hunter for commercial
purposes, who used to declare to everybody, in the first five
minutes of
acquaintance, his
intention of
writing a scientific
book about
tropical countries. On his way to the
interior he had
quartered himself upon Almayer. He was a man of some education,
but he drank his gin neat, or only, at most, would
squeeze the
juice of half a small lime into the raw spirit. He said it was
good for his health, and, with that medicine before him, he would
describe to the surprised Almayer the wonders of European
capitals; while Almayer, in exchange, bored him by expounding,
with gusto, his unfavourable opinions of Sambir's social and
political life. They talked far into the night, across the deal
table on the verandah, while, between them, clear-winged, small,
and flabby insects,
dissatisfied with
moonlight, streamed in and
perished in thousands round the smoky light of the evil-smelling
lamp.
Almayer, his face flushed, was
saying--
"Of course, I did not see that. I told you I was stuck in the
creek on
account of father's--Captain Lingard's--susceptible