about a hundred and fifty feet from the earth. What a distance
to fall, through burning leaves and smoke, like a white bird shot
dead with a poisoned arrow, swift and straight into that sea of
flame below! How cruel
imagination was to turn that
desolateash-heap, in spite of
feathery
foliage and
embroidery of
creepers, into roaring leaping flames again--to bring those dead
savages back, men, women, and children--even the little ones I
had played with--to set them yelling around me: "Burn! burn!"
Oh, no, this damnable spot must not be her last resting-place!
If the fire had not utterly consumed her, bones as well as sweet
tender flesh, shrivelling her like a frail white-winged moth into
the finest white ashes, mixed inseparably with the ashes of stems
and leaves
innumerable, then
whatever remained of her must be
conveyed
elsewhere to be with me, to
mingle with my ashes at
last.
Having
resolved to sift and examine the entire heap, I at once
set about my task. If she had climbed into the central highest
branch, and had fallen straight, then she would have dropped into
the flames not far from the roots; and so to begin I made a path
to the trunk, and when darkness
overtook me I had worked all
round the tree, in a width of three to four yards, without
discovering any remains. At noon on the following day I found
the
skeleton, or, at all events, the larger bones, rendered so
fragile by the
fierce heat they had been subjected to, that they
fell to pieces when handled. But I was careful--how careful!--to
save these last
sacred relics, all that was now left of
Rima!--kissing each white
fragment as I lifted it, and gathering
them all in my old frayed cloak, spread out to receive them. And
when I had recovered them all, even to the smallest, I took my
treasure home.
Another storm had
shaken my soul, and had been succeeded by a
second calm, which was more complete and promised to be more
enduring than the first. But it was no lethargic calm; my brain
was more active than ever; and by and by it found a work for my
hands to do, of such a
character as to
distinguish me from all
other forest hermits, fugitives from their fellows, in that
savage land. The calcined bones I had rescued were kept in one
of the big,
rudely shaped, half-burnt
earthen jars which Nuflo
had used for storing grain and other food-stuff. It was of a
wood-ash colour; and after I had given up my search for the
peculiar fine clay he had used in its manufacture--for it had
been in my mind to make a more shapely
funeral urn myself--I set
to work to
ornament its surface. A
portion of each day was given
to this
artistic labour; and when the surface was covered with a
pattern of
thorny stems, and a trailing creeper with curving leaf
and twining tendril, and pendent bud and
blossom, I gave it
colour. Purples and black only were used, obtained from the
juices of some deeply coloured berries; and when a tint, or
shade, or line failed to satisfy me I erased it, to do it again;
and this so often that I never completed my work. I might, in
the
proudlymodest spirit of the old sculptors, have inscribed on
the vase the words: Abel was doing this. For was not my ideal
beautiful like
theirs, and the best that my art could do only an
imperfect copy--a rude
sketch? A
serpent was represented wound
round the lower
portion of the jar, dull-hued, with a chain of
irregular black spots or blotches extending along its body; and
if any person had
curiously examined these spots he would have
discovered that every other one was a
rudely shaped letter, and
that the letters, by being
properly divided, made the following
words:
Sin vos y siu dios y mi.
Words that to some might seem wild, even
insane in their
extravagance, sung by some ancient forgotten poet; or possibly
the motto of some love-sick knight-errant, whose
passion was
consumed to ashes long centuries ago. But not wild nor
insane to
me,
dwelling alone on a vast stony plain in
everlastingtwilight,
where there was no
motion, nor any sound; but all things, even
trees, ferns, and grasses, were stone. And in that place I had
sat for many a thousand years, drawn up and
motionless, with