instruments and blowing of trumpets, put these things out of your
head. Nor must you begin to think meanly of yourself and be
abashed when you find yourself surrounded by saints and angels;
for you are not less than they, although it may not seem so at
first when you see them in their bright clothes, which, they say,
shine like the sun. I cannot ask you to tie a string round your
finger; I can only trust to your memory, which was always good,
even about the smallest things; and when you are asked, as no
doubt you will be, to express a wish, remember before everything
to speak of your
grandfather, and his claims on you, also on your
angelic mother, to whom you will present my
humble remembrances."
During this
petition, which in other circumstances would have
moved me to
laughter but now only irritated me, a subtle change
seemed to come to the
apparentlylifeless girl to make me hope.
The small hand in mine felt not so icy cold, and though no
faintest colour had come to the face, its pallor had lost
something of its deathly waxen appearance; and now the compressed
lips had relaxed a little and seemed ready to part. I laid my
finger-tips on her heart and felt, or imagined that I felt, a
faint fluttering; and at last I became convinced that her heart
was really beating.
I turned my eyes on the old man, still bending forward, intently
watching for the sign he had asked her to make. My anger and
disgust at his gross earthy egoism had vanished. "Let us thank
God, old man," I said, the tears of joy half choking my
utterance. "She lives--she is recovering from her fit."
He drew back, and on his knees, with bowed head, murmured a
prayer of thanks to Heaven.
Together we continued watching her face for half an hour longer,
I still
holding her in my arms, which could never grow weary of
that sweet burden,
waiting for other, surer signs of returning
life; and she seemed now like one that had fallen into a
profound, death-like sleep which must end in death. Yet when I
remembered her face as it had looked an hour ago, I was confirmed
in the
belief that the progress to
recovery, so
strangely slow,
was yet sure. So slow, so
gradual was this passing from death to
life that we had hardly ceased to fear when we noticed that the
lips were parted, or almost parted, that they were no longer
white, and that under her pale,
transparent skin a faint,
bluish-rosy colour was now
visible. And at length,
seeing that
all danger was past and
recovery so slow, old Nuflo
withdrew once
more to the
fireside and, stretching himself out on the sandy
floor, soon fell into a deep sleep.
If he had not been lying there before me in the strong light of
the glowing embers and dancing flames, I could not have felt more
alone with Rima--alone amid those
remote mountains, in that
secret
cavern, with lights and shadows dancing on its grey vault.
In that
profound silence and
solitude the
mysterious loveliness
of the still face I continued to gaze on, its appearance of life
without
consciousness, produced a strange feeling in me, hard,
perhaps impossible, to describe.
Once, when clambering among the rough rocks, overgrown with
forest, among the Queneveta mountains, I came on a single white
flower which was new to me, which I have never seen since. After
I had looked long at it, and passed on, the image of that perfect
flower remained so persistently in my mind that on the following
day I went again, in the hope of
seeing it still
untouched by
decay. There was no change; and on this occasion I spent a much
longer time looking at it, admiring the marvellous beauty of its
form, which seemed so greatly to
exceed that of all other
flowers. It had thick petals, and at first gave me the idea of
an
artificial flower, cut by a divinely inspired artist from some
unknown precious stone, of the size of a large orange and whiter
than milk, and yet, in spite of its opacity, with a crystalline
lustre on the surface. Next day I went again, scarcely hoping to
find it still unwithered; it was fresh as if only just opened;
and after that I went often, sometimes at intervals of several
days, and still no faintest sign of any change, the clear,
exquisite lines still undimmed, the
purity and lustre as I had
first seen it. Why, I often asked, does not this
mystic forest
flower fade and
perish like others? That first
impression of its
artificial appearance had soon left me; it was, indeed, a flower,
and, like other flowers, had life and growth, only with that
transcendent beauty it had a different kind of life.
Unconscious, but higher; perhaps
immortal. Thus it would
continue to bloom when I had looked my last on it; wind and rain
and
sunlight would never stain, never tinge, its
sacredpurity;