he says, to-day. Be
assured that I
partake in all your feelings, and do not
be angry if I say that our
intercourse, even by letter, must soon be given
up. It makes me
miserable; but Mr. Johnson vows that if I
persist in the
connection, he will settle in the country for the rest of his life, and you
know it is impossible to
submit to such an
extremity while any other
alternative remains. You have heard of course that the Mainwarings are to
part, and I am afraid Mrs. M. will come home to us again; but she is still
so fond of her husband, and frets so much about him, that perhaps she may
not live long. Miss Mainwaring is just come to town to be with her aunt,
and they say that she declares she will have Sir James Martin before she
leaves London again. If I were you, I would certainly get him myself. I had
almost forgot to give you my opinion of Mr. De Courcy; I am really
delighted with him; he is full as handsome, I think, as Mainwaring, and
with such an open, good-humoured
countenance, that one cannot help loving
him at first sight. Mr. Johnson and he are the greatest friends in the
world. Adieu, my dearest Susan, I wish matters did not go so perversely.
That
unlucky visit to Langford! but I dare say you did all for the best,
and there is no defying destiny.
Your
sincerely attached
ALICIA.
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LADY SUSAN TO MRS. JOHNSON
Upper Seymour Street.
My dear Alicia,--I yield to the necessity which parts us. Under
circumstances you could not act
otherwise. Our friendship cannot be
impaired by it, and in happier times, when your situation is as independent
as mine, it will unite us again in the same
intimacy as ever. For this I
shall
impatiently wait, and
meanwhile can
safely assure you that I never
was more at ease, or better satisfied with myself and everything about me
than at the present hour. Your husband I abhor, Reginald I
despise, and I
am secure of never
seeing either again. Have I not reason to
rejoice?
Mainwaring is more
devoted to me than ever; and were we at liberty, I doubt
if I could
resist even matrimony offered by HIM. This event, if his wife
live with you, it may be in your power to
hasten. The
violence of her
feelings, which must wear her out, may be easily kept in
irritation. I rely
on your friendship for this. I am now satisfied that I never could have
brought myself to marry Reginald, and am
equally determined that Frederica
never shall. To-morrow, I shall fetch her from Churchhill, and let Maria
Mainwaring tremble for the
consequence. Frederica shall be Sir James's wife
before she quits my house, and she may
whimper, and the Vernons may storm,
I regard them not. I am tired of
submitting my will to the caprices of
others; of resigning my own judgment in deference to those to whom I owe no
duty, and for whom I feel no respect. I have given up too much, have been
too easily worked on, but Frederica shall now feel the difference. Adieu,
dearest of friends ; may the next gouty attack be more favourable! and may
you always regard me as unalterably yours,
S. VERNON
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LADY DE COURCY TO MRS. VERNON
My dear Catherine,--I have
charming news for you, and if I had not sent
off my letter this morning you might have been spared the
vexation of
knowing of Reginald's being gone to London, for he is returned. Reginald is
returned, not to ask our consent to his marrying Lady Susan, but to tell us
they are parted for ever. He has been only an hour in the house, and I have
not been able to learn particulars, for he is so very low that I have not
the heart to ask questions, but I hope we shall soon know all. This is the
most
joyful hour he has ever given us since the day of his birth. Nothing
is
wanting but to have you here, and it is our particular wish and
entreaty
that you would come to us as soon as you can. You have owed us a visit many
long weeks; I hope nothing will make it
inconvenient to Mr. Vernon; and
pray bring all my grand-children; and your dear niece is included, of
course; I long to see her. It has been a sad, heavy winter hitherto,
without Reginald, and
seeing nobody from Churchhill. I never found the
season so
dreary before; but this happy meeting will make us young again.
Frederica runs much in my thoughts, and when Reginald has recovered his
usual good spirits (as I trust he soon will) we will try to rob him of his
heart once more, and I am full of hopes of
seeing their hands joined at no
great distance.
Your
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affectionate mother,
C. DE COURCY
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MRS. VERNON TO LADY DE COURCY