I should throw across the rest of the
mystery the long halter
of my boldness?
This thought held me
sufficiently to make me cross to his
threshold and pause again. I preternaturally listened; I figured
to myself what might portentously be; I wondered if his bed were
also empty and he too were
secretly at watch. It was a deep,
soundless minute, at the end of which my
impulse failed.
He was quiet; he might be
innocent; the risk was
hideous;
I turned away. There was a figure in the grounds--a figure
prowling for a sight, the
visitor with whom Flora was engaged;
but it was not the
visitor most
concerned with my boy.
I hesitated afresh, but on other grounds and only for a few seconds;
then I had made my choice. There were empty rooms at Bly,
and it was only a question of choosing the right one.
The right one suddenly presented itself to me as the lower one--
though high above the gardens--in the solid corner of the house
that I have
spoken of as the old tower. This was a large,
square
chamber, arranged with some state as a bedroom, the extravagant
size of which made it so
inconvenient that it had not for years,
though kept by Mrs. Grose in exemplary order, been occupied.
I had often admired it and I knew my way about in it; I had only,
after just faltering at the first chill gloom of its disuse,
to pass across it and unbolt as quietly as I could one of
the shutters. Achieving this
transit, I uncovered the glass
without a sound and, applying my face to the pane, was able,
the darkness without being much less than within, to see that I
commanded the right direction. Then I saw something more.
The moon made the night
extraordinarily penetrable and
showed me on the lawn a person, diminished by distance,
who stood there
motionless and as if fascinated, looking up
to where I had appeared--looking, that is, not so much
straight at me as at something that was
apparently above me.
There was clearly another person above me--there was a person
on the tower; but the presence on the lawn was not in the least
what I had conceived and had
confidentlyhurried to meet.
The presence on the lawn--I felt sick as I made it out--
was poor little Miles himself.
XI
It was not till late next day that I spoke to Mrs. Grose;
the rigor with which I kept my pupils in sight making it often
difficult to meet her
privately, and the more as we each felt
the importance of not provoking--on the part of the servants
quite as much as on that of the children--any suspicion
of a secret flurry or that of a
discussion of mysteries.
I drew a great
security in this particular from her mere
smooth
aspect. There was nothing in her fresh face to pass
on to others my
horrible confidences. She believed me,
I was sure,
absolutely: if she hadn't I don't know what would
have become of me, for I couldn't have borne the business alone.
But she was a
magnificentmonument to the
blessing of a want
of
imagination, and if she could see in our little charges nothing
but their beauty and amiability, their happiness and cleverness,
she had no direct
communication with the sources of my trouble.
If they had been at all visibly blighted or battered, she would
doubtless have grown, on tracing it back,
haggard enough
to match them; as matters stood, however, I could feel her,
when she surveyed them, with her large white arms folded
and the habit of serenity in all her look, thank the Lord's
mercy that if they were ruined the pieces would still serve.
Flights of fancy gave place, in her mind, to a steady
fireside glow,
and I had already begun to
perceive how, with the development
of the
conviction that--as time went on without a public accident--
our young things could, after all, look out for themselves,
she addressed her greatest solicitude to the sad case presented
by their instructress. That, for myself, was a sound simplification:
I could engage that, to the world, my face should tell no tales,
but it would have been, in the conditions, an
immense added
strain to find myself
anxious about hers.
At the hour I now speak of she had joined me, under
pressure,
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