she was not near home. She had not given me the slip for any
small adventure, and, since the day of the very great one
that I had shared with her by the pond, I had been aware,
in our walks, of the quarter to which she most inclined.
This was why I had now given to Mrs. Grose's steps so marked
a direction--a direction that made her, when she perceived it,
oppose a
resistance that showed me she was
freshly mystified.
"You're going to the water, Miss?--you think she's IN--?"
"She may be, though the depth is, I believe,
nowhere very great.
But what I judge most likely is that she's on the spot from which,
the other day, we saw together what I told you."
"When she pretended not to see--?"
"With that astounding self-possession? I've always been sure she wanted
to go back alone. And now her brother has managed it for her."
Mrs. Grose still stood where she had stopped. "You suppose they
really TALK of them?"
"I could meet this with a confidence! "They say things that,
if we heard them, would simply
appall us."
"And if she IS there--"
"Yes?"
"Then Miss Jessel is?"
"Beyond a doubt. You shall see."
"Oh, thank you!" my friend cried, planted so firm that,
taking it in, I went straight on without her. By the time
I reached the pool, however, she was close behind me, and I
knew that,
whatever, to her
apprehension, might
befall me,
the
exposure of my society struck her as her least danger.
She exhaled a moan of
relief as we at last came in sight
of the greater part of the water without a sight of the child.
There was no trace of Flora on that nearer side of the bank
where my
observation of her had been most startling,
and none on the opposite edge, where, save for a margin
of some twenty yards, a thick copse came down to the water.
The pond, oblong in shape, had a width so scant compared
to its length that, with its ends out of view, it might have
been taken for a scant river. We looked at the empty expanse,
and then I felt the
suggestion of my friend's eyes.
I knew what she meant and I replied with a
negative headshake.
"No, no; wait! She has taken the boat."
My
companion stared at the
vacant mooring place and then again across
the lake. "Then where is it?"
"Our not
seeing it is the strongest of proofs. She has used it to go over,
and then has managed to hide it."
"All alone--that child?"
"She's not alone, and at such times she's not a child: she's an old,
old woman." I scanned all the
visible shore while Mrs. Grose took again,
into the queer element I offered her, one of her plunges of submission;
then I
pointed out that the boat might
perfectly be in a small refuge
formed by one of the recesses of the pool, an indentation masked,
for the
hither side, by a
projection of the bank and by a clump of trees
growing close to the water.
"But if the boat's there, where on earth's SHE?"
my
colleagueanxiously asked.
"That's exactly what we must learn." And I started to walk further.
"By going all the way round?"
"Certainly, far as it is. It will take us but ten minutes,
but it's far enough to have made the child prefer not to walk.
She went straight over."
"Laws!" cried my friend again; the chain of my logic was ever
too much for her. It dragged her at my heels even now,
and when we had got halfway round--a devious,
tiresome process,
on ground much broken and by a path choked with overgrowth--
I paused to give her
breath. I sustained her with a
grateful arm,
assuring her that she might hugely help me; and this started
us afresh, so that in the course of but few minutes more we reached
a point from which we found the boat to be where I had
supposed it.
It had been intentionally left as much as possible out of sight
and was tied to one of the stakes of a fence that came, just there,
down to the brink and that had been an
assistance to disembarking.
I recognized, as I looked at the pair of short, thick oars,
quite
safely drawn up, the
prodigiouscharacter of the feat
for a little girl; but I had lived, by this time, too long
among wonders and had panted to too many livelier measures.
There was a gate in the fence, through which we passed,
and that brought us, after a
triflinginterval, more into the open.
Then, "There she is!" we both exclaimed at once.
Flora, a short way off, stood before us on the grass and smiled
as if her
performance was now complete. The next thing she did,
however, was to stoop straight down and pluck--quite as if it
were all she was there for--a big, ugly spray of withered fern.
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instantly became sure she had just come out of the copse.
She waited for us, not herself
taking a step, and I was
conscious of the rare
solemnity with which we presently
approached her. She smiled and smiled, and we met; but it
was all done in a silence by this time flagrantly ominous.
Mrs. Grose was the first to break the spell: she threw
herself on her knees and,
drawing the child to her breast,
clasped in a long
embrace the little tender, yielding body.
While this dumb
convulsion lasted I could only watch it--
which I did the more
intently when I saw Flora's face peep
at me over our
companion's shoulder. It was serious now--
the
flicker had left it; but it strengthened the pang with which I
at that moment envied Mrs. Grose the
simplicity of HER relation.
Still, all this while, nothing more passed between us save
that Flora had let her foolish fern again drop to the ground.
What she and I had
virtually said to each other was that
pretexts were
useless now. When Mrs. Grose finally got up she
kept the child's hand, so that the two were still before me;
and the
singular reticence of our
communion was even more
marked in the frank look she launched me. "I'll be hanged,"
it said, "if _I_'ll speak!"
It was Flora who, gazing all over me in candid wonder,
was the first. She was struck with our bareheaded aspect.
"Why, where are your things?"
"Where yours are, my dear!" I
promptly returned.
She had already got back her
gaiety, and appeared to take
this as an answer quite sufficient. "And where's Miles?"
she went on.
There was something in the small valor of it that quite finished me:
these three words from her were, in a flash like the
glitter of a
drawn blade, the
jostle of the cup that my hand, for weeks and weeks,
had held high and full to the brim that now, even before speaking,
I felt
overflow in a
deluge. "I'll tell you if you'll tell ME--"
I heard myself say, then heard the tremor in which it broke.
"Well, what?"
Mrs. Grose's
suspense blazed at me, but it was too late now,
and I brought the thing out handsomely. "Where, my pet,
is Miss Jessel?"
XX
Just as in the
churchyard with Miles, the whole thing was upon us.
Much as I had made of the fact that this name had never once,
between us, been sounded, the quick,
smitten glare with
which the child's face now received it fairly likened
my
breach of the silence to the smash of a pane of glass.
It added to the interposing cry, as if to stay the blow,
that Mrs. Grose, at the same
instant, uttered over my violence--
the
shriek of a creature scared, or rather wounded, which, in turn,
within a few seconds, was completed by a gasp of my own.
I seized my
colleague's arm. "She's there, she's there!"
Miss Jessel stood before us on the opposite bank exactly as she
had stood the other time, and I remember,
strangely, as the
first feeling now produced in me, my
thrill of joy at having
brought on a proof. She was there, and I was justified;
she was there, and I was neither cruel nor mad.