at shorter range, some
challenge between us, breaking the hush,
would have been the right result of our straight
mutual stare.
He was in one of the angles, the one away from the house,
very erect, as it struck me, and with both hands on the ledge.
So I saw him as I see the letters I form on this page;
then, exactly, after a minute, as if to add to the spectacle,
he slowly changed his place--passed, looking at me hard all
the while, to the opposite corner of the
platform. Yes, I had
the sharpest sense that during this
transit he never took his
eyes from me, and I can see at this moment the way his hand,
as he went, passed from one of the crenelations to the next.
He stopped at the other corner, but less long, and even
as he turned away still markedly fixed me. He turned away;
that was all I knew.
IV
It was not that I didn't wait, on this occasion,
for more, for I was rooted as deeply as I was shaken.
Was there a "secret" at Bly--a
mystery of Udolpho or an insane,
an unmentionable
relative kept in unsuspected confinement?
I can't say how long I turned it over, or how long, in a
confusionof
curiosity and dread, I remained where I had had my collision;
I only recall that when I re-entered the house darkness had quite
closed in. Agitation, in the
interval, certainly had held me
and
driven me, for I must, in circling about the place, have walked
three miles; but I was to be, later on, so much more overwhelmed
that this mere dawn of alarm was a
comparatively human chill.
The most
singular part of it, in fact--
singular as the rest had been--
was the part I became, in the hall, aware of in meeting Mrs. Grose.
This picture comes back to me in the general train--the impression,
as I received it on my return, of the wide white panelled space,
bright in the lamplight and with its portraits and red carpet,
and of the good surprised look of my friend, which immediately
told me she had missed me. It came to me straightway,
under her
contact, that, with plain heartiness, mere relieved
anxiety at my appearance, she knew nothing
whatever that
could bear upon the
incident I had there ready for her.
I had not suspected in advance that her comfortable face would
pull me up, and I somehow
measured the importance of what I
had seen by my thus
finding myself
hesitate to mention it.
Scarce anything in the whole history seems to me so odd
as this fact that my real
beginning of fear was one,
as I may say, with the
instinct of sparing my
companion.
On the spot,
accordingly, in the pleasant hall and with her
eyes on me, I, for a reason that I couldn't then have phrased,
achieved an
inward resolution--offered a vague pretext
for my lateness and, with the plea of the beauty of the night
and of the heavy dew and wet feet, went as soon as possible
to my room.
Here it was another affair; here, for many days after,
it was a queer affair enough. There were hours, from day
to day--or at least there were moments, snatched even from
clear duties--when I had to shut myself up to think.
It was not so much yet that I was more
nervous than I could
bear to be as that I was
remarkably afraid of becoming so;
for the truth I had now to turn over was, simply and clearly,
the truth that I could arrive at no
accountwhatever of
the
visitor with whom I had been so inexplicably and yet,
as it seemed to me, so
intimatelyconcerned. It took little
time to see that I could sound without forms of inquiry
and without exciting remark any
domestic complications.
The shock I had suffered must have sharpened all my senses;
I felt sure, at the end of three days and as the result
of mere closer attention, that I had not been practiced
upon by the servants nor made the object of any "game."
Of
whatever it was that I knew, nothing was known around me.
There was but one sane
inference: someone had taken
a liberty rather gross. That was what,
repeatedly, I dipped