doubter. Whatever questionings had marked his intellectual
adolescence had either been very slight or had been too
adequately answered to leave any serious scars upon his
convictions.
And even now he felt that he was afflicted
physically rather
than
mentally, that some
protective padding of nerve-sheath or
brain-case had worn thin and weak, and left him a prey to strange
disturbances, rather than that any new process of thought was
eating into his mind. These doubts in his mind were still not
really doubts; they were rather alien and, for the first time,
uncontrolled movements of his
intelligence. He had had a
sheltered upbringing; he was the well-connected son of a
comfortable rectory, the only son and sole
survivor of a family
of three; he had been carefully instructed and he had been a
willing learner; it had been easy and natural to take many things
for granted. It had been very easy and pleasant for him to take
the world as he found it and God as he found Him. Indeed for all
his years up to
manhood he had been able to take life exactly as
in his
infancy he took his carefully warmed and prepared bottle
--unquestioningly and beneficially.
And indeed that has been the way with most
bishops since
bishops began.
It is a busy
continuous process that turns boys into
bishops,
and it will stand few jars or discords. The student of
ecclesiastical
biography will find that an early
vocation has in
every age been almost
universal among them; few are there among
these lives that do not display the incipient
bishop from the
tenderest years. Bishop How of Wakefield
composed hymns before he
was eleven, and Arch
bishop Benson when scarcely older possessed a
little
oratory in which he conducted services and--a pleasant
touch of the more
secular boy--which he protected from a too
inquisitive sister by means of a booby trap. It is rare that
those marked for
episcopal dignities go so far into the outer
world as Arch
bishop Lang of York, who began as a barrister. This
early predestination has always been the common
episcopalexperience. Arch
bishop Benson's early attempts at religious
services
remind one both of St. Thomas a Becket, the "boy
bishop," and those early ceremonies of St. Athanasius which were
observed and inquired upon by the good
bishop Alexander. (For
though still a tender
infant, St. Athanasius with perfect
correctness and validity was baptizing a number of his innocent
playmates, and the
bishop who "had paused to
contemplate the
sports of the child remained to
confirm the zeal of the
missionary.") And as with the
bishop of the past, so with the
bishop of the future; the Rev. H. J. Campbell, in his story of
his soul's
pilgrimage, has given us a pleasant picture of himself
as a child stealing out into the woods to build himself a little
altar.
Such minds as these, settled as it were from the outset, are
either in
capable of real scepticism or become sceptical only
after catastrophic changes. They understand the sceptical mind
with difficulty, and their beliefs are regarded by the sceptical
mind with incredulity. They have determined their forms of belief
before their years of
discretion, and once those forms are
determined they are not very easily changed. Within the shell it
has adopted the
intelligence may be active and
lively enough, may
indeed be
extraordinarily active and
lively, but only within the
shell.
There is an entire difference in the
mental quality of those
who are converts to a faith and those who are brought up in it.
The former know it from outside as well as from within. They know
not only that it is, but also that it is not. The latter have a
confidence in their creed that is one with their
apprehension of
sky or air or
gravitation. It is a
primarymentalstructure, and
they not only do not doubt but they doubt the good faith of those
who do. They think that the Atheist and Agnostic really believe
but are impelled by a
mysteriousobstinacy to deny. So it had
been with the Bishop of Princhester; not of
cunning or design but
in simple good faith he had accepted all the inherited assurances
of his native rectory, and held by Church, Crown, Empire,
decorum, respectability, solvency--and
compulsory Greek at the
Little Go--as his father had done before him. If in his