could not
resist the
impulse to get him at least a seemly
reading-lamp.
He came back from Hunstanton full of ideas for work in London.
He was, he thought, going to "write something" about his views.
He was very
grateful and much surprised at what she had done to
that forbidding house, and full of hints and intimations that it
would not be long before they moved to something roomier. She was
disposed to seek some sort of salaried
employment for Clementina
and Miriam at least, but he would not hear of that. "They must go
on and get educated," he said, "if I have to give up smoking to
do it. Perhaps I may manage even without that." Eleanor, it
seemed, had a good
prospect of a
scholarship at the London School
of Economics that would practically keep her. There would be no
Cambridge for Clementina, but London University might still be
possible with a little pinching, and the move to London had
really improved the
prospects of a good
musical training for
Miriam. Phoebe and Daphne, Lady Ella believed, might get in on
special terms at the Notting Hill High School.
Scrope found it difficult to guess at what was going on in the
heads of his younger daughters. None displayed such
sympathy as
Eleanor had
confessed. He had a feeling that his wife had
schooled them to say nothing about the change in their fortunes
to him. But they quarrelled a good deal, he could hear, about the
use of the one bathroom--there was never enough hot water after
the second bath. And Miriam did not seem to enjoy playing the new
upright piano in the drawing-room as much as she had done the
Princhester grand it replaced. Though she was always
willing to
play that thing he liked; he knew now that it was the Adagio of
Of. 111;
whenever he asked for it.
London servants, Lady Ella found, were now much more difficult
to get than they had been in the Holy Innocents' days in St.
John's Wood. And more difficult to manage when they were got. The
households of the more
prosperousclergy are much sought after by
domestics of a serious and excellent type; an unfrocked
clergyman's household is by no means so
attractive. The first
comers were young women of
unfortunate dispositions; the first
cook was
reluctant and
insolent, she went before her month was
up; the second
careless; she made burnt potatoes and cindered
chops, underboiled and overboiled eggs; a "dropped" look about
everything, harsh coffee and bitter tea seemed to be a natural
aspect of the state of being no longer a
bishop. He would often
after a struggle with his nerves in the bedroom come humming
cheerfully to breakfast, to find that Phoebe, who was a delicate
eater, had pushed her plate away scarcely touched, while Lady
Ella sat at the end of the table in a state of dangerous calm,
framing comments for delivering
downstairs that would be sure to
sting and yet leave no
opening for repartee, and
trying at the
same time to believe that a third cook, if the chances were
risked again, would certainly be "all right."
The drawing-room was papered with a morose wallpaper that the
landlord, in view of the fact that Scrope in his optimism would
only take the house on a
yearlyagreement, had refused to
replace; it was a design of very dark green leaves and grey
gothic arches; and the
apartment was lit by a chandelier, which
spilt a pool of light in the centre of the room and splashed
useless weak patches
elsewhere. Lady Ella had to
interfere to
prevent the monopolization of this centre by Phoebe and Daphne
for their home work. This light trouble was difficult to arrange;
the plain truth was that there was not enough
illumination to go
round. In the Princhester drawing-room there had been a number of
obliging little electric pushes. The size of the dining-room, now
that the study was cut off from it,
forbadehospitality. As it
was, with only the family at home, the housemaid made it a
grievance that she could scarcely
squeeze by on the sideboard
side to wait.
The house vibrated to the trains in the
adjacent underground
railway. There was a lady next door but one who was very pluckily
training a contralto voice that most people would have gladly
thrown away. At the end of Restharrow Street was a
garage, and a
yard where chauffeurs were accustomed to "tune up" their engines.
All these facts were
persistently
audible to any one sitting down
in the little back study to think out this
project of "writing
something," about a change in the government of the whole world.
Petty inconveniences no doubt all these inconveniences were, but
they distressed a rather oversensitive mind which was also
acutely aware that even upon this scale living would cost
certainly two hundred and fifty pounds if not more in
excess of
the little private
income available.
(5)
These
domestic details, irrelevant as they may seem in a
spiritual history, need to be given because they added an
intimate keenness to Scrope's
readiness for this private
chapelenterprise that he was discussing with Lady Sunderbund. Along
that line and along that line alone, he saw the way of escape
from the great sea of London dinginess that threatened to
submerge his family. And it was also, he felt, the line of his
duty; it was his "call."
At least that was how he felt at first. And then matters began
to grow
complicated again.
Things had gone far between himself and Lady Sunderbund since
that letter he had read upon the beach at Old Hunstanton. The
blinds of the house with the very very blue door in Princhester
had been drawn from the day when the first vanload of the
renegade
bishop's private possessions had
departed from the
palace. The lady had returned to the
brightly decorated flat
overlooking Hyde Park. He had seen her
repeatedly since then,
and always with a fairly clear understanding that she was to
provide the
chapel and
pulpit in which he was to
proclaim to
London the
gospel of the Simplicity and Universality of God. He
was to be the
prophet of a reconsidered faith,
calling the whole
world from creeds and sects, from egotisms and vain loyalties,
from prejudices of race and custom, to the
worship and service of
the Divine King of all mankind. That in fact had been the ruling
resolve in his mind, the
resolve determining his relations not
only with Lady Sunderbund but with Lady Ella and his family, his
friends, enemies and associates. He had set out upon this course
unchecked by any doubt, and overriding the
manifest disapproval
of his wife and his younger daughters. Lady Sunderbund's
enthusiasm had been
enormous and sustaining....
Almost imperceptibly that
resolve had weakened. Imperceptibly
at first. Then the decline had been perceived as one sometimes
perceives a thing in the
background out of the corner of one's
eye.
In all his early anticipations of the
chapelenterprise, he had
imagined himself in the
likeness of a small but
eloquent figure
standing in a large exposed place and
calling this lost misled
world back to God. Lady Sunderbund, he assumed, was to provide
the large exposed place (which was dimly paved with pews) and
guarantee that little matter which was to
relieve him of
sordidanxieties for his family, the stipend. He had agreed in an
inattentive way that this was to be eight hundred a year, with a
certain
proportion of the subscriptions. "At fl'st, I shall be
the chief subsc'iber," she said. "Before the 'ush comes." He had
been so content to take all this for granted and think no more
about it--more particularly to think no more about it--that
for a time he entirely disregarded the
intense decorative
activities into which Lady Sunderbund incontinently plunged. Had
he been inclined to remark them he certainly might have done so,
even though a
considerableproportion was being thoughtfully
veiled for a time from his eyes.
For example, there was the young
architect with the wonderful
tie whom he met once or twice at lunch in the Hyde Park flat.