It was like animals breaking down a fence about some sacred
spot. Within a couple of minutes the affair had become highly
improper. They had raised their voices, they had
spoken with the
utmost
familiarity of almost
unspeakable things. There had been
even attempts at epigram. Athanasian epigrams. Bent the
novelisthad doubted if
originally there had been a Third Person in the
Trinity at all. He suggested a
reaction from a too-Manichaean
dualism at some date after the time of St. John's Gospel. He
maintained obstinately that that Gospel was dualistic.
The
unpleasant quality of the talk was far more
manifest in the
retrospect than it had been at the time. It had seemed then bold
and strange, but not impossible; now in the cold darkness it
seemed sacrilegious. And the
bishop's share, which was indeed
only the weak yielding of a tired man to an
atmosphere he had
misjudged, became a
disgraceful display of levity and bad faith.
They had baited him. Some one had said that nowadays every one
was an Arian,
knowingly or un
knowingly. They had not concealed
their
conviction that the
bishop did not really believe in the
Creeds he uttered.
And that
unfortunate first
admission stuck
terribly in his
throat.
Oh! Why had he made it?
(3)
Sleep had gone.
The awakened
sleeper groaned, sat up in the darkness, and felt
gropingly in this unaccustomed bed and bedroom first for the edge
of the bed and then for the electric light that was possibly on
the little
bedside table.
The searching hand touched something. A water-bottle. The hand
resumed its
exploration. Here was something
metallic and smooth,
a stem. Either above or below there must be a
switch....
The
switch was found, grasped, and turned.
The darkness fled.
In a mirror the
sleeper saw the
reflection of his face and a
corner of the bed in which he lay. The lamp had a tilted shade
that threw a slanting bar of shadow across the field of
reflection,
lighting a right-angled
triangle very
brightly and
leaving the rest obscure. The bed was a very great one, a bed for
the Anakim. It had a
canopy with yellow silk curtains, surmounted
by a gilded crown of carved wood. Between the curtains was a
man's face, clean-shaven, pale, with disordered brown hair and
weary, pale-blue eyes. He was clad in
purple pyjamas, and the
hand that now ran its fingers through the brown hair was long and
lean and shapely.
Beside the bed was a
convenient little table
bearing the light,
a water-bottle and glass, a bunch of keys, a congested pocket-
book, a gold-banded
fountain pen, and a gold watch that indicated
a quarter past three. On the lower edge of the picture in the
mirror appeared the back of a gilt chair, over which a
garment of
peculiar
construction had been
carelessly thrown. It was in the
form of that sleeveless cassock of
purple,
opening at the side,
whose lower flap is called a
bishop's apron; the corner of the
frogged coat showed behind the chair-back, and the sash lay
crumpled on the floor. Black doeskin
breeches, still warmly lined
with their pants, lay where they had been
thrust off at the
corner of the bed,
partly covering black hose and silver-buckled
shoes.
For a moment the tired gaze of the man in the bed rested upon
these evidences of his
episcopaldignity. Then he turned from
them to the watch at the
bedside.
He groaned helplessly.
(4)
These country doctors were no good. There wasn't a
physician in
the diocese. He must go to London.
He looked into the weary eyes of his
reflection and said, as
one makes a reassuring promise, "London."