about the family or not
genteel, as there is much to
relate about
punishment not pleasant or nice and hardly polite.
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PUNISHMENT
Punishment is a very puzzly thing, but I believe in it when
really deserved, only when I
punish myself it does not always
turn out well. When I leaned over the new
bridge, and got my
dress all paint, and Aunt Sarah Cobb couldn't get it out, I had
to wear it spotted for six months which hurt my pride, but was
right. I stayed at home from Alice Robinson's birthday party for
a
punishment, and went to the
circus next day instead, but
Alice's parties are very cold and stiff, as Mrs. Robinson makes
the boys stand on newspapers if they come inside the door, and
the blinds are always shut, and Mrs. Robinson tells me how bad
her liver
complaint is this year. So I thought, to pay for the
circus and a few other things, I ought to get more
punishment,
and I threw my pink parasol down the well, as the mothers in the
missionary books throw their infants to the crocodiles in the
Ganges river. But it got stuck in the chain that holds the
bucket, and Aunt Miranda had to get Abijah Flagg to take out all
the broken bits before we could ring up water.
I
punished myself this way because Aunt Miranda said that unless
I improved I would be nothing but a Burden and a Blight.
There was an old man used to go by our farm carrying a lot of
broken chairs to bottom, and mother used to say--"Poor man! His
back is too weak for such a burden!" and I used to take him out a
doughnut, and this is the part I want to go into the
Remerniscences. Once I told him we were sorry the chairs were so
heavy, and he said THEY DIDN'T SEEM SO HEAVY WHEN HE HAD ET THE
DOUGHNUT. This does not mean that the
doughnut was heavier than
the chairs which is what brother John said, but it is a beautiful
thought and shows how the human race should have
sympathy, and
help bear burdens.
I know about a Blight, for there was a
dreadful east wind over at
our farm that destroyed all the little young crops just out of
the ground, and the farmers called it the Blight. And I would
rather be hail, sleet, frost, or snow than a Blight, which is
mean and secret, and which is the reason I threw away the dearest
thing on earth to me, the pink parasol that Miss Ross brought me
from Paris, France. I have also wrapped up my bead purse in three
papers and put it away marked not to be opened till after my
death unless needed for a party.
I must not be Burden, I must not be Blight,
The angels in heaven would weep at the sight.
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REWARDS
A good way to find out which has the most benefercent effect
would be to try rewards on myself this next week and write my
composition the very last day, when I see how my
character is. It
is hard to find rewards for yourself, but perhaps Aunt Jane and
some of the girls would each give me one to help out. I could
carry my bead purse to school every day, or wear my coral chain a
little while before I go to sleep at night. I could read Cora or
the Sorrows of a Doctor's Wife a little oftener, but that's all
the rewards I can think of. I fear Aunt Miranda would say they
are
wicked but oh! if they should turn out benefercent how glad
and
joyful life would be to me! A sweet and beautiful
character,
beloved by my teacher and schoolmates, admired and petted by my
aunts and neighbors, yet carrying my bead purse
constantly, with
perhaps my best hat on Wednesday afternoons, as well as Sundays!
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A GREAT SHOCK
The reason why Alice Robinson could not play was, she was being
punished for breaking her mother's blue
platter. Just before
supper my story being finished I went up Guide Board hill to see
how she was
bearing up and she spoke to me from her window. She
said she did not mind being
punished because she hadn't been for
a long time, and she hoped it would help her with her
composition. She thought it would give her thoughts, and
tomorrow's the last day for her to have any. This gave me a good
idea and I told her to call her father up and beg him to beat her
violently. It would hurt, I said, but perhaps none of the other
girls would have a
punishment like that, and her
compositionwould be all different and splendid. I would borrow Aunt
Miranda's witchhayzel and pour it on her wounds like the
Samaritan in the Bible.
I went up again after supper with Dick Carter to see how it
turned out. Alice came to the window and Dick threw up a note
tied to a stick. I had written: "DEMAND YOUR PUNISHMENT TO THE
FULL. BE BRAVE LIKE DOLORES' MOTHER IN THE Martyrs of Spain."
She threw down an answer, and it was: "YOU JUST BE LIKE DOLORES'
MOTHER YOURSELF IF YOU'RE SO SMART!" Then she stamped away from
the window and my feelings were hurt, but Dick said perhaps she
was hungry, and that made her cross. And as Dick and I turned to
go out of the yard we looked back and I saw something I can never
forget. (The Great Shock) Mrs. Robinson was out behind the barn
feeding the turkies. Mr. Robinson came
softly out of the side
door in the
orchard and looking everywheres around he stepped to
the wire
closet and took out a
saucer of cold beans with a
pickled beet on top, and a big piece of
blueberry pie. Then he
crept up the back stairs and we could see Alice open her door and
take in the supper.
Oh! What will become of her
composition, and how can she tell
anything of the benefercent effects of
punishment, when she is
locked up by one parent, and fed by the other? I have forgiven
her for the way she snapped me up for, of course, you couldn't
beg your father to beat you when he was bringing you
blueberrypie. Mrs. Robinson makes a kind that leaks out a thick purple
juice into the plate and needs a spoon and blacks your mouth, but
is heavenly.
* * * * * * * * * * * * *
A DREAM
The week is almost up and very soon Dr. Moses will drive up to
the school house like Elijah in the
chariot and come in to hear
us read. There is a good deal of
sickness among us. Some of the
boys are not able to come to school just now, but hope to be
about again by Monday, when Dr. Moses goes away to a convention.
It is a very hard
composition to write, somehow. Last night I
dreamed that the river was ink and I kept dipping into it and
writing with a penstalk made of a young pine tree. I sliced great
slabs of
marble off the side of one of the White Mountains, the
one you see when going to meeting, and wrote on those. Then I
threw them all into the falls, not being good enough for Dr.
Moses.
Dick Carter had a splendid boy to stay over Sunday. He makes the
real newspaper named The Pilot published by the boys at Wareham
Academy. He says when he talks about himself in
writing he calls
himself "we," and it sounds much more like print, besides
conscealing him more.
Example: Our hair was measured this morning and has grown two
inches since last time . . . . We have a loose tooth that
troubles us very much . . . Our inkspot that we made by
negligence on our only white
petticoat we have been able to
remove with lemon and milk. Some of our
petticoat came out with
the spot.
I shall try it in my
compositionsometime, for of course I shall
write for the Pilot when I go to Wareham Seminary. Uncle Jerry
Cobb says that I shall, and thinks that in four years I might
rise to be editor if they ever have girls.
I have never been more good than since I have been rewarding
myself steady, even to asking Aunt Miranda kindly to offer me a
company jelly tart, not because I was hungry, but for an
experement I was
trying, and would explain to her
sometime.
She said she never thought it was wise to experement with your
stomach, and I said, with a queer thrilling look, it was not my
stomach but my soul, that was being tried. Then she gave me the
tart and walked away all puzzled and nervous.
The new
minister has asked me to come and see him any Saturday
afternoon as he writes
poetry himself, but I would rather not ask
him about this
composition.
Ministers never believe in rewards, and it is
useless to hope
that they will. We had the wrath of God four times in sermons
this last summer, but God cannot be angry all the time,--nobody
could, especially in summer; Mr. Baxter is different and calls
his wife dear which is lovely and the first time I ever heard it
in Riverboro. Mrs. Baxter is another kind of people too, from
those that live in Temperance. I like to watch her in meeting and
see her listen to her husband who is young and handsome for a
minister; it gives me very queer and
uncommon feelings, when they
look at each other, which they always do when not otherwise
engaged.
She has different clothes from anybody else. Aunt Miranda says
you must think only of two things: will your dress keep you warm
and will it wear well and there is nobody in the world to know
how I love pink and red and how I hate drab and green and how I
never wear my hat with the black and yellow porkupine quills
without wishing it would blow into the river.
Whene'er I take my walks
abroad How many quills I see. But as
they are not porkupines They never come to me.
COMPOSITION
WHICH HAS THE MOST BENEFERCENT EFFECT ON THE CHARACTER,
PUNISHMENT OR REWARD?
By
Rebecca Rowena Randall
(This copy not corrected by Miss Dearborn yet.)
We find ourselves very puzzled in approaching this truly great
and national question though we have tried very ernestly to
understand it, so as to show how
wisely and
wonderfully our dear
teacher guides the
youthful mind, it being her wish that our
composition class shall long be remembered in Riverboro Centre.
We would say first of all that
punishment seems more
benefercently needed by boys than girls. Boys' sins are very
violent, like stealing fruit,
profane language, playing truant,
fighting, breaking windows, and killing
innocent little flies and
bugs. If these were not taken out of them early in life it would
be impossible for them to become like our martyred president,
Abraham Lincoln.
Although we have asked everybody on our street, they think boys'
sins can only be whipped out of them with a
switch or strap,
which makes us feel very sad, as boys when not sinning the
dreadful sins mentioned above seem just as good as girls, and
never cry when
switched, and say it does not hurt much.
We now approach girls, which we know better, being one. Girls
seem better than boys because their sins are not so noisy and
showy. They can
disobey their parents and aunts,
whisper in
silent hour, cheat in lessons, say angry things to their
schoolmates, tell lies, be sulky and lazy, but all these can be
conducted quite ladylike and
genteel, and nobody wants to strap
girls because their skins are tender and get black and blue very
easily.
Punishments make one very
unhappy and rewards very happy, and one
would think when one is happy one would
behave the best. We were
acquainted with a girl who gave herself rewards every day for a
week, and it seemed to make her as lovely a
character as one
could wish; but perhaps if one went on for years giving rewards
to onesself one would become
selfish. One cannot tell, one can
only fear.
If a dog kills a sheep we should whip him straight away, and on
the very spot where he can see the sheep, or he will not know
what we mean, and may forget and kill another. The same is true
of the human race. We must be firm and patient in
punishing, no