grandson, of the servants whose friendly faces had been familiar
to me in my early
childhood. As a matter of fact he had no such
claim on my
consideration. He was the product of some village
near by and was there on his
promotion, having
learned the
service in one or two houses as
pantry boy. I know this because
I asked the
worthy V---- next day. I might well have spared the
question. I discovered before long that all the faces about the
house and all the faces in the village: the grave faces with long
mustaches of the heads of families, the downy faces of the young
men, the faces of the little fair-haired children, the handsome,
tanned, wide-browed faces of the mothers seen at the doors of the
huts, were as familiar to me as though I had known them all from
childhood and my
childhood were a matter of the day before
yesterday.
The
tinkle of the traveller's bells, after growing louder, had
faded away quickly, and the
tumult of barking dogs in the village
had calmed down at last. My uncle, lounging in the corner of a
small couch, smoked his long Turkish chibouk in silence.
"This is an
extremely nice writing-table you have got for my
room," I remarked.
"It is really your property," he said, keeping his eyes on me,
with an interested and
wistful expression, as he had done ever
since I had entered the house. "Forty years ago your mother used
to write at this very table. In our house in Oratow, it stood in
the little sitting-room which, by a tacit
arrangement, was given
up to the girls--I mean to your mother and her sister who died so
young. It was a present to them jointly from your uncle Nicholas
B. when your mother was seventeen and your aunt two years
younger. She was a very dear,
delightful girl, that aunt of
yours, of whom I suppose you know nothing more than the name.
She did not shine so much by personal beauty and a cultivated
mind in which your mother was far superior. It was her good
sense, the
admirablesweetness of her nature, her
exceptionalfacility and ease in daily relations, that endeared her to every
body. Her death was a terrible grief and a serious moral loss
for us all. Had she lived she would have brought the greatest
blessings to the house it would have been her lot to enter, as
wife, mother, and
mistress of a household. She would have
created round herself an
atmosphere of peace and content which
only those who can love unselfishly are able to evoke. Your
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exceptionallydistinguished in
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brilliantlygifted, she also expected more from life.
At that
trying time especially, we were greatly
concerned about
her state. Suffering in her health from the shock of her
father's death (she was alone in the house with him when he died
suddenly), she was torn by the
inward struggle between her love
for the man whom she was to marry in the end and her knowledge of
her dead father's declared
objection to that match. Unable to
bring herself to
disregard that cherished memory and that
judgment she had always respected and trusted, and, on the other
hand, feeling the
impossibility to
resist a
sentiment so deep and
so true, she could not have been expected to
preserve her mental
and moral balance. At war with herself, she could not give to
others that feeling of peace which was not her own. It was only
later, when united at last with the man of her choice, that she
developed those
uncommon gifts of mind and heart which compelled
the respect and
admiration even of our foes. Meeting with calm
fortitude the cruel trials of a life reflecting all the national
and social misfortunes of the
community, she realized the highest
conceptions of duty as a wife, a mother, and a
patriot, sharing
the exile of her husband and representing nobly the ideal of
Polish womanhood. Our uncle Nicholas was not a man very
accessible to feelings of
affection. Apart from his
worship for
Napoleon the Great, he loved really, I believe, only three people
in the world: his mother--your great-grandmother, whom you have
seen but cannot possibly remember; his brother, our father, in
whose house he lived for so many years; and of all of us, his
nephews and nieces grown up around him, your mother alone. The
modest,
lovable qualities of the youngest sister he did not seem
able to see. It was I who felt most
profoundly this
unexpectedstroke of death falling upon the family less than a year after I
had become its head. It was
terriblyunexpected. Driving home
one
wintry afternoon to keep me company in our empty house, where
I had to remain
permanently administering the
estate and at
tending to the
complicated affairs--(the girls took it in turn
week and week about)--driving, as I said, from the house of the
Countess Tekla Potocka, where our
invalid mother was staying then
to be near a doctor, they lost the road and got stuck in a snow
drift. She was alone with the
coachman and old Valery, the
personal servant of our late father. Impatient of delay while
they were
trying to dig themselves out, she jumped out of the
sledge and went to look for the road herself. All this happened
in '51, not ten miles from the house in which we are sitting now.
The road was soon found, but snow had begun to fall thickly
again, and they were four more hours getting home. Both the men
took off their sheepskin lined greatcoats and used all their own
rugs to wrap her up against the cold,
notwithstanding her
protests,
positive orders, and even struggles, as Valery
afterward
related to me. 'How could I,' he remonstrated with
her, 'go to meet the
blessed soul of my late master if I let any
harm come to you while there's a spark of life left in my body?'
When they reached home at last the poor old man was stiff and
speechless from
exposure, and the
coachman was in not much better
plight, though he had the strength to drive round to the stables
himself. To my reproaches for venturing out at all in such
weather, she answered, characteristically, that she could not
bear the thought of abandoning me to my cheerless
solitude. It
is incomprehensible how it was that she was allowed to start. I
suppose it had to be! She made light of the cough which came on
next day, but
shortly afterward inflammation of the lungs set in,
and in three weeks she was no more! She was the first to be
taken away of the young
generation under my care. Behold the
vanity of all hopes and fears! I was the most frail at birth of
all the children. For years I remained so
delicate that my
parents had but little hope of bringing me up; and yet I have
survived five brothers and two sisters, and many of my
contemporaries; I have outlived my wife and daughter, too--and
from all those who have had some knowledge at least of these old
times you alone are left. It has been my lot to lay in an early
grave many honest hearts, many
brilliant promises, many hopes
full of life."
He got up
briskly, sighed, and left me
saying, "We will dine in
half an hour."
Without moving, I listened to his quick steps resounding on the
waxed floor of the next room, traversing the anteroom lined with
bookshelves, where he paused to put his chibouk in the pipe-stand
before passing into the drawing-room (these were all en suite),
where he became inaudible on the thick
carpet. But I heard the
door of his study-bedroom close. He was then sixty-two years old
and had been for a quarter of a century the wisest, the firmest,
the most indulgent of guardians, extending over me a paternal
care and
affection, a moral support which I seemed to feel always
near me in the most distant parts of the earth.
As to Mr. Nicholas B., sub-
lieutenant of 1808,
lieutenant of 1813
in the French army, and for a short time Officier d'Ordonnance of
Marshal Marmont; afterward captain in the 2d Regiment of Mounted
Rifles in the Polish army--such as it existed up to 1830 in the
reduced kingdom established by the Congress of Vienna--I must say
that from all that more distant past, known to me traditionally
and a little de visu, and called out by the words of the man just
gone away, he remains the most
incomplete figure. It is obvious
that I must have seen him in '64, for it is certain that he would
not have missed the opportunity of
seeing my mother for what he
must have known would be the last time. From my early
boyhood to
this day, if I try to call up his image, a sort of mist rises
before my eyes, mist in which I
perceivevaguely only a neatly
brushed head of white hair (which is
exceptional in the case of
the B. family, where it is the rule for men to go bald in a
becoming manner before thirty) and a thin, curved, dignified
nose, a feature in
strictaccordance with the
physical tradition
of the B. family. But it is not by these fragmentary remains of