a
piercing stare and felt the convulsive
pressure of her hands
pinning his arms along his body. A second dragged itself out,
slow and bitter, like a day of
mourning; a second full of regret
and grief for that faith in her which took its
flight from the
shattered ruins of his trust. She was
holding him! She too! He
felt her heart give a great leap, his head slipped down on her
knees, he closed his eyes and there was nothing. Nothing! It
was as if she had died; as though her heart had leaped out into
the night, abandoning him, defenceless and alone, in an empty
world.
His head struck the ground heavily as she flung him aside in her
sudden rush. He lay as if stunned, face up and,
daring not move,
did not see the struggle, but heard the
piercingshriek of mad
fear, her low angry words; another
shriek dying out in a moan.
When he got up at last he looked at Aissa kneeling over her
father, he saw her bent back in the effort of
holding him down,
Omar's contorted limbs, a hand thrown up above her head and her
quick
movement grasping the wrist. He made an
impulsive step
forward, but she turned a wild face to him and called out over
her shoulder--
"Keep back! Do not come near! Do not. . . ."
And he stopped short, his arms
hanginglifelessly by his side, as
if those words had changed him into stone. She was afraid of his
possible
violence, but in the unsettling of all his convictions
he was struck with the
frightful thought that she preferred to
kill her father all by herself; and the last stage of their
struggle, at which he looked as though a red fog had filled his
eyes, loomed up with an
unnaturalferocity, with a sinister
meaning; like something
monstrous and depraved, forcing its
complicity upon him under the cover of that awful night. He was
horrified and
grateful; drawn irresistibly to her--and ready to
run away. He could not move at first--then he did not want to
stir. He wanted to see what would happen. He saw her lift, with
a
tremendous effort, the
apparentlylifeless body into the hut,
and remained
standing, after they disappeared, with the vivid
image in his eyes of that head swaying on her shoulder, the lower
jaw
hanging down, collapsed,
passive, meaningless, like the head
of a corpse.
Then after a while he heard her voice
speaking inside, harshly,
with an agitated abruptness of tone; and in answer there were
groans and broken murmurs of
exhaustion. She spoke louder. He
heard her
sayingviolently--"No! No! Never!"
And again a
plaintive murmur of
entreaty as of some one begging
for a
supreme favour, with a last
breath. Then she said--
"Never! I would sooner strike it into my own heart."
She came out, stood panting for a short moment in the doorway,
and then stepped into the firelight. Behind her, through the
darkness came the sound of words
calling the
vengeance of heaven
on her head, rising higher,
shrill, strained, repeating the curse
over and over again--till the voice
cracked in a
passionateshriek that died out into
hoarse muttering
ending with a deep and
prolonged sigh. She stood facing Willems, one hand behind her
back, the other raised in a
gesture compelling attention, and she
listened in that attitude till all was still inside the hut.
Then she made another step forward and her hand dropped slowly.
"Nothing but
misfortune," she
whispered,
absently, to herself.
"Nothing but
misfortune to us who are not white." The anger and
excitement died out of her face, and she looked straight at
Willems with an
intense and
mournful gaze.
He recovered his senses and his power of speech with a sudden
start.
"Aissa," he exclaimed, and the words broke out through his lips
with
hurried nervousness. "Aissa! How can I live here? Trust
me. Believe in me. Let us go away from here. Go very far away!
Very far; you and I!"
He did not stop to ask himself whether he could escape, and how,
and where. He was carried away by the flood of hate, disgust,
and
contempt of a white man for that blood which is not his
blood, for that race which is not his race; for the brown skins;
for the hearts false like the sea, blacker than night. This
feeling of repulsion overmastered his reason in a clear
conviction of the
impossibility for him to live with her people.
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passionately to fly with him because out of all that
abhorred crowd he wanted this one woman, but wanted her away from
them, away from that race of slaves and cut-throats from which
she
sprang. He wanted her for himself--far from everybody, in
some safe and dumb
solitude. And as he spoke his anger and
contempt rose, his hate became almost fear; and his desire of her
grew
immense, burning, illogical and
merciless; crying to him
through all his senses; louder than his hate, stronger than his
fear, deeper than his
contempt--irresistible and certain like
death itself.
Standing at a little distance, just within the light--but on the
threshold of that darkness from which she had come--she listened,
one hand still behind her back, the other arm stretched out with
the hand half open as if to catch the
fleeting words that rang
around her,
passionate, menacing, imploring, but all tinged with
the
anguish of his
suffering, all
hurried by the
impatience that
gnawed his breast. And while she listened she felt a slowing
down of her heart-beats as the meaning of his
appeal grew clearer
before her
indignant eyes, as she saw with rage and pain the
edifice of her love, her own work,
crumble slowly to pieces,
destroyed by that man's fears, by that man's falseness. Her
memory recalled the days by the brook when she had listened to
other words--to other thoughts--to promises and to pleadings for
other things, which came from that man's lips at the bidding of
her look or her smile, at the nod of her head, at the
whisper of
her lips. Was there then in his heart something else than her
image, other desires than the desires of her love, other fears
than the fear of losing her? How could that be? Had she grown
ugly or old in a moment? She was appalled, surprised and angry
with the anger of
unexpectedhumiliation; and her eyes looked
fixedly, sombre and steady, at that man born in the land of
violence and of evil wherefrom nothing but
misfortune comes to
those who are not white. Instead of thinking of her caresses,
instead of forgetting all the world in her
embrace, he was
thinking yet of his people; of that people that steals every
land, masters every sea, that knows no mercy and no truth--knows
nothing but its own strength. O man of strong arm and of false
heart! Go with him to a far country, be lost in the
throng of
cold eyes and false hearts--lose him there! Never! He was
mad--mad with fear; but he should not escape her! She would keep
him here a slave and a master; here where he was alone with her;
where he must live for her--or die. She had a right to his love
which was of her making, to the love that was in him now, while
he spoke those words without sense. She must put between him and
other white men a
barrier of hate. He must not only stay, but he
must also keep his promise to Abdulla, the
fulfilment of which
would make her safe.
"Aissa, let us go! With you by my side I would attack them with
my naked hands. Or no! Tomorrow we shall be outside, on board
Abdulla's ship. You shall come with me and then I could . . .
If the ship went
ashore by some chance, then we could steal a
canoe and escape in the
confusion. . . . You are not afraid of
the sea . . . of the sea that would give me freedom . . ."
He was approaching her gradually with
extended arms, while he
pleaded ardently in incoherent words that ran over and tripped
each other in the
extremeeagerness of his speech. She stepped
back, keeping her distance, her eyes on his face, watching on it
the play of his doubts and of his hopes with a
piercing gaze,
that seemed to search out the innermost recesses of his thought;
and it was as if she had drawn slowly the darkness round her,
wrapping herself in its undulating folds that made her in
distinctand vague. He followed her step by step till at last they both
stopped, facing each other under the big tree of the
enclosure.
The
solitary exile of the forests, great,
motionless and solemn