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-- like a railway carriage -- when she settled down to it.
The chaff-bag had slipped off, in the creek I suppose,
and I let the bridle-rein go and held Jim up to me like a baby the whole way.
Let the strongest man, who isn't used to it, hold a baby in one position
for five minutes -- and Jim was fairly heavy. But I never felt
the ache in my arms that night -- it must have gone before I was in
a fit state of mind to feel it. And at home I'd often growled
about being asked to hold the baby for a few minutes.
I could never brood comfortably and nurse a baby at the same time.
It was a ghostlymoonlight night. There's no timber in the world
so ghostly as the Australian Bush in moonlight -- or just about daybreak.
The all-shaped patches of moonlight falling between ragged, twisted boughs;
the ghostly blue-white bark of the `white-box' trees;
a dead naked white ring-barked tree, or dead white stump starting out
here and there, and the ragged patches of shade and light on the road
that made anything, from the shape of a spotted bullock to a naked corpse
laid out stark. Roads and tracks through the Bush made by moonlight --
every one seeming straighter and clearer than the real one:
you have to trust to your horse then. Sometimes the naked white trunk
of a red stringy-bark tree, where a sheet of bark had been taken off,
would start out like a ghost from the dark Bush. And dew or frost
glistening on these things, according to the season. Now and again
a great grey kangaroo, that had been feeding on a green patch
down by the road, would start with a `thump-thump', and away up the siding.
The Bush seemed full of ghosts that night -- all going my way --
and being left behind by the mare. Once I stopped to look at Jim:
I just sat back and the mare `propped' -- she'd been a stock-horse,
and was used to `cutting-out'. I felt Jim's hands and forehead;
he was in a burning fever. I bent forward, and the old mare
settled down to it again. I kept saying out loud -- and Mary and me
often laughed about it (afterwards): `He's limp yet! -- Jim's limp yet!'
(the words seemed jerked out of me by sheer fright) -- `He's limp yet!'
till the mare's feet took it up. Then, just when I thought
she was doing her best and racing her hardest, she suddenly started forward,
like a cable tram gliding along on its own and the grip put on suddenly.
It was just what she'd do when I'd be riding alone and a strange horse
drew up from behind -- the old racing instinct. I FELT the thing too!
I felt as if a strange horse WAS there! And then --
the words just jerked out of me by sheer funk -- I started saying,
`Death is riding to-night! . . . Death is racing to-night! . . .
Death is riding to-night!' till the hoofs took that up.
And I believe the old mare felt the black horse at her side
and was going to beat him or break her heart.
I was mad with anxiety and fright: I remember I kept saying,
`I'll be kinder to Mary after this! I'll take more notice of Jim!'
and the rest of it.
I don't know how the old mare got up the last `pinch'.
She must have slackened pace, but I never noticed it:
I just held Jim up to me and gripped the saddle with my knees --
I remember the saddle jerked from the desperate jumps of her till I thought
the girth would go. We topped the gap and were going down into a gully
they called Dead Man's Hollow, and there, at the back of a ghostlyclearing
that opened from the road where there were some black-soil springs,
was a long, low, oblong weatherboard-and-shingle building,
with blind, broken windows in the gable-ends, and a wide steep verandah roof
slanting down almost to the level of the window-sills -- there was something
sinister about it, I thought -- like the hat of a jail-bird
slouched over his eyes. The place looked both deserted and haunted.
I saw no light, but that was because of the moonlight outside.
The mare turned in at the corner of the clearing to take a short cut
to the shanty, and, as she struggled across some marshy ground,
my heart kept jerking out the words, `It's deserted! They've gone away!
It's deserted!' The mare went round to the back and pulled up
between the back door and a big bark-and-slab kitchen. Some one shouted
from inside --
`Who's there?'
`It's me. Joe Wilson. I want your sister-in-law -- I've got the boy --
he's sick and dying!'
Brighten came out, pulling up his moleskins. `What boy?' he asked.
`Here, take him,' I shouted, `and let me get down.'
`What's the matter with him?' asked Brighten, and he seemed to hang back.
And just as I made to get my leg over the saddle, Jim's head went back
over my arm, he stiffened, and I saw his eyeballs turned up and glistening
in the moonlight.
I felt cold all over then and sick in the stomach -- but CLEAR-HEADED
in a way: strange, wasn't it? I don't know why I didn't get down
and rush into the kitchen to get a bath ready. I only felt as if
the worst had come, and I wished it were over and gone.
I even thought of Mary and the funeral.
Then a woman ran out of the house -- a big, hard-looking woman.
She had on a wrapper of some sort, and her feet were bare.
She laid her hand on Jim, looked at his face, and then snatched him from me
and ran into the kitchen -- and me down and after her.
As great good luck would have it, they had some dirty clothes on to boil
in a kerosene tin -- dish-cloths or something.
Brighten's sister-in-law dragged a tub out from under the table,
wrenched the bucket off the hook, and dumped in the water,
dish-cloths and all, snatched a can of cold water from a corner,
dashed that in, and felt the water with her hand -- holding Jim up to her hip
all the time -- and I won't say how he looked. She stood him in the tub
and started dashing water over him, tearing off his clothes
between the splashes.
`Here, that tin of mustard -- there on the shelf!' she shouted to me.
She knocked the lid off the tin on the edge of the tub,
and went on splashing and spanking Jim.
It seemed an eternity. And I? Why, I never thought clearer in my life.
I felt cold-blooded -- I felt as if I'd like an excuse to go outside
till it was all over. I thought of Mary and the funeral --
and wished that that was past. All this in a flash, as it were.
I felt that it would be a great relief, and only wished the funeral
was months past. I felt -- well, altogether selfish.
I only thought for myself.
Brighten's sister-in-law splashed and spanked him hard -- hard enough
to break his back I thought, and -- after about half an hour it seemed --
the end came: Jim's limbs relaxed, he slipped down into the tub,
and the pupils of his eyes came down. They seemed dull and expressionless,
like the eyes of a new baby, but he was back for the world again.
I dropped on the stool by the table.
`It's all right,' she said. `It's all over now. I wasn't going
to let him die.' I was only thinking, `Well it's over now,
but it will come on again. I wish it was over for good. I'm tired of it.'
She called to her sister, Mrs Brighten, a washed-out, helpless little fool
of a woman, who'd been running in and out and whimpering all the time --
`Here, Jessie! bring the new white blanket off my bed. And you, Brighten,
take some of that wood off the fire, and stuff something in that hole there
to stop the draught.'
Brighten -- he was a nuggety little hairy man with no expression to be seen
for whiskers -- had been running in with sticks and back logs
from the wood-heap. He took the wood out, stuffed up the crack,
and went inside and brought out a black bottle -- got a cup from the shelf,
and put both down near my elbow.
Mrs Brighten started to get some supper or breakfast, or whatever it was,
ready. She had a clean cloth, and set the table tidily. I noticed that
all the tins were polished bright (old coffee- and mustard-tins and the like,
that they used instead of sugar-basins and tea-caddies and salt-cellars),
and the kitchen was kept as clean as possible. She was all right
at little things. I knew a haggard, worked-out Bushwoman
who put her whole soul -- or all she'd got left -- into polishing old tins
till they dazzled your eyes.
I didn't feel inclined for corned beef and damper, and post-and-rail tea.
So I sat and squinted, when I thought she wasn't looking,
at Brighten's sister-in-law. She was a big woman, her hands and feet
were big, but well-shaped and all in proportion -- they fitted her.
She was a handsome woman -- about forty I should think.
She had a square chin, and a straight thin-lipped mouth --
straight save for a hint of a turn down at the corners,
which I fancied (and I have strange fancies) had been a sign of weakness
in the days before she grew hard. There was no sign of weakness now.
She had hard grey eyes and blue-black hair. She hadn't spoken yet.
She didn't ask me how the boy took ill or I got there, or who or what I was --
at least not until the next evening at tea-time.
She sat upright with Jim wrapped in the blanket and laid across her knees,
with one hand under his neck and the other laid lightly on him,
and she just rocked him gently.
She sat looking hard and straight before her, just as I've seen
a tired needlewoman sit with her work in her lap, and look away
back into the past. And Jim might have been the work in her lap,
for all she seemed to think of him. Now and then she knitted her forehead
and blinked.
Suddenly she glanced round and said -- in a tone as if I was her husband
and she didn't think much of me --
`Why don't you eat something?'
`Beg pardon?'
`Eat something!'
I drank some tea, and sneaked another look at her. I was beginning
to feel more natural, and wanted Jim again, now that the colour
was coming back into his face, and he didn't look like an unnaturally
stiff and staring corpse. I felt a lump rising, and wanted to thank her.
I sneaked another look at her.
She was staring straight before her, -- I never saw a woman's face
change so suddenly -- I never saw a woman's eyes so haggard and hopeless.
Then her great chest heaved twice, I heard her draw a long shuddering breath,
like a knocked-out horse, and two great tears dropped from her wide open eyes
down her cheeks like rain-drops on a face of stone. And in the firelight
they seemed tinged with blood.
I looked away quick, feeling full up myself. And presently
(I hadn't seen her look round) she said --
`Go to bed.'
`Beg pardon?' (Her face was the same as before the tears.)
`Go to bed. There's a bed made for you inside on the sofa.'
`But -- the team -- I must ----'
`What?'
`The team. I left it at the camp. I must look to it.'
`Oh! Well, Brighten will ride down and bring it up in the morning --
or send the half-caste. Now you go to bed, and get a good rest.
The boy will be all right. I'll see to that.'
I went out -- it was a relief to get out -- and looked to the mare.
Brighten had got her some corn* and chaff in a candle-box,
but she couldn't eat yet. She just stood or hung resting one hind-leg
and then the other, with her nose over the box -- and she sobbed.
I put my arms round her neck and my face down on her ragged mane,
and cried for the second time since I was a boy.
--
* Maize or Indian corn -- wheat is never called corn in Australia.
--
As I started to go in I heard Brighten's sister-in-law say,
suddenly and sharply --
`Take THAT away, Jessie.'
And presently I saw Mrs Brighten go into the house with the black bottle.
The moon had gone behind the range. I stood for a minute
between the house and the kitchen and peeped in through the kitchen window.
She had moved away from the fire and sat near the table.
She bent over Jim and held him up close to her and rocked herself to and fro.
I went to bed and slept till the next afternoon. I woke just in time to hear
the tail-end of a conversation between Jim and Brighten's sister-in-law.
He was asking her out to our place and she promising to come.
`And now,' says Jim, `I want to go home to "muffer" in "The Same Ol' Fling".'
`What?'
Jim repeated.
`Oh! "The Same Old Thing", -- the waggon.'
The rest of the afternoon I poked round the gullies with old Brighten,
The chaff-bag had slipped off, in the creek I suppose,
and I let the bridle-rein go and held Jim up to me like a baby the whole way.
Let the strongest man, who isn't used to it, hold a baby in one position
for five minutes -- and Jim was fairly heavy. But I never felt
the ache in my arms that night -- it must have gone before I was in
a fit state of mind to feel it. And at home I'd often growled
about being asked to hold the baby for a few minutes.
I could never brood comfortably and nurse a baby at the same time.
It was a ghostlymoonlight night. There's no timber in the world
so ghostly as the Australian Bush in moonlight -- or just about daybreak.
The all-shaped patches of moonlight falling between ragged, twisted boughs;
the ghostly blue-white bark of the `white-box' trees;
a dead naked white ring-barked tree, or dead white stump starting out
here and there, and the ragged patches of shade and light on the road
that made anything, from the shape of a spotted bullock to a naked corpse
laid out stark. Roads and tracks through the Bush made by moonlight --
every one seeming straighter and clearer than the real one:
you have to trust to your horse then. Sometimes the naked white trunk
of a red stringy-bark tree, where a sheet of bark had been taken off,
would start out like a ghost from the dark Bush. And dew or frost
glistening on these things, according to the season. Now and again
a great grey kangaroo, that had been feeding on a green patch
down by the road, would start with a `thump-thump', and away up the siding.
The Bush seemed full of ghosts that night -- all going my way --
and being left behind by the mare. Once I stopped to look at Jim:
I just sat back and the mare `propped' -- she'd been a stock-horse,
and was used to `cutting-out'. I felt Jim's hands and forehead;
he was in a burning fever. I bent forward, and the old mare
settled down to it again. I kept saying out loud -- and Mary and me
often laughed about it (afterwards): `He's limp yet! -- Jim's limp yet!'
(the words seemed jerked out of me by sheer fright) -- `He's limp yet!'
till the mare's feet took it up. Then, just when I thought
she was doing her best and racing her hardest, she suddenly started forward,
like a cable tram gliding along on its own and the grip put on suddenly.
It was just what she'd do when I'd be riding alone and a strange horse
drew up from behind -- the old racing instinct. I FELT the thing too!
I felt as if a strange horse WAS there! And then --
the words just jerked out of me by sheer funk -- I started saying,
`Death is riding to-night! . . . Death is racing to-night! . . .
Death is riding to-night!' till the hoofs took that up.
And I believe the old mare felt the black horse at her side
and was going to beat him or break her heart.
I was mad with anxiety and fright: I remember I kept saying,
`I'll be kinder to Mary after this! I'll take more notice of Jim!'
and the rest of it.
I don't know how the old mare got up the last `pinch'.
She must have slackened pace, but I never noticed it:
I just held Jim up to me and gripped the saddle with my knees --
I remember the saddle jerked from the desperate jumps of her till I thought
the girth would go. We topped the gap and were going down into a gully
they called Dead Man's Hollow, and there, at the back of a ghostlyclearing
that opened from the road where there were some black-soil springs,
was a long, low, oblong weatherboard-and-shingle building,
with blind, broken windows in the gable-ends, and a wide steep verandah roof
slanting down almost to the level of the window-sills -- there was something
sinister about it, I thought -- like the hat of a jail-bird
slouched over his eyes. The place looked both deserted and haunted.
I saw no light, but that was because of the moonlight outside.
The mare turned in at the corner of the clearing to take a short cut
to the shanty, and, as she struggled across some marshy ground,
my heart kept jerking out the words, `It's deserted! They've gone away!
It's deserted!' The mare went round to the back and pulled up
between the back door and a big bark-and-slab kitchen. Some one shouted
from inside --
`Who's there?'
`It's me. Joe Wilson. I want your sister-in-law -- I've got the boy --
he's sick and dying!'
Brighten came out, pulling up his moleskins. `What boy?' he asked.
`Here, take him,' I shouted, `and let me get down.'
`What's the matter with him?' asked Brighten, and he seemed to hang back.
And just as I made to get my leg over the saddle, Jim's head went back
over my arm, he stiffened, and I saw his eyeballs turned up and glistening
in the moonlight.
I felt cold all over then and sick in the stomach -- but CLEAR-HEADED
in a way: strange, wasn't it? I don't know why I didn't get down
and rush into the kitchen to get a bath ready. I only felt as if
the worst had come, and I wished it were over and gone.
I even thought of Mary and the funeral.
Then a woman ran out of the house -- a big, hard-looking woman.
She had on a wrapper of some sort, and her feet were bare.
She laid her hand on Jim, looked at his face, and then snatched him from me
and ran into the kitchen -- and me down and after her.
As great good luck would have it, they had some dirty clothes on to boil
in a kerosene tin -- dish-cloths or something.
Brighten's sister-in-law dragged a tub out from under the table,
wrenched the bucket off the hook, and dumped in the water,
dish-cloths and all, snatched a can of cold water from a corner,
dashed that in, and felt the water with her hand -- holding Jim up to her hip
all the time -- and I won't say how he looked. She stood him in the tub
and started dashing water over him, tearing off his clothes
between the splashes.
`Here, that tin of mustard -- there on the shelf!' she shouted to me.
She knocked the lid off the tin on the edge of the tub,
and went on splashing and spanking Jim.
It seemed an eternity. And I? Why, I never thought clearer in my life.
I felt cold-blooded -- I felt as if I'd like an excuse to go outside
till it was all over. I thought of Mary and the funeral --
and wished that that was past. All this in a flash, as it were.
I felt that it would be a great relief, and only wished the funeral
was months past. I felt -- well, altogether selfish.
I only thought for myself.
Brighten's sister-in-law splashed and spanked him hard -- hard enough
to break his back I thought, and -- after about half an hour it seemed --
the end came: Jim's limbs relaxed, he slipped down into the tub,
and the pupils of his eyes came down. They seemed dull and expressionless,
like the eyes of a new baby, but he was back for the world again.
I dropped on the stool by the table.
`It's all right,' she said. `It's all over now. I wasn't going
to let him die.' I was only thinking, `Well it's over now,
but it will come on again. I wish it was over for good. I'm tired of it.'
She called to her sister, Mrs Brighten, a washed-out, helpless little fool
of a woman, who'd been running in and out and whimpering all the time --
`Here, Jessie! bring the new white blanket off my bed. And you, Brighten,
take some of that wood off the fire, and stuff something in that hole there
to stop the draught.'
Brighten -- he was a nuggety little hairy man with no expression to be seen
for whiskers -- had been running in with sticks and back logs
from the wood-heap. He took the wood out, stuffed up the crack,
and went inside and brought out a black bottle -- got a cup from the shelf,
and put both down near my elbow.
Mrs Brighten started to get some supper or breakfast, or whatever it was,
ready. She had a clean cloth, and set the table tidily. I noticed that
all the tins were polished bright (old coffee- and mustard-tins and the like,
that they used instead of sugar-basins and tea-caddies and salt-cellars),
and the kitchen was kept as clean as possible. She was all right
at little things. I knew a haggard, worked-out Bushwoman
who put her whole soul -- or all she'd got left -- into polishing old tins
till they dazzled your eyes.
I didn't feel inclined for corned beef and damper, and post-and-rail tea.
So I sat and squinted, when I thought she wasn't looking,
at Brighten's sister-in-law. She was a big woman, her hands and feet
were big, but well-shaped and all in proportion -- they fitted her.
She was a handsome woman -- about forty I should think.
She had a square chin, and a straight thin-lipped mouth --
straight save for a hint of a turn down at the corners,
which I fancied (and I have strange fancies) had been a sign of weakness
in the days before she grew hard. There was no sign of weakness now.
She had hard grey eyes and blue-black hair. She hadn't spoken yet.
She didn't ask me how the boy took ill or I got there, or who or what I was --
at least not until the next evening at tea-time.
She sat upright with Jim wrapped in the blanket and laid across her knees,
with one hand under his neck and the other laid lightly on him,
and she just rocked him gently.
She sat looking hard and straight before her, just as I've seen
a tired needlewoman sit with her work in her lap, and look away
back into the past. And Jim might have been the work in her lap,
for all she seemed to think of him. Now and then she knitted her forehead
and blinked.
Suddenly she glanced round and said -- in a tone as if I was her husband
and she didn't think much of me --
`Why don't you eat something?'
`Beg pardon?'
`Eat something!'
I drank some tea, and sneaked another look at her. I was beginning
to feel more natural, and wanted Jim again, now that the colour
was coming back into his face, and he didn't look like an unnaturally
stiff and staring corpse. I felt a lump rising, and wanted to thank her.
I sneaked another look at her.
She was staring straight before her, -- I never saw a woman's face
change so suddenly -- I never saw a woman's eyes so haggard and hopeless.
Then her great chest heaved twice, I heard her draw a long shuddering breath,
like a knocked-out horse, and two great tears dropped from her wide open eyes
down her cheeks like rain-drops on a face of stone. And in the firelight
they seemed tinged with blood.
I looked away quick, feeling full up myself. And presently
(I hadn't seen her look round) she said --
`Go to bed.'
`Beg pardon?' (Her face was the same as before the tears.)
`Go to bed. There's a bed made for you inside on the sofa.'
`But -- the team -- I must ----'
`What?'
`The team. I left it at the camp. I must look to it.'
`Oh! Well, Brighten will ride down and bring it up in the morning --
or send the half-caste. Now you go to bed, and get a good rest.
The boy will be all right. I'll see to that.'
I went out -- it was a relief to get out -- and looked to the mare.
Brighten had got her some corn* and chaff in a candle-box,
but she couldn't eat yet. She just stood or hung resting one hind-leg
and then the other, with her nose over the box -- and she sobbed.
I put my arms round her neck and my face down on her ragged mane,
and cried for the second time since I was a boy.
--
* Maize or Indian corn -- wheat is never called corn in Australia.
--
As I started to go in I heard Brighten's sister-in-law say,
suddenly and sharply --
`Take THAT away, Jessie.'
And presently I saw Mrs Brighten go into the house with the black bottle.
The moon had gone behind the range. I stood for a minute
between the house and the kitchen and peeped in through the kitchen window.
She had moved away from the fire and sat near the table.
She bent over Jim and held him up close to her and rocked herself to and fro.
I went to bed and slept till the next afternoon. I woke just in time to hear
the tail-end of a conversation between Jim and Brighten's sister-in-law.
He was asking her out to our place and she promising to come.
`And now,' says Jim, `I want to go home to "muffer" in "The Same Ol' Fling".'
`What?'
Jim repeated.
`Oh! "The Same Old Thing", -- the waggon.'
The rest of the afternoon I poked round the gullies with old Brighten,
- carriage [´kæridʒ]
n.马车；客车；货运 (初中英语单词) - moonlight [´mu:nlait] n.&a.月光(的) (初中英语单词)
- timber [´timbə] n.木材；木料；横梁 (初中英语单词)
- instinct [´instiŋkt] n.本能；直觉；天资 (初中英语单词)
- anxiety [æŋ´zaiəti] n.挂念；渴望；焦虑的事 (初中英语单词)
- fright [frait] n.惊吓；恐怖；怪人 (初中英语单词)
- saddle [´sædl] n.鞍子 v.装鞍(于) (初中英语单词)
- desperate [´despərit] a.拼死的；绝望的 (初中英语单词)
- stomach [´stʌmək] n.胃；胃口，食欲 (初中英语单词)
- funeral [´fju:nərəl] n.葬礼，丧葬；困难 (初中英语单词)
- relief [ri´li:f] n.救济；援救；减轻 (初中英语单词)
- altogether [,ɔ:ltə´geðə] ad.完全；总而言之 (初中英语单词)
- helpless [´helpləs] a.无助的，无依靠的 (初中英语单词)
- running [´rʌniŋ] a.奔跑的；流动的 (初中英语单词)
- whatever [wɔt´evə] pron.&a.无论什么 (初中英语单词)
- proportion [prə´pɔ:ʃən] n.比率 vt.使成比例 (初中英语单词)
- weakness [´wi:knis] n.虚弱；弱点，缺点 (初中英语单词)
- spoken [´spəukən] speak的过去分词 (初中英语单词)
- lightly [´laitli] ad.轻微地，稍微 (初中英语单词)
- indian [´indiən] a.印度的 n.印度人 (初中英语单词)
- sharply [´ʃɑ:pli] ad.锋利地；剧烈地 (初中英语单词)
- presently [´prezəntli] ad.不久；目前 (初中英语单词)
- promising [´prɔmisiŋ] a.有希望的；有为的 (初中英语单词)
- comfortably [´kʌmfətəbli] ad.舒适地 (高中英语单词)
- ragged [´rægid] a.衣服破烂的 (高中英语单词)
- saying [´seiŋ, ´sei-iŋ] n.言语；言论；格言 (高中英语单词)
- brighten [´braitn] v.(使)明亮；(使)愉快 (高中英语单词)
- bucket [´bʌkit] n.水桶 (高中英语单词)
- eternity [i´tə:niti] n.永恒，来世，无穷 (高中英语单词)
- upright [´ʌprait] a.直立的 ad.直立地 (高中英语单词)
- seeming [´si:miŋ] a.表面上的 n.外观 (英语四级单词)
- clearing [´kliəriŋ] n.(森林中的)空旷地 (英语四级单词)
- kerosene [´kerəsi:n] n.煤油，火油 (英语四级单词)
- mustard [´mʌstəd] n.芥菜；芥末(色) (英语四级单词)
- spanking [´spæŋkiŋ] n.打屁股 a.急速的 (英语四级单词)
- haggard [´hægəd] a.憔悴的 (英语四级单词)
- corpse [kɔ:ps] n.尸体 (英语四级单词)
- ghostly [´gəustli] a.鬼的；朦胧的 (英语六级单词)
- holding [´həuldiŋ] n.保持，固定，存储 (英语六级单词)
- dashing [´dæʃiŋ] a.勇猛的；生气勃勃的 (英语六级单词)
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