she had come after it was all over. Why should she
prolong such memories
and feelings? But my light increased as I remembered she had not written
this for us, and that if she had not seen the flames of war, she had seen
the ashes; for the ashes I had seen myself here in Kings Port, and had
been overwhelmed by the sight, forty years later, more overwhelmed than I
could possibly say to Mrs. Gregory St. Michael, or Mrs. Weguelin, or any-
body. The
strain of sitting and
waiting for the end made my hands cold
and my head hot, but
nevertheless the light which had come enabled me to
bend
instantly to Mrs. Braintree and murmur a great and abused quotation
to her:--
"Tout comprendre c'est tout
pardonner."
But my
petition could not move her. She was too old; she had seen the
flames of war; and so she said to her husband:--
"Edward, will you please help me upstairs?"
And thus the lame, irreconcilable lady left the room with the assistance
of her
unhappywarrior, who must have suffered far more
keenly than I
did.
This
departure left us all in a con
straint which was becoming unbearable
when the
blessed doorbell rang and delivered us, and Miss Josephine St.
Michael entered with John Mayrant. He wore a most curious expression; his
eyes went searching about the room, and at length settled upon Juno with
a light in them as impish as that which had flickered in my own mood
before the ode.
To my surprise, Miss Josephine
advanced and gave me a special and marked
greeting. Before this she had always merely bowed to me; to-night she
held out her hand. "Of course my visit is not to you; but I am very glad
to find you here and express the
appreciation of several of us for your
timely aid to Daddy Ben. He feels much shame in having said nothing to
you himself."
And while I muttered those
inevitablemodest nothings which fit such
occasions, Miss St. Michael recounted to the bride, whom she was
ostensibly
calling upon, and to the rest of our now once more
harmoniouscircle, my ad
ventures in the alleys of Africa. These loomed, even with
Miss St. Michael's
perfectly quiet and simple rendering of them, almost
of
heroic size, thanks
doubtless to Daddy Ben's
tropical imagery when he
first told the tale; and before they were over Miss St. Michael's marked
recognition of me
actually brought from Juno some reflected recognition--
only this resembled in its
graciousness the original about as correctly
as a hollow spoon reflects the human
countenancedivine. Still, it was at
Juno's own request that I brought down from my
chamber and displayed to
them the kettle-supporter.
I have said that Miss St. Michael's visit was ostensibly to the bride:
and that is because for some
magnetic reason or other I felt diplomacy
like an undercurrent passing among our chairs. Young John's expression
deepened,
whenever he watched Juno, to a devilishness which his polite
manners veiled no better than a
mosquito netting; and I believe that his
aunt, on
account of the battle between their
respective nephews, had for
family reasons deemed it
advisable to pay,
indirectly, under cover of the
bride, a state visit to Juno; and I think that I saw Juno accepting it as
a state visit, and that the two together, without using a word of spoken
language, gave each other to understand that the recent deplorable
circumstances were a closed
incident. I think that his Aunt Josephine had
desired young John to pay a visit
likewise, and, to make sure of his
speedy compliance, had brought him along with her--coerced him, as Juno
would have said. He wore somewhat the look of having been "coerced," and
he contributed
remarkably few observations to the talk.
It was all
harmonious, and decorous, and
properly conducted, this state
visit; yet even so, Juno and John exchanged at
parting some verbal
sweet-meats which rather stuck out from the smooth meringue of diplomacy.
She contemplated his
bruise. "You are feeling stronger, I hope, than you
have been
lately? A bridegroom's health should be good."
He thanked her. "I am feeling better to-night than for many weeks."
The
rascal had the thirty dollars visibly bulging that moment in his
pocket. I doubt if he had acquainted his aunt with this
episode, but she
was certain to hear it soon; and when she did hear it, I rather fancy
that she wished to smile--as I completely smiled alone in my bed that
night thinking young John over.
But I did not go to sleep smiling; listening to the "Ode for the
Daughters of Dixie" had been an
ordeal too truly
painful, because it
disclosed live feelings which I had thought were dead, or rather, it
disclosed that those feelings smouldered in the young as well as in the
old. Doctor Beaugarcon didn't have them--he had fought them out, just as
Mr. Braintree had fought them out; and Mrs. Braintree, like Juno,
retained them, because she hadn't fought them out; and John Mayrant
didn't have them, because he had been to other places; and I didn't have
them--never had had them in my life, because I came into the world when
it was all over. Why then--Stop, I told myself, growing very wakeful, and
seeing in the darkness He light which had come to me, you have
beheld ;he
ashes, and even the sight has overwhelmed you; these others were born in
the ashes, and have had ashes to sleep in and ashes to eat. This I said
to myself; and I remembered that War hadn't been all; that Reconstruction
came in due season; and I thought of the "reconstructed" negro, as Daddy
Ben had so ingeniously styled him. These white people, my race, had been
set beneath the reconstructed negro. Still, still, this did not justify
the whole of it to me; my
perfectlyinnocentgeneration seemed to be
included in the unforgiving, unforgetting ode. "I must have it out with
somebody," I said. And in time I fell asleep.
XIII: The Girl Behind the Counter--III
I was still thinking the ode over as I dressed for breakfast, for which I
was late, owing to my hair, which the changes in the weather had rendered
somewhat recalcitrant. Yes;
decidedly I must have it out with somebody.
The weather was once more
superb; and in the garden beneath my window men
were already
sweeping away the broken twigs and debris of the storm. I
say "already," because it had not seemed to me to be the Kings Port
custom to remove debris, or anything, with speed. I also had it in my
mind to perform at lunch Aunt Carola's
commission, and learn if the
family of La Heu were indeed of royal
descent through the Bombos. I
intended to find this out from the girl behind the
counter, but the
course which our conversation took led me completely to forget about it.
As soon as I entered the Exchange I planted myself in front of the
counter, in spite of the
discouragement which I too
plainlyperceived in
her
countenance; the unfavorable
impression which I had made upon her at
our last
interview was still in force.
I plunged into it at once. "I have a
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confession to make."
"You do me
surprising honor."
"Oh, now, don't begin like that! I suppose you never told a lie."
"I'm telling the truth now when I say that I do not see why an entire
stranger should
confess anything to me."
"Oh, my goodness! Well, I told you a lie, anyhow; a great, successful,
deplorable lie."
She opened her mouth under the shock of it, and I recited to her
unsparingly my
deception; during this
recital her mouth gradually closed.
"Well, I declare, declare, declare!" she slowly and deliciously breathed
over the sum total; and she considered me at length,
silently, before her
words came again, like a soft soliloquy. "I could never have believed it
in one who"--here gayety flashed in her eyes suddenly--"parts his back
hair so
rigidly. Oh, I beg your
pardon for being personal!" And her
gayety broke in ripples. Some
habitualinstinct moved me to turn to the
looking-glass. "Useless!" she cried, "you can't see it in that. But it's
perfectly splendid to-day."
Nature has been kind to me in many ways--nay,
prodigal; it is not every
man who can
perceive the humor in a jest of which he is himself the
subject. I laughed with her. "I trust that I am forgiven," I said.
"Oh, yes, you are forgiven! Come out, General, and give the gentleman
your right paw, and tell him that he is forgiven--if only for the sake of
Daddy Ben." With these latter words she gave me a
gracious nod of
understanding. They were all thanking me for the kettle-supporter! She
probably knew also the tale of John Mayrant, the cards, and the bedside.
The curly dog came out, and went through his part very
graciously.