first only we three stood alone, for a long time, watching you
coming down to us, and feeling the
breeze drop to a calm almost;
but afterwards others, too, rose, one after another, and by-and-by
I had all my crew behind me. I turned round and said to them that
they could see the ship was coming our way, but in this small
breeze she might come too late after all, unless we turned to and
tried to keep the brig
afloat long enough to give you time to save
us all. I spoke like that to them, and then I gave the command to
man the pumps."
He gave the command, and gave the example, too, by going himself to
the handles, but it seems that these men did
actually hang back for
a moment, looking at each other dubiously before they followed him.
"He! he! he!" He broke out into a most
unexpected, imbecile,
pathetic,
nervous little
giggle. "Their hearts were broken so!
They had been played with too long," he explained apologetically,
lowering his eyes, and became silent.
Twenty-five years is a long time - a quarter of a century is a dim
and distant past; but to this day I remember the dark-brown feet,
hands, and faces of two of these men whose hearts had been broken
by the sea. They were lying very still on their sides on the
bottom boards between the thwarts, curled up like dogs. My boat's
crew, leaning over the looms of their oars, stared and listened as
if at the play. The master of the brig looked up suddenly to ask
me what day it was.
They had lost the date. When I told him it was Sunday, the 22nd,
he frowned, making some
mentalcalculation, then nodded twice sadly
to himself, staring at nothing.
His
aspect was
miserably unkempt and wildly
sorrowful. Had it not
been for the unquenchable
candour of his blue eyes, whose unhappy,
tired glance every moment sought his
abandoned, sinking brig, as if
it could find rest
nowhere else, he would have appeared mad. But
he was too simple to go mad, too simple with that manly simplicity
which alone can bear men unscathed in mind and body through an
encounter with the
deadlyplayfulness of the sea or with its less
abominable fury.
Neither angry, nor
playful, nor smiling, it enveloped our distant
ship growing bigger as she neared us, our boats with the rescued
men and the dismantled hull of the brig we were leaving behind, in
the large and
placidembrace of its quietness, half lost in the
fair haze, as if in a dream of
infinite and tender clemency. There
was no frown, no
wrinkle on its face, not a
ripple. And the run of
the slight swell was so smooth that it resembled the graceful
undulation of a piece of shimmering gray silk shot with gleams of
green. We pulled an easy stroke; but when the master of the brig,
after a glance over his shoulder, stood up with a low exclamation,
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feathered their oars
instinctively, without an order, and
the boat lost her way.
He was steadying himself on my shoulder with a strong grip, while
his other arm, flung up
rigidly,
pointed a denunciatory finger at
the
immense tranquillity of the ocean. After his first
exclamation, which stopped the swing of our oars, he made no sound,
but his whole attitude seemed to cry out an
indignant "Behold!" . .
. I could not imagine what
vision of evil had come to him. I was
startled, and the
amazingenergy of his immobilized
gesture made my
heart beat faster with the
anticipation of something
monstrous and
unsuspected. The
stillness around us became crushing.
For a moment the
succession of silky undulations ran on innocently.
I saw each of them swell up the misty line of the
horizon, far, far
away beyond the derelict brig, and the next moment, with a slight
friendly toss of our boat, it had passed under us and was gone.
The lulling
cadence of the rise and fall, the invariable gentleness
of this
irresistible force, the great charm of the deep waters,
warmed my breast deliciously, like the subtle
poison of a love-
potion. But all this lasted only a few soothing seconds before I
jumped up too, making the boat roll like the veriest landlubber.
Something
startling,
mysterious,
hastily confused, was taking
place. I watched it with
incredulous and fascinated awe, as one
watches the confused, swift movements of some deed of
violence done
in the dark. As if at a given signal, the run of the smooth
undulations seemed checked suddenly around the brig. By a strange
optical
delusion the whole sea appeared to rise upon her in one
overwhelming heave of its silky surface, where in one spot a
smother of foam broke out ferociously. And then the effort
subsided. It was all over, and the smooth swell ran on as before
from the
horizon in uninterrupted
cadence of
motion, passing under
us with a slight friendly toss of our boat. Far away, where the
brig had been, an angry white stain undulating on the surface of
steely-gray waters, shot with gleams of green, diminished swiftly,
without a hiss, like a patch of pure snow melting in the sun. And
the great
stillness after this initiation into the sea's implacable
hate seemed full of dread thoughts and shadows of disaster.
"Gone!" ejaculated from the depths of his chest my
bowman in a
final tone. He spat in his hands, and took a better grip on his
oar. The captain of the brig lowered his rigid arm slowly, and
looked at our faces in a
solemnlyconscious silence, which called
upon us to share in his simple-minded, marvelling awe. All at once
he sat down by my side, and leaned forward
earnestly at my boat's
crew, who, swinging together in a long, easy stroke, kept their
eyes fixed upon him
faithfully.
"No ship could have done so well," he addressed them
firmly, after
a moment of strained silence, during which he seemed with trembling
lips to seek for words fit to bear such high
testimony. "She was
small, but she was good. I had no
anxiety. She was strong. Last
voyage I had my wife and two children in her. No other ship could
have stood so long the weather she had to live through for days and
days before we got dismasted a
fortnight ago. She was fairly worn
out, and that's all. You may believe me. She lasted under us for
days and days, but she could not last for ever. It was long
enough. I am glad it is over. No better ship was ever left to
sink at sea on such a day as this."
He was
competent to pronounce the funereal
oration of a ship, this
son of ancient sea-folk, whose national
existence, so little
stained by the excesses of manly virtues, had demanded nothing but
the merest
foothold from the earth. By the merits of his sea-wise
forefathers and by the artlessness of his heart, he was made fit to
deliver this excellent
discourse. There was nothing
wanting in its
orderly
arrangement - neither piety nor faith, nor the
tribute of
praise due to the
worthy dead, with the edifying
recital of their
achievement. She had lived, he had loved her; she had suffered,
and he was glad she was at rest. It was an excellent
discourse.
And it was
orthodox, too, in its
fidelity to the
cardinal article
of a
seaman's faith, of which it was a single-minded confession.
"Ships are all right." They are. They who live with the sea have
got to hold by that creed first and last; and it came to me, as I
glanced at him sideways, that some men were not
altogether un
worthyin honour and
conscience to pronounce the funereal eulogium of a
ship's
constancy in life and death.
After this, sitting by my side with his loosely-clasped hands
hanging between his knees, he uttered no word, made no movement
till the shadow of our ship's sails fell on the boat, when, at the
loud cheer greeting the return of the victors with their prize, he
lifted up his troubled face with a faint smile of pathetic
indulgence. This smile of the
worthydescendant of the most
ancient sea-folk whose
audacity and hardihood had left no trace of
greatness and glory upon the waters, completed the cycle of my
initiation. There was an
infinite depth of
hereditarywisdom in
its pitying
sadness. It made the
hearty bursts of cheering sound
like a
childish noise of
triumph. Our crew shouted with
immenseconfidence - honest souls! As if anybody could ever make sure of
having prevailed against the sea, which has betrayed so many ships
of great "name," so many proud men, so many
towering ambitions of
fame, power,
wealth, greatness!
As I brought the boat under the falls my captain, in high good-
humour, leaned over, spreading his red and
freckled elbows on the
rail, and called down to me sarcastically, out of the depths of his
cynic philosopher's beard:
"So you have brought the boat back after all, have you?"
Sarcasm was "his way," and the most that can be said for it is that
it was natural. This did not make it
lovable. But it is decorous
and
expedient to fall in with one's commander's way. "Yes. I
brought the boat back all right, sir," I answered. And the good
man believed me. It was not for him to
discern upon me the marks
of my recent initiation. And yet I was not exactly the same
youngster who had taken the boat away - all
impatience for a race
against death, with the prize of nine men's lives at the end.