misfortune I am now
proceeding to
relate. The morning after our
arrival at the Cottage, Sophia complained of a
violent pain in
her
delicate limbs, accompanied with a disagreable Head-ake She
attributed it to a cold caught by her continued faintings in the
open air as the Dew was falling the Evening before. This I
feared was but too probably the case; since how could it be
otherwise
accounted for that I should have escaped the same
indisposition, but by supposing that the
bodily Exertions I had
undergone in my
repeated fits of
frenzy had so effectually
circulated and warmed my Blood as to make me proof against the
chilling Damps of Night,
whereas, Sophia lying
totally inactive
on the ground must have been exposed to all their
severity. I
was most
seriously alarmed by her
illness which
trifling as it
may appear to you, a certain
instinctive sensibility whispered
me, would in the End be fatal to her.
Alas! my fears were but too fully justified; she grew gradually
worse--and I daily became more alarmed for her. At length she
was obliged to
confine herself
solely to the Bed allotted us by
our
worthy Landlady--. Her
disorder turned to a galloping
Consumption and in a few days carried her off. Amidst all my
Lamentations for her (and
violent you may suppose they were) I
yet received some
consolation in the
reflection of my having paid
every attention to her, that could be offered, in her
illness. I
had wept over her every Day--had bathed her sweet face with my
tears and had pressed her fair Hands
continually in mine--. "My
beloved Laura (said she to me a few Hours before she died) take
warning from my
unhappy End and avoid the imprudent conduct which
had occasioned it. . . Beware of fainting-fits. . . Though at the
time they may be
refreshing and agreable yet beleive me they will
in the end, if too often
repeated and at
improper seasons, prove
destructive to your Constitution. . . My fate will teach you
this. . I die a Martyr to my greif for the loss of Augustus. .
One fatal swoon has cost me my Life. . Beware of swoons Dear
Laura. . . . A
frenzy fit is not one quarter so
pernicious; it is
an exercise to the Body and if not too
violent, is I dare say
conducive to Health in its consequences--Run mad as often as you
chuse; but do not faint--"
These were the last words she ever addressed to me. . It was her
dieing Advice to her afflicted Laura, who has ever most
faithfully adhered to it.
After having attended my lamented freind to her Early Grave, I
immediately (tho' late at night) left the detested Village in
which she died, and near which had expired my Husband and
Augustus. I had not walked many yards from it before I was
overtaken by a stage-coach, in which I
instantly took a place,
determined to proceed in it to Edinburgh, where I hoped to find
some kind some pitying Freind who would receive and comfort me in
my afflictions.
It was so dark when I entered the Coach that I could not
distinguish the Number of my Fellow-travellers; I could only
perceive that they were many. Regardless however of anything
concerning them, I gave myself up to my own sad Reflections. A
general silence prevailed--A silence, which was by nothing
interrupted but by the loud and
repeated snores of one of the
Party.
"What an
illiteratevillain must that man be! (thought I to
myself) What a total want of
delicaterefinement must he have,
who can thus shock our senses by such a
brutal noise! He must I
am certain be
capable of every bad action! There is no crime too
black for such a Character!" Thus reasoned I within myself, and
doubtless such were the
reflections of my fellow travellers.
At length, returning Day enabled me to behold the unprincipled
Scoundrel who had so
violently disturbed my feelings. It was Sir
Edward the father of my Deceased Husband. By his side sate
Augusta, and on the same seat with me were your Mother and Lady
Dorothea. Imagine my surprise at
finding myself thus seated
amongst my old Acquaintance. Great as was my
astonishment, it
was yet increased, when on looking out of Windows, I
beheld the
Husband of Philippa, with Philippa by his side, on the Coachbox
and when on looking behind I
beheld, Philander and Gustavus in
the Basket. "Oh! Heavens, (exclaimed I) is it possible that I
should so
unexpectedly be surrounded by my nearest Relations and
Connections?" These words roused the rest of the Party, and
every eye was directed to the corner in which I sat. "Oh! my
Isabel (continued I throwing myself across Lady Dorothea into her
arms) receive once more to your Bosom the
unfortunate Laura.
Alas! when we last parted in the Vale of Usk, I was happy in
being united to the best of Edwards; I had then a Father and a
Mother, and had never known
misfortunes--But now deprived of
every freind but you--"
"What! (interrupted Augusta) is my Brother dead then? Tell us I
intreat you what is become of him?" "Yes, cold and
insensibleNymph, (replied I) that luckless swain your Brother, is no more,
and you may now glory in being the Heiress of Sir Edward's
fortune."
Although I had always despised her from the Day I had overheard
her conversation with my Edward, yet in
civility I complied with
hers and Sir Edward's intreaties that I would inform them of the
whole
melancholy affair. They were greatly shocked--even the
obdurate Heart of Sir Edward and the
insensible one of Augusta,
were touched with sorrow, by the
unhappy tale. At the request of
your Mother I
related to them every other
misfortune which had
befallen me since we parted. Of the
imprisonment of Augustus and
the
absence of Edward--of our
arrival in Scotland--of our
unexpected Meeting with our Grand-father and our cousins--of our
visit to Macdonald-Hall--of the
singular service we there
performed towards Janetta--of her Fathers
ingratitude for it . .
of his inhuman Behaviour, un
accountable suspicions, and barbarous
treatment of us, in obliging us to leave the House . . of our
lamentations on the loss of Edward and Augustus and finally of
the
melancholy Death of my
beloved Companion.
Pity and surprise were
strongly depictured in your Mother's
countenance, during the whole of my narration, but I am sorry to
say, that to the
eternalreproach of her sensibility, the latter
infinitely predominated. Nay,
faultless as my conduct had
certainly been during the whole course of my late
misfortunes and
adventures, she pretended to find fault with my behaviour in many
of the situations in which I had been placed. As I was sensible
myself, that I had always behaved in a manner which reflected
Honour on my Feelings and Refinement, I paid little attention to
what she said, and desired her to satisfy my Curiosity by
informing me how she came there, instead of wounding my spotless
reputation with unjustifiable Reproaches. As soon as she had
complyed with my wishes in this particular and had given me an
accurate detail of every thing that had
befallen her since our
separation (the particulars of which if you are not already
acquainted with, your Mother will give you) I
applied to Augusta
for the same information
respecting herself, Sir Edward and Lady
Dorothea.
She told me that having a
considerable taste for the Beauties
of Nature, her
curiosity to behold the
delightful scenes it
exhibited in that part of the World had been so much raised by
Gilpin's Tour to the Highlands, that she had prevailed on her
Father to
undertake a Tour to Scotland and had persuaded Lady
Dorothea to accompany them. That they had arrived at Edinburgh a
few Days before and from
thence had made daily Excursions into the
Country around in the Stage Coach they were then in, from one of
which Excursions they were at that time returning. My next
enquiries were
concerning Philippa and her Husband, the latter of
whom I
learned having spent all her fortune, had
recourse for
subsistence to the
talent in which, he had always most excelled,
namely, Driving, and that having sold every thing which belonged
to them except their Coach, had converted it into a Stage and in
order to be removed from any of his former Acquaintance, had
driven it to Edinburgh from
whence he went to Sterling every other