unmistakeably marked at the best, strike him as qualified to
repudiate any
advantage.
He himself was in for it at any rate. He should have Morgan on his
hands again
indefinitely; though indeed he saw the lad had a
private theory to produce which would be intended to smooth this
down. He was obliged to him for it in advance; but the suggested
amendment didn't keep his heart rather from sinking, any more than
it prevented him from accepting the
prospect on the spot, with some
confidence
moreover that he should do so even better if he could
have a little supper. Mrs. Moreen threw out more hints about the
changes that were to be looked for, but she was such a
mixture of
smiles and shudders - she confessed she was very
nervous - that he
couldn't tell if she were in high
feather or only in hysterics. If
the family was really at last going to pieces why shouldn't she
recognise the necessity of pitching Morgan into some sort of
lifeboat? This
presumption was fostered by the fact that they were
established in
luxurious quarters in the capital of pleasure; that
was exactly where they naturally WOULD be established in view of
going to pieces. Moreover didn't she mention that Mr. Moreen and
the others were enjoying themselves at the opera with Mr. Granger,
and wasn't THAT also
precisely where one would look for them on the
eve of a smash? Pemberton gathered that Mr. Granger was a rich
vacant American - a big bill with a flourishy heading and no items;
so that one of Paula's "ideas" was probably that this time she
hadn't missed fire - by which straight shot indeed she would have
shattered the general cohesion. And if the cohesion was to crumble
what would become of poor Pemberton? He felt quite enough bound up
with them to figure to his alarm as a dislodged block in the
edifice.
It was Morgan who
eventually asked if no supper had been ordered
for him; sitting with him below, later, at the dim delayed meal, in
the presence of a great deal of corded green plush, a plate of
ornamental
biscuit and an aloofness marked on the part of the
waiter. Mrs. Moreen had explained that they had been obliged to
secure a room for the
visitor out of the house; and Morgan's
consolation - he offered it while Pemberton reflected on the
nastiness of lukewarm sauces - proved to be, largely, that his
circumstance would
facilitate their escape. He talked of their
escape - recurring to it often afterwards - as if they were making
up a "boy's book" together. But he
likewise expressed his sense
that there was something in the air, that the Moreens couldn't keep
it up much longer. In point of fact, as Pemberton was to see, they
kept it up for five or six months. All the while, however,
Morgan's
contention was designed to cheer him. Mr. Moreen and
Ulick, whom he had met the day after his return, accepted that
return like perfect men of the world. If Paula and Amy treated it
even with less
formality an
allowance was to be made for them,
inasmuch as Mr. Granger hadn't come to the opera after all. He had
only placed his box at their service, with a
bouquet for each of
the party; there was even one
apiece, embittering the thought of
his profusion, for Mr. Moreen and Ulick. "They're all like that,"
was Morgan's
comment; "at the very last, just when we think we've
landed them they're back in the deep sea!"
Morgan's
comments in these days were more and more free; they even
included a large
recognition of the
extraordinarytenderness with
which he had been treated while Pemberton was away. Oh yes, they
couldn't do enough to be nice to him, to show him they had him on
their mind and make up for his loss. That was just what made the
whole thing so sad and caused him to
rejoice after all in
Pemberton's return - he had to keep thinking of their
affectionless, had less sense of
obligation. Pemberton laughed out at this
last reason, and Morgan blushed and said: "Well, dash it, you know
what I mean." Pemberton knew
perfectly what he meant; but there
were a good many things that - dash it too! - it didn't make any
clearer. This
episode of his second
sojourn in Paris stretched
itself out
wearily, with their resumed readings and wanderings and
maunderings, their potterings on the quays, their hauntings of the
museums, their
occasional lingerings in the Palais Royal when the
first sharp weather came on and there was a comfort in warm
emanations, before Chevet's wonderful succulent window. Morgan
wanted to hear all about the opulent youth - he took an immense
interest in him. Some of the details of his opulence - Pemberton
could spare him none of them -
evidently fed the boy's appreciation
of all his friend had given up to come back to him; but in addition
to the greater reciprocity established by that
heroism he had
always his little brooding theory, in which there was a frivolous
gaiety too, that their long probation was
drawing to a close.
Morgan's
conviction that the Moreens couldn't go on much longer
kept pace with the unexpended
impetus with which, from month to
month, they did go on. Three weeks after Pemberton had rejoined
them they went on to another hotel, a dingier one than the first;
but Morgan
rejoiced that his tutor had at least still not
sacrificed the
advantage of a room outside. He clung to the
romantic
utility of this when the day, or rather the night, should
arrive for their escape.
For the first time, in this
complicated connexion, our friend felt
his
collar gall him. It was, as he had said to Mrs. Moreen in
Venice, trop fort - everything was trop fort. He could neither
really throw off his blighting burden nor find in it the benefit of
a pacified
conscience or of a rewarded
affection. He had spent all
the money accruing to him in England, and he saw his youth going
and that he was getting nothing back for it. It was all very well
of Morgan to count it for
reparation that he should now settle on
him
permanently - there was an irritating flaw in such a view. He
saw what the boy had in his mind; the
conception that as his friend
had had the
generosity to come back he must show his
gratitude by
giving him his life. But the poor friend didn't desire the gift -
what could he do with Morgan's
dreadful little life? Of course at
the same time that Pemberton was irritated he remembered the
reason, which was very
honourable to Morgan and which dwelt simply
in his making one so forget that he was no more than a patched
urchin. If one dealt with him on a different basis one's
misadventures were one's own fault. So Pemberton waited in a queer
confusion of yearning and alarm for the
catastrophe which was held
to hang over the house of Moreen, of which he certainly at moments
felt the symptoms brush his cheek and as to which he wondered much
in what form it would find its liveliest effect.
Perhaps it would take the form of sudden dispersal - a frightened
sauve qui peut, a scuttling into
selfish corners. Certainly they
were less
elastic than of yore; they were
evidently looking for
something they didn't find. The Dorringtons hadn't re-appeared,
the princes had scattered; wasn't that the
beginning of the end?
Mrs. Moreen had lost her
reckoning of the famous "days"; her social
calendar was blurred - it had turned its face to the wall.
Pemberton suspected that the great, the cruel discomfiture had been
the
unspeakable behaviour of Mr. Granger, who seemed not to know
what he wanted, or, what was much worse, what they wanted. He kept
sending flowers, as if to bestrew the path of his
retreat, which
was never the path of a return. Flowers were all very well, but -
Pemberton could complete the
proposition. It was now positively
conspicuous that in the long run the Moreens were a social failure;
so that the young man was almost
grateful the run had not been
short. Mr. Moreen indeed was still
occasionally able to get away
on business and, what was more
surprising, was
likewise able to get
back. Ulick had no club but you couldn't have discovered it from
his appearance, which was as much as ever that of a person looking
at life from the window of such an
institution;
therefore Pemberton
was
doubly surprised at an answer he once heard him make his mother
in the
desperate tone of a man familiar with the worst privations.
Her question Pemberton had not quite caught; it appeared to be an
appeal for a
suggestion as to whom they might get to take Amy.
"Let the Devil take her!" Ulick snapped; so that Pemberton could