My weary open eye,
No marvellous romances
Make night go
swiftly by;
But only
feverish fancies
Beset me where I lie.
The black
midnight is steeping
The
hillside and the lawn,
But still I lie unsleeping,
With curtains
backward drawn,
To catch the earliest peeping
Of the desired dawn.
Perhaps, when day is breaking;
When birds their song begin,
And, worn with all night waking,
I call their music din,
Sweet sleep, some pity taking,
At last may enter in.
LOVE'S PHANTOM
Whene'er I try to read a book,
Across the page your face will look,
And then I neither know nor care
What sense the printed words may bear.
At night when I would go to sleep,
Thinking of you, awake I keep,
And still repeat the words you said,
Like sick men murmuring prayers in bed.
And when, with
weariness oppressed,
I sink in spite of you to rest,
Your image, like a lovely sprite,
Haunts me in dreams through half the night.
I wake upon the autumn morn
To find the
sunrise hardly born,
And in the sky a soft pale blue,
And in my heart your image true.
When out I walk to take the air,
Your image is for ever there,
Among the woods that lose their leaves,
Or where the North Sea sadly heaves.
By what
enchantment shall be laid
This ghost, which does not make afraid,
But vexes with dim
lovelinessAnd many a
shadowy caress?
There is no other way I know
But unto you
forthwith to go,
That I may look upon the maid
Whereof that other is the shade.
As the strong sun puts out the moon,
Whose borrowed rays are all his own,
So, in your living presence, dies
The
phantom kindled at your eyes.
By this most
blessed spell, each day
The vexing ghost
awhile I lay.
Yet am I glad to know that when
I leave you it will rise again.
COME BACK TO ST. ANDREWS
Come back to St. Andrews! Before you went away
You said you would be
wretched where you could not see the Bay,
The East sands and the West sands and the castle in the sea
Come back to St. Andrews--St. Andrews and me.
Oh, it's
dreary along South Street when the rain is coming down,
And the east wind makes the student draw more close his warm red
gown,
As I often saw you do, when I watched you going by
On the stormy days to College, from my window up on high.
I
wander on the Lade Braes, where I used to walk with you,
And
purple are the woods of Mount Melville, budding new,
But I cannot bear to look, for the tears keep coming so,
And the Spring has lost the
freshness which it had a year ago.
Yet often I could fancy, where the
pathway takes a turn,
I shall see you in a moment, coming round beside the burn,
Coming round beside the burn, with your swinging step and free,
And your face lit up with pleasure at the sudden sight of me.
Beyond the Rock and Spindle, where we watched the water clear
In the happy April
sunshine, with a happy sound to hear,
There I sat this afternoon, but no hand was
holding mine,
And the water sounded eerie, though the April sun did shine.
Oh, why should I
complain of what I know was bound to be?
For you had your way to make, and you must not think of me.
But a woman's heart is weak, and a woman's joys are few -
There are times when I could die for a moment's sight of you.
It may be you will come again, before my hair is grey
As the sea is in the
twilight of a weary winter's day.
When success is grown a burden, and your heart would fain be free,
Come back to St. Andrews--St. Andrews and me.
THE SOLITARY
I have been
lonely all my days on earth,
Living a life within my secret soul,
With mine own springs of sorrow and of mirth,
Beyond the world's control.
Though sometimes with vain
longing I have sought
To walk the paths where other mortals tread,
To wear the clothes for other mortals wrought,
And eat the
selfsame bread -
Yet have I ever found, when thus I strove
To mould my life upon the common plan,
That I was furthest from all truth and love,
And least a living man.
Truth frowned upon my poor hypocrisy,
Life left my soul, and dwelt but in my sense;
No man could love me, for all men could see
The hollow vain pretence.
Their clothes sat on me with outlandish air,
Upon their easy road I tripped and fell,
And still I sickened of the
wholesome fare
On which they nourished well.
I was a stranger in that company,
A Galilean whom his speech bewrayed,
And when they lifted up their songs of glee,
My voice sad
discord made.
Peace for mine own self I could never find,
And still my presence marred the general peace,
And when I parted, leaving them behind,
They felt, and I, release.
So will I follow now my spirit's bent,
Not scorning those who walk the
beaten track,
Yet not despising mine own banishment,
Nor often looking back.
Their way is best for them, but mine for me.
And there is comfort for my
lonely heart,
To think perhaps our journeys' ends may be
Not very far apart.
TO ALFRED TENNYSON--1883
Familiar with thy melody,
We go debating of its power,
As churls, who hear it hour by hour,
Contemn the skylark's minstrelsy -
As
shepherds on a Highland lea
Think
lightly of the
heather flower
Which makes the moorland's
purple dower,
As far away as eye can see.
Let churl or
shepherd change his sky,
And labour in the city dark,
Where there is neither air nor room -
How often will the exile sigh
To hear again the unwearied lark,
And see the
heather's
lavish bloom!
ICHABOD
Gone is the glory from the hills,
The autumn
sunshine from the mere,
Which mourns for the declining year
In all her
tributary rills.
A sense of change obscurely chills
The misty
twilight atmosphere,
In which familiar things appear
Like alien ghosts, foreboding ills.
The
twilight hour a month ago
Was full of pleasant
warmth and ease,
The pearl of all the twenty-four.
Erelong the winter gales shall blow,
Erelong the winter frosts shall
freeze -
And oh, that it were June once more!
AT A HIGH CEREMONY
Not the proudest
damsel here
Looks so well as doth my dear.
All the borrowed light of dress
Outshining not her
loveliness,
A
loveliness not born of art,
But growing outwards from her heart,
Illuminating all her face,
And filling all her form with grace.
Said I, of dress the borrowed light
Could rival not her beauty bright?
Yet, looking round, `tis truth to tell,
No
damsel here is dressed so well.
Only in them the dress one sees,
Because more greatly it doth please
Than any other charm that's theirs,
Than all their manners, all their airs.
But dress in her, although indeed
It perfect be, we do not heed,
Because the face, the form, the air
Are all so gentle and so rare.
THE WASTED DAY
Another day let slip! Its hours have run,
Its golden hours, with
prodigal excess,
All run to waste. A day of life the less;
Of many wasted days, alas, but one!
Through my west window streams the
setting sun.
I kneel within my
chamber, and confess
My sin and sorrow, filled with vain distress,
In place of honest joy for work well done.
At noon I passed some labourers in a field.
The sweat ran down upon each sunburnt face,
Which shone like
copper in the
ardent glow.
And one looked up, with envy unconcealed,
Be
holding my cool cheeks and listless pace,
Yet he was happier, though he did not know.
INDOLENCE
Fain would I shake thee off, but weak am I
Thy strong solicitations to withstand.
Plenty of work lies ready to my hand,
Which rests irresolute, and lets it lie.
How can I work, when that seductive sky
Smiles through the window, beautiful and bland,
And seems to half
entreat and half command
My presence out of doors beneath its eye?
Will not the air be fresh, the water blue,
The smell of beanfields, blowing to the shore,
Better than these poor drooping purchased flowers?
Good-bye, dull books! Hot room, good-bye to you!
And think it strange if I return before