It was a hazy
sunrise in August. The denser nocturnal vapours, attacked by the warm beams, were dividing and shrinking into isolated fleeces within hollows and
coverts, where they waited till they should be dried away to nothing.
The sun, on account of the mist, had a curious sentient, personal look, demanding the
masculine pronoun for its adequate expression. His present aspect, coupled with the lack of all human forms in the scene, explained the
old-time heliolatries in a moment. One could feel that a saner religion had never prevailed under the sky. The luminary was a golden-haired,
beaming, mild-eyed, God-like creature, gazing down in the
vigour and intentness of youth upon an earth that was brimming with interest for him.
His light, a little later, broke through chinks of cottage shutters, throwing stripes like red-hot pokers upon cupboards, chests of drawers, and other furniture within; and
awakening harvesters who were not already astir.
But of all ruddy things that morning the brightest were two broad arms of painted wood, which rose from the
margin of a yellow
cornfield hard by Marlott village. They, with two others below, formed the revolving Maltese cross of the reaping-machine, which had been brought to the field on the previous evening to be ready for operations this day. The paint with which they were smeared, intensified in hue by the sunlight, imparted to them a look of having been dipped in liquid fire.
The field had already been `opened'; that is to say, a lane a few feet wide had been hand-cut through the wheat along the whole
circumference of the field, for the first passage of the horses and machine.
Two groups, one of men and lads, the other of women, had come down the lane just at the hour when the shadows of the eastern hedge-top struck the west hedge
midway, so that the heads of the groups were enjoying
sunrise while their feet were still in the dawn. They disappeared from the lane between the two stone posts which flanked the nearest field-gate.
Presently there arose from within a ticking like the love-making of the
grasshopper. The machine had begun, and a moving concatenation of three horses and the aforesaid long rickety machine was visible over the gate, a driver sitting upon one of the hauling horses, and an attendant on the seat of the
implement. Along one side of the field the whole wain went, the arms of the mechanical
reaper revolving slowly, till it passed down the hill quite out of sight. In a minute it came up on the other side of the field at the same equable pace; the glistening brass star in the forehead of the fore horse first catching the eye as it rose into view over the
stubble, then the bright arms, and then the whole machine.
The narrow lane of
stubble encompassing the field grew wider with each circuit, and the standing corn was reduced to smaller area as the morning wore on. Rabbits, hares, snakes, rats, mice, retreated inwards as into a fastness,
unaware of the ephemeral nature of their refuge, and of the doom that awaited them later in the day when, their
covert shrinking to a more and more horrible narrowness, they were huddled together, friends and foes, till the last few yards of
upright wheat fell also under the teeth of the unerring
reaper, and they were every one put to death by the sticks and stones of the harvesters.
The reaping-machine left the fallen corn behind it in little heaps, each heap being of the quantity for a sheaf; and upon these the active binders in the rear laid their hands - mainly women, but some of them men in print shirts, and trousers supported round their waists by leather straps, rendering useless the two buttons behind, which twinkled and bristled with sunbeams at every movement of each wearer, as if they were a pair of eyes in the small of his back.
But those of the other sex were the most interesting of this company of binders, by reason of the charm which is acquired by woman when she becomes part and parcel of outdoor nature, and is not merely an object set down
therein as at ordinary times. A field-man is a personality afield; a field-woman is a portion of the field; she has somehow lost her own
margin, imbibed the
essence of her
surrounding, and assimilated herself with it.
The women - or rather girls, for they were mostly young - wore drawn cotton
bonnets with great flapping curtains to keep off the sun, and gloves to prevent their hands being wounded by the
stubble. There was one wearing a pale pink jacket, another in a cream-coloured tight-sleeved gown, another in a
petticoat as red as the arms of the reaping-machine; and others, older, in the brown-rough `wropper' or over-all-the old-established and most
appropriate dress of the field-woman, which the young ones were abandoning. This morning the eye returns
involuntarily to the girl in the pink cotton jacket, she being the most flexuous and finely-drawn figure of them all. But her
bonnet is pulled so far over her brow that none of her face is disclosed while she binds, though her
complexion may be guessed from a stray twine or two of dark brown hair which extends below the curtain of her
bonnet. Perhaps one reason why she seduces
casual attention is that she never courts it, though the other women often gaze around them.
Her
binding proceeds with clock-like
monotony. From the sheaf last finished she draws a
handful of ears, patting their tips with her left palm to bring them even. Then stooping low she moves forward,
gathering the corn with both hands against her knees, and pushing her left gloved hand under the bundle to meet the right on the other side,
holding the corn in an embrace like that of a lover. She brings the ends of the bond together, and kneels on the sheaf while she ties it,
beating back her skirts now and then when lifted by the breeze. A bit of her naked arm is visible between the buff leather of the gauntlet and the sleeve of her gown; and as the day wears on its
feminine smoothness becomes scarified by the
stubble, and bleeds.
At intervals she stands up to rest, and to retie her disarranged apron, or to pull her
bonnet straight. Then one can see the oval face of a handsome young woman with deep dark eyes and long heavy clinging tresses, which seem to clasp in a beseeching way anything they fall against. The cheeks are paler, the teeth more regular, the red lips thinner than is usual in a country-bred girl.
It is Tess Durbeyfield, otherwise d'Urberville, somewhat changed - the same, but not the same; at the present stage of her existence living as a stranger and an alien here, though it was no strange land that she was in. After a long seclusion she had come to a resolve to undertake outdoor work in her native village, the busiest season of the year in the agricultural world having arrived, and nothing that she could do within the house being so remunerative for the time as harvesting in the fields.
The movements of the other women were more or less similar to Tess's, the whole bevy of them
drawing together like dancers in a quadrille at the
completion of a sheaf by each, every one placing her sheaf on end against those of the rest, till a shock, or `stitch' as it was here called, of ten or a dozen was formed.
They went to breakfast, and came again, and the work proceeded as before. As the hour of eleven drew near a person watching her might have noticed that every now and then Tess's glance flitted
wistfully to the brow of the hill, though she did not pause in her sheafing. On the verge of the hour the heads of a group of children, of ages ranging from six to fourteen, rose above the stubbly convexity of the hill.
The face of Tess flushed slightly, but still she did not pause.
The
eldest of the comers, a girl who wore a
triangular shawl, its corner draggling on the
stubble, carried in her arms what at first sight seemed to be a doll, but proved to be an infant in long clothes. Another brought some lunch. The harvesters ceased working, took their provisions, and sat down against one of the shocks. Here they fell to, the men plying a stone jar freely, and passing round a cup.
Tess Durbeyfield had been one of the last to suspend her labours. She sat down at the end of the shock, her face turned somewhat away from her companions. When she had deposited herself a man in a rabbit-skin cap and with a red handkerchief tucked into his belt, held the cup of ale over the top of the shock for her to drink. But she did not accept his offer. As soon as her lunch was spread she called up the big girl her sister, and took the baby of her, who, glad to be relieved of the burden, went away to the next shock and joined the other children playing there. Tess, with a curiously stealthy yet
courageous movement, and with a still rising colour, unfastened her frock and began suckling the child.
The men who sat nearest considerately turned their faces towards the other end of the field, some of them beginning to smoke; one, with absent-minded
fondness, regretfully stroking the jar that would no longer yield a stream. All the women but Tess fell into
animated talk, and adjusted the disarranged knots of their hair.
When the infant had taken its fill the young mother sat it
upright in her lap, and looking into the far distance dandled it with a
gloomyindifference that was almost dislike; then all of a sudden she fell to
violently kissing it some dozens of times, as if she could never leave off, the child crying at the
vehemence of an onset which strangely combined passionateness with
contempt.
`She's fond of that there child, though she mid pretend to hate en, and say she wishes the baby and her too were in the church-yard,' observed the woman in the red
petticoat.
`She'll soon leave off
saying that,' replied the one in buff. `Lord, 'tis wonderful what a body can get used to o' that sort in time!'
`A little more than persuading had to do wi' the coming o't, I reckon. There were they that heard a sobbing one night last year in The Chase; and it mid ha' gone hard wi' a certain party if folks had come along.'
`Well, a little more or a little less, 'twas a thousand pities that it should have happened to she, of all others. But 'tis always the comeliest! The plain ones be as safe as churches - hey, Jenny?' The speaker turned to one of the group who certainly was not ill-defined as plain.
It was a thousand pities, indeed; it was impossible for even an enemy to feel otherwise on looking at Tess as she sat there, with her flower-like mouth and large tender eyes, neither black nor blue nor gray nor violet; rather all those shades together, and a hundred others, which could be seen if one looked into their irises - shade behind shade - tint beyond tint - around pupils that had no bottom; an almost standard woman, but for the slight incautiousness of character inherited from her race.
A resolution which had surprised herself had brought her into the fields this week for the first time during many months. After wearing and
wasting her palpitating heart with every engine of regret that lonely inexperience could
devise, common-sense had illumined her. She felt that she would do well to be useful again - to taste anew sweet independence at any price. The past was past; whatever it had been it was no more at hand. Whatever its consequences, time would close over them; they would all in a few years be as if they had never been, and she herself grassed down and forgotten. Meanwhile the trees were just as green as before; the birds sang and the sun shone as clearly now as ever. The familiar
surroundings had not darkened because of her grief, nor sickened because of her pain.
She might have seen that what had bowed her head so
profoundly - the thought of the world's concern at her situation was founded on an
illusion. She was not an existence, an experience, a passion, a structure of sensations, to anybody but herself. To all humankind besides Tess was only a passing thought. Even to friends she was no more than a frequently passing thought. If she made herself miserable the livelong night and day it was only this much to them--'Ah, she makes herself unhappy.' If she tried to be cheerful, to dismiss all care, to take pleasure in the daylight, the flowers, the baby, she could only be this idea to them - `Ah, she bears it very well.' Moreover, alone in a desert island would she have been wretched at what had happened to her? Not greatly. If she could have been but just created to discover herself as a spouseless mother, with no experience of life except as the parent of a
nameless child, would the position have caused her to despair? No, she would have taken it calmly, and found pleasures
therein. Most of the misery had been generated by her
conventional aspect, and not by her innate sensations.
Whatever Tess's
reasoning, some spirit had induced her to dress herself up neatly as she had formerly done, and come out into the fields, harvest-hands being greatly in demand just then. This was why she had borne herself with dignity, and had looked people calmly in the face at times, even when
holding the baby in her arms.
The harvest-men rose from the shock of corn, and stretched their limbs, and extinguished their pipes. The horses, which had been unharnessed and fed, were again attached to the scarlet machine. Tess, having quickly eaten her own meal, beckoned to her
eldest sister to come and take away the baby, fastened her dress, put on the buff gloves again, and stooped anew to draw a bond from the last completed sheaf for the tying of the next.
In the afternoon and evening the proceedings of the morning were continued, Tess staying on till dusk with the body of harvesters. Then they all rode home in one of the largest waggons, in the company of a broad tarnished moon that had risen from the ground to the eastwards, its face resembling the outworn goldleaf halo of some worm-eaten Tuscan saint. Tess's female companions sang songs, and showed themselves very sympathetic and glad at her reappearance out of doors, though they could not
refrain from mischievously throwing in a few verses of the
ballad about the maid who went to the merry green wood and came back a changed state. There are counterpoises and compensations in life; and the event which had made of her a social
warning had also for the moment made her the most interesting
personage in the village to many. Their
friendliness won her still farther away from herself, their lively spirits were
contagious, and she became almost gay.
But now that her moral sorrows were passing away a fresh one arose on the natural side of her which knew no social law. When she reached home it was to learn to her grief that the baby had been suddenly taken ill since the afternoon. Some such
collapse had been probable, so tender and puny was its frame; but the event came as a shock nevertheless.
The baby's offence against society in coming into the world was forgotten by the girl-mother; her soul's desire was to continue that offence by preserving the life of the child. However, it soon grew clear that the hour of
emancipation for that little prisoner of the flesh was to arrive earlier than her worst misgivings had conjectured. And when she had discovered this she was plunged into a misery which transcended that of the child's simple loss. Her baby had not been
baptized.
Tess had drifted into a frame of mind which accepted passively the consideration that if she should have to burn for what she had done, burn she must, and there was an end of it. Like all village girls she was well grounded in the Holy Scriptures, and had dutifully
studied the histories of Aholah and Aholibah, and knew the inferences to be drawn therefrom. But when the same question arose with regard to the baby, it had a very different colour. Her darling was about to die, and no
salvation.
It was nearly
bedtime, but she rushed downstairs and asked if she might send for the
parson. The moment happened to be one at which her father's sense of the
antiquenobility of his family was highest, and his sensitiveness to the smudge which Tess had set upon that
nobility most
pronounced, for he had just returned from his weekly booze at Rolliver's Inn. No
parson should come inside his door, he declared, prying into his affairs, just then, when, by her shame, it had become more necessary than ever to hide them. He locked the door and put the key in his pocket.
The household went to bed, and, distressed beyond measure, Tess
retired also. She was
continually waking as she lay, and in the middle of the night found that the baby was still worse. It was obviously dying - quietly and painlessly, but none the less surely.
In her misery she rocked herself upon the bed. The clock struck the solemn hour of one, that hour when fancy stalks outside reason, and
malignant possibilities stand rock-firm as facts. She thought of the child consigned to the nethermost corner of hell, as its double doom for lack of
baptism and lack of legitimacy; saw the arch-fiend tossing it with his three-pronged fork, like the one they used for heating the oven on
baking days; to which picture she added many other
quaint and curious details of
torment sometimes taught the young in this Christian country. The lurid presentment so powerfully
affected her imagination in the silence of the sleeping house that her nightgown became damp with perspiration, and the bedstead shook with each throb of her heart.
The infant's breathing grew more difficult, and the mother's mental
tension increased. It was useless to
devour the little thing with kisses; she could stay in bed no longer, and walked feverishly about the room.
`O
merciful God, have pity; have pity upon my poor baby!' she cried. `Heap as much anger as you want to upon me, and welcome; but pity the child!'
She leant against the chest of drawers, and murmured incoherent supplications for a long while, till she suddenly started up.
`Ah! perhaps baby can be saved! Perhaps it will be just the same!'
She spoke so
brightly that it seemed as though her face might have shone in the gloom
surrounding her.
She lit a candle, and went to a second and a third bed under the wall, where she awoke her young sisters and brothers, all of whom occupied the same room. Pulling out the washing-stand so that she could get behind it, she poured some water from a jug, and made them kneel around, putting their hands together with fingers exactly
vertical. While the children, scarcely awake, awe-stricken at her manner, their eyes growing larger and larger, remained in this position, she took the baby from her bed - a child's child - so immature as scarce to seem a sufficient personality to endow its
producer with the
maternal title. Tess then stood erect with the infant on her arm beside the basin, the next sister held the Prayer Book open before her, as the clerk at church held it before the
parson; and thus the girl set about baptizing her child.
Her figure looked singularly tall and
imposing as she stood in her long white nightgown, a thick cable of twisted dark hair
hanging straight down her back to her waist. The kindly dimness of the weak candle abstracted from her form and features the little blemishes which sunlight might have revealed - the
stubble scratches upon her wrists, and the
weariness of her eyes - her high enthusiasm having a transfiguring effect upon the fact which had been her undoing, showing it as a thing of
immaculate beauty, with a touch of dignity which was almost regal. The little ones kneeling round, their
sleepy eyes blinking and red, awaited her preparations full of a suspended wonder which their physical
heaviness at that hour would not allow to become active.
The most impressed of them said:
`Be you really going to
christen him, Tess?'
The girl-mother replied in a grave affirmative.
`What's his name going to be?'
She had not thought of that, but a name suggested by a phrase in the book of Genesis came into her head as she proceeded with the
baptismal service, and now she
pronounced it:
`SORROW, I
baptize thee in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost.'
She sprinkled the water, and there was silence.
`Say "Amen", children.'
The tiny voices piped in
obedientresponse `Amen!'
Tess went on:
`We receive this child - and so forth--'and do sign him with the sign of the Cross.'
Here she dipped her hand into the basin, and
fervently drew an immense cross upon the baby with her
forefinger, continuing with the
customary sentences as to his manfully fighting against sin, the world, and the devil, and being a faithful soldier and servant unto his life's end. She duly went on with the Lord's Prayer, the children lisping it after her in a thin gnatlike wail, till, at the conclusion, raising their voices to clerk's pitch, they again piped into the silence, `Amen!'
Then their sister, with much augmented confidence in the efficacy of this sacrament, poured forth from the bottom of her heart the
thanksgiving that follows, uttering it
boldly and
triumphantly in the stopt-diapason note which her voice acquired when her heart was in her speech, and which will never be forgotten by those who knew her. The
ecstasy of faith almost apotheosized her; it set upon her face a glowing irradiation, and brought a red spot into the middle of each cheek; while the
miniature candle-flame inverted in her eye-pupils shone like a diamond. The children gazed up at her with more and more
reverence, and no longer had a will for questioning. She did not look like Sissy to them now, but as a being large,
towering, and awful - a divine
personage with whom they had nothing in common.
Poor Sorrow's
campaign against sin, the world, and the devil was doomed to be of
limited brilliancy - luckily perhaps for himself,
considering his beginnings. In the blue of the morning that
fragile soldier and servant breathed his last, and when the other children awoke they cried bitterly, and begged Sissy to have another pretty baby.
The
calmness which had possessed Tess since the
christening remained with her in the infant's loss. In the daylight, indeed, she felt her terrors about his soul to have been somewhat exaggerated; whether well founded or not she had no
uneasiness now,
reasoning that if Providence would not
ratify such an act of approximation she, for one, did not value the kind of heaven lost by the
irregularity - either for herself or for her child.
So passed away Sorrow the Undesired - that intrusive creature, that
bastard gift of shameless Nature who respects not the social law; a waif to whom eternal Time had been a matter of days merely, who knew not that such things as years and centuries ever were; to whom the cottage interior was the
universe, the week's weather climate, new-born babyhood human existence, and the instinct to suck human knowledge.
Tess, who mused on the
christening a good deal, wondered if it were doctrinally sufficient to secure a Christian burial for the child. Nobody could tell this but the
parson of the
parish, and he was a new-comer, and did not know her. She went to his house after dusk, and stood by the gate, but could not
summon courage to go in. The enterprise would have been
abandoned if she had not by accident met him coming
homeward as she turned away. In the gloom she did not mind
speaking freely.
`I should like to ask you something, sir.'
He expressed his
willingness to listen, and she told the story of the baby's illness and the extemporized
ordinance.
`And now, sir,' she added
earnestly, `can you tell me this - will it be just the same for him as if you had
baptized him?'
Having the natural feelings of a
tradesman at
finding that a job he should have been called in for had been unskilfully botched by his customers among themselves, he was disposed to say no. Yet the dignity of the girl, the strange
tenderness in her voice, combined to affect his nobler impulses - or rather those that he had left in him after ten years of endeavour to graft
technical belief on actual scepticism. The man and the ecclesiastic fought within him, and the victory fell to the man.
`My dear girl,' he said, `it will be just the same.'
`Then will you give him a Christian burial?' she asked quickly.
The Vicar felt himself cornered. Hearing of the baby's illness, he had conscientiously gone to the house after
nightfall to perform the rite, and,
unaware that the
refusal to admit him had come from Tess's father and not from Tess, he could not allow the plea of necessity for its
irregular administration.
`Ah - that's another matter,' he said.
`Another matter - why?' asked Tess, rather warmly.
`Well - I would
willingly do so if only we two were concerned.'
`But I must not - for certain reasons.'
`Just for once, sir!'
`Really I must not.'
`O sir!' She seized his hand as she spoke.
He
withdrew it, shaking his head.
`Then I don't like you!' she burst out, `and I'll never come to your church no more!'
`Don't talk so rashly.'
`Perhaps it will be just the same to him if you don't? - Will it be just the same? Don't for God's sake speak as saint to
sinner, but as you yourself to me myself - poor me!'
How the Vicar reconciled his answer with the
strict notions he supposed himself to hold on these subjects it is beyond a layman's power to tell, though not to excuse. Somewhat moved, he said in this case also--
`It will be just the same.'
So the baby was carried in a small deal box, under an ancient woman's shawl, to the
churchyard that night, and buried by lantern-light, at the cost of a
shilling and a pint of beer to the sexton, in that
shabby corner of God's allotment where He lets the nettles grow, and where all un
baptized infants,
notorious drunkards, suicides, and others of the conjecturally
damned are laid. In spite of the untoward
surroundings, however, Tess
bravely made a little cross of two laths and a piece of string, and having bound it with flowers, she stuck it up at the head of the grave one evening when she could enter the
churchyard without being seen, putting at the foot also a bunch of the same flowers in a little jar of water to keep them alive. What matter was it that on the outside of the jar the eye of mere observation noted the words `Keelwell's Marmalade'? The eye of
maternal affection did not see them in its vision of higher things.
那是八月里的一个雾气朦胧的黎明。夜间产生的浓厚的雾气,在温暖阳光的照射下,正在分散开来,缩小成一堆一簇的雾团,掩藏在洼地里,树林中,它们就聚集在那儿,直到最后消失得一干二净。
由于雾气的缘故,太阳也变得奇怪起来,有了人的面孔,有了人的感觉,要想把它准确地表达清楚,得使用阳性代词才行。他现在的面目,再加上景物中看不见一个人影,这立刻就对古代的太阳崇拜作出了解释。你能够感觉到,普天之下还没有一种宗教比他更合乎情理的了。这个发光的物体就是一个生灵,长着金色的头发,目光柔和,神采飞扬,好像上帝一样,身上充满了青春的活力,正目不转睛地注视着大地,仿佛大地上满是他感到有趣的事物。
过了一会儿,他的光线穿过农家小屋百叶窗的缝隙,好像一根根烧红了的通条,照射在屋内的碗橱、五斗橱和其它的家具上;唤醒了还处在睡梦中的收获庄稼的农工们。
不过那天早晨,在所有的红色物体中,最红的物体要算两根被漆成红色的宽木头支架,它们都被竖在紧靠着马洛特村的一块金黄色麦地边上。加上下面的两根木头支架,它们就构成了收割机上可以转动的马尔他十字架①,收割机是在昨天被搬运到地头上的,准备在今天使用。十字架上漆的红色油漆,让太阳的光线一照,它的色彩就显得更加艳丽,让人看上去觉得十字架好像是被浸泡在红色的液体火焰里一样。
①马尔他十字架(Maltese cros),十字架的样式多种多样,主要的有拉丁式、希腊式、马尔他式。马尔他式十字架外部较宽,根部较窄。
那片麦地已经被"割过了";也就是说,在这块麦地的四周,已经有人用手工把麦子割去了一圈,开辟出了一条几尺宽的小路,好让开始割麦时马匹和机器能够通过。
麦地里被割出来的小路上已经来了两拨人,一拨人是男子和男孩子,另一拨人是妇女,他们来的时候,东边树篱顶端的影子正好投射到西边树篱的腰部,所以两拨割麦人的脑袋沐浴着朝霞的时候,他们的脚却还处在黎明里。在附近麦地的栅栏门两边,有两根石头柱子,割麦子的人就从它们中间走进去不见了。
不久,麦地里传来一种"嚓嚓"声,好像是蚂蚱情说爱的声音。机器开始割麦了,从栅栏门这边看过去,只见三匹马并排拉着前面说过的摇摇晃晃的长方形机器向前走着,有一匹拉机器的马上骑着一个赶马的,机器的座位上坐着一个看机器的。机器战车沿着麦地的一边向前开动,机器割麦子的手臂慢慢转动着,一直开过了山坡,完全从眼前消失了。过了一会儿,它又以同样均匀的速度出现在麦地的另一边;割麦子的机器在麦茬地上出现时,最先看见的是前面那匹马额上闪闪发光的铜星,然后看见的是机器割麦子的鲜红色手臂,最后看见的才是整部机器。
割麦子的机器每走一圈,麦地周围狭长的麦茬长带就加宽一层,随着早晨的时光慢慢过去,还长有麦子的麦地就只剩下不大的一块了。大野兔、小野兔、长虫、大老鼠、小耗子,都一起向麦田的内地退去,好像要躲进堡垒里,却没有意识到它们避难的地方也只能是暂时的,没有意识到它们毁灭的命运正在后面等着它们,当今天它们躲避的地方越缩越小,最后变成可怕的一小块时,它们无论是朋友还是仇敌,都要拥挤着躲藏在一块儿了,等到收割机把地上最后剩下的几百码麦子割倒后,收庄稼的人就会拿起棍子和石头,把它们一个个打死。
割麦子的机器割倒麦子,一小堆一小堆地留在机器后面,每一堆刚好可以捆作一捆;捆麦子的人在有麦堆的地方忙着,正在用手把麦子捆起来--捆麦子的人主要是妇女,但也有些人是男人,他们上穿印花布衬衣,下穿长裤,长裤用皮带系在腰间,这样后面的两颗扣子也就失去了用处,他们每动一下,扣子就在阳光下一闪,仿佛是他们后腰上长的一双眼睛。
但是在这一群捆麦子的人中间,还是那些女子们最能引起人的兴致,因为女人一旦在户外变成了大自然的一部分,不再和平时那样,仅仅只是摆放在那儿的一件物品,那时候她们就特别具有魅力。一个男人在地里只是地里的一个人;一个女人在地里却是田地的组成部分;她在某些方面同田地失去了界限,吸收了周围环境的精华,使自己同周围的环境融成了一体。
妇女们--不如说是女孩子们,因为她们大多青春年少--都戴着打着皱折的女帽,帽子上宽大的帽檐可以遮挡太阳,她们的手上戴的手套可以保护双手不被麦茬划伤。在她们中间,有一个人穿着粉红色上衣,有一个人穿着奶油色的窄袖长衫,还有一个人穿着短裙,短裙的颜色红得就像收割机的十字架一样;其他的妇女们年纪都要大些,都穿着棕色的粗布罩衫或者外套--那是妇女在地里劳动穿的最合适的老式样的服装,年轻的女孩子们都已经不再穿它们了。这天早晨,大家的目光都被吸引到那个穿粉红色棉布上衣的姑娘身上,在所有的女孩子中间,她的身材最苗条和最富有弹性。但是她的帽子拉得低低的,盖住了她的额头,所以在她捆麦子的时候,一点儿也看不见她的脸,不过从她的帽檐下面散落出来的一两绺深褐色头发上,大致可以猜测出她的皮肤的颜色来,她不能躲避别人的偶尔注意,也许有一个原因就是她不想别人注意她,而其他的妇女们的眼睛总是流波四顾的。
她不断地捆着麦子,单调得就像时钟一样。她从刚捆好的麦捆里抽出一把麦穗来,用左手掌拍着麦头儿,把它们弄整齐。然后,她向前把腰弯下去,一双手把麦堆拢到膝盖跟前,戴着手套的左手从麦堆下面伸过去,同另一边的右手会合了,就像拥抱一个情人一样把麦子抱在怀里。她把捆扎麦子的那束麦子的两头收拢来,跪在麦捆上把它捆紧,微风把她的裙子吹了起来,她也不断地把它扯回去。在她衣服的袖子和暗黄色软皮手套之间,看得见有一截裸露的胳膊露在外面;这一天慢慢过去了,女孩儿圆润的胳膊也被麦茬刺破了,流出了鲜血。
她时而站起来休息一会儿,把弄乱了的围裙重新系好,或者把头上戴的帽子拉拉整齐。这时候,你就可以看见一个年轻漂亮的女孩子了,她长着一张鸭蛋形的脸,深色的眼睛,又长又厚的头发平平整整的,好像它无论披散在什么上面,都会被紧紧地粘住。同一个寻常的乡村女孩子相比,她的脸颊更洁白,牙齿更整齐,红色的嘴唇更薄。
她就是苔丝·德北菲尔德,或者叫德贝维尔,多少有了一些变化--还是原来的她,又不是原来的她;在她目前生存的这个阶段,她的生活就像是一个陌生人,或者是这儿的一个异邦人,其实她生活的地方对她一点儿也不陌生。她在家里躲了很长一段时间,后来才下定决心走出门外,在村子里找点儿活于,因为那时候农村里一年中最忙的季节到了,她在屋里做的任何事情,都比不上当时在地里收庄稼赚的钱多。
其他的妇女捆麦子的动作大体上同苔丝差不多,她们每个人捆好一捆,就像跳四对方舞的人一样,从四面聚拢来,把各自的麦捆靠着别人的竖在一起,最后形成了十捆或十二捆的一堆,或者按当地人说的那样,形成一垛。
她们去吃了早饭,回到地里,又继续照常工作起来。接近十一点钟的时候,要是有人观察她,就会注意到苔丝脸上带着忧愁,不时地望着山顶,不过她手里捆麦子的动作并没有停下来。快到十一点的时候,一群年龄从六岁到十四岁的小孩子,从山坡上一块满是残茬的高地上露了出来。
苔丝的脸稍微一红,但是仍然捆着麦捆。
那群孩子中年龄最大的一个是个姑娘,她披一块三角形披肩,披肩的一角拖在麦茬上,她的胳膊里抱着什么,最初看上去好像是一个洋娃娃,后来才证明是一个穿着衣服的婴儿。另一个手里拿着午饭。割麦子的人都停止了工作,拿出各自的食物,靠着麦堆坐了下来。他们就在这里开始吃饭,男人们还随意地从一个石头罐子里倒酒喝,把一个杯子轮流传着。
苔丝·德北菲尔德是最后一个停下手中活儿的人。她在麦堆的另一头坐下来,把脸扭到一边,躲开她的伙伴。当她在地上坐好了,有一个头上戴着兔皮帽子、腰里皮带上塞了一块红手巾的男人拿着酒杯,从麦堆顶上递给她,请她喝酒。不过她没有接受他献的殷勤。她刚一把午饭摆好,就把那个大孩子、她的妹妹叫过来,从她的手中接过婴儿,她的妹妹正乐得轻松,就跑到另外一个麦堆那儿,和别的小孩一起玩了起来。苔丝脸上的红晕越来越红,她用悄悄的但是大胆的动作解开上衣的扣子,开始喂孩子吃奶。
坐在那儿离她最近的几个男人体谅她,把脸转到了地的另一头,他们中间还有几个人开始抽烟;还有一个健忘的人十分遗憾地用手摸着酒罐子,酒罐子再也倒不出一滴滴来了。除了苔丝而外,所有的妇女都开始热烈地说起话来,一边把头发上弄乱了的发结整理好。
等到婴儿吃饱了,那位年轻的母亲就把他放在自己的膝头上,让他坐正了,用膝头颠着他玩,眼睛却望着远方,脸色既忧郁又冷淡,差不多是憎恶的样子;然后,她把脸伏下去,在婴儿的脸上猛烈地亲了几十次,仿佛永远也亲不够,在她这阵猛烈的亲吻里,疼爱里面奇怪地混合着鄙夷,孩子也被亲得大声哭了起来。
"其实她心里才喜欢那孩子,别看她嘴里说什么但愿那孩子和她自己都死了才好,"一个穿红裙子的妇女说。