in an ir
resolution what to do, he found that the Duke de Nemours
was the only person whose
assistance could draw him out of this
intricate affair.
Accordingly he went to the Duke's house, and entered his room
about break of day. What the Duke had discovered the day before
with respect to the Princess of Cleves had given him such
agreeable ideas, that he slept very
sweetly; he was very much
surprised to find himself waked by the Viscount de Chartres, and
asked him if he came to
disturb his rest so early, to be revenged
of him for what he had said last night at supper. The Viscount's
looks soon
convinced him, that he came upon a serious business;
"I am come," said he, "to
entrust you with the most important
affair of my life; I know very well, you are not obliged to me
for the confidence I place in you, because I do it at a time when
I stand in need of your
assistance; but I know
likewise, that I
should have lost your
esteem, if I had acquainted you with all I
am now going to tell you, without having been forced to it by
absolute necessity: I have dropped the letter I spoke of last
night; it is of the greatest
consequence to me, that nobody
should know it is addressed to me; it has been seen by abundance
of people, who were at the
tennis court
yesterday when I dropped
it; you was there too, and the favour I have to ask you, is, to
say it was you who lost it." "Sure you think," replied the
Duke de Nemours smiling, "that I have no
mistress, by making
such a proposal, and that I have no quarrels or inconveniences to
apprehend by leaving it to be believed that I receive such
letters." "I beg you," said the Viscount, "to hear me
seriously; if you have a
mistress, as I doubt not you have,
though I do not know who she is, it will be easy for you to
justify yourself, and I'll put you into an
infallible way of
doing it. As for you, though you should fail in justifying
yourself, it can cost you nothing but a short falling out; but
for my part, this accident affects me in a very different manner,
I shall dishonour a person who has
passionately loved me, and is
one of the most deserving women in the world; on the other side,
I shall draw upon myself an implacable
hatred that will ruin my
fortune, and perhaps proceed somewhat further." "I do not
comprehend what you say," replied the Duke de Nemours, "but I
begin to see that the reports we have had of your interest in a
great Princess are not
wholly without ground." "They are
not," replied the Viscount, "but I would to God they were: you
would not see me in the
perplexity I am in; but I must
relate the
whole affair to you, to
convince you how much I have to fear.
"Ever since I came to Court, the Queen has treated me with a
great deal of favour and
distinction, and I had grounds to
believe that she was very kindly disposed towards me: there was
nothing, however, particular in all this, and I never presumed to
entertain any thoughts of her but what were full of respect; so
far from it, that I was deeply in love with Madam de Themines;
anyone that sees her may easily judge, 'tis very possible for one
to be greatly in love with her, when one is
beloved by her, and
so I was. About two years ago, the Court being at Fontainebleau,
I was two or three times in conversation with the Queen, at hours
when there were very few people in her
apartment: it appeared to
me, that my turn of wit was
agreeable to her, and I observed she
always approved what I said. One day among others she fell into
a
discourseconcerning confidence. I said there was nobody in
whom I entirely confided, that I found people always
repented of
having done so, and that I knew a great many things of which I
had never spoke: the Queen told me, she
esteemed me the more for
it, that she had not found in France anyone that could keep a
secret, and that this was what had embarrassed her more than
anything else, because it had deprived her of the pleasure of
having a confidant; that nothing was so necessary in life as to
have somebody one could open one's mind to with safety,
especially for people of her rank. Afterwards she frequently
resumed the same
discourse, and acquainted me with very
particular circumstances; at last I imagined she was
desirous to
learn my secrets, and to
entrust me with her own; this thought
engaged me
strictly to her. I was so pleased with this
distinction that I made my court to her with greater assiduity
than usual. One evening the King and the ladies of the Court
rode out to take the air in the forest, but the Queen, being a
little indisposed did not go; I stayed to wait upon her, and she
walked down to the pond-side, and dismissed her gentlemen ushers,
that she might be more at liberty. After she had taken a few