forget what you are-- were--I mean, and be happy. When you
remember that old life you are bitter, and it hurts me."
"I was happy--I shall be very happy. Oh, you're so good
that--that it kills me! If I think, I can't believe it. I grow
sick with wondering why. I'm only a let me say it--only a lost,
nameless--girl of the rustlers. Oldring's Girl, they called me.
That you should save me--be so good and kind--want to make me
happy--why, it's beyond
belief. No wonder I'm
wretched at the
thought of your leaving me. But I'll be
wretched and bitter no
more. I promise you. If only I could repay you even a
little--"
"You've repaid me a hundredfold. Will you believe me?"
"Believe you! I couldn't do else."
"Then listen!...Saving you, I saved myself. Living here in this
valley with you, I've found myself. I've
learned to think while I
was dreaming. I never troubled myself about God. But God, or some
wonderful spirit, has
whispered to me here. I
absolutely deny the
truth of what you say about yourself. I can't explain it. There
are things too deep to tell. Whatever the terrible wrongs you've
suffered, God holds you
blameless. I see that--feel that in you
every moment you are near me. I've a mother and a sister 'way
back in Illinois. If I could I'd take you to them--to-morrow."
"If it were true! Oh, I might--I might lift my head!" she cried.
"Lift it then--you child. For I swear it's true."
She did lift her head with the
singular wild grace always a part
of her actions, with that old
unconscious intimation of innocence
which always tortured Venters, but now with something more--a
spirit rising from the depths that linked itself to his brave
words.
"I've been thinking--too," she cried, with quivering smile and
swelling breast. "I've discovered myself--too. I'm young--I'm
alive--I'm so full--oh! I'm a woman!"
"Bess, I believe I can claim credit of that last
discovery--before you," Venters said, and laughed.
"Oh, there's more--there's something I must tell you."
"Tell it, then."
"When will you go to Cottonwoods?"
"As soon as the storms are past, or the worst of them."
"I'll tell you before you go. I can't now. I don't know how I
shall then. But it must be told. I'd never let you leave me
without
knowing. For in spite of what you say there's a chance
you mightn't come back."
Day after day the west wind blew across the
valley. Day after day
the clouds clustered gray and
purple and black. The cliffs sang
and the caves rang with Oldring's knell, and the lightning
flashed, the
thunder rolled, the echoes crashed and crashed, and
the rains flooded the
valley. Wild flowers
sprang up everywhere,
swaying with the lengthening grass on the
terraces, smiling wanly
from shady nooks, peeping wondrously from year-dry crevices of
the walls. The
valley bloomed into a
paradise. Every single
moment, from the breaking of the gold bar through the
bridge at
dawn on to the reddening of rays over the
western wall, was one
of colorful change. The
valley swam in thick,
transparent haze,
golden at dawn, warm and white at noon,
purple in the twilight.
At the end of every storm a
rainbow curved down into the
leaf-bright forest to shine and fade and leave lingeringly some
faint
essence of its rosy iris in the air.
Venters walked with Bess, once more in a dream, and watched the
lights change on the walls, and faced the wind from out of the
west.
Always it brought
softly to him strange, sweet
tidings of
far-offthings. It blew from a place that was old and
whispered of youth.
It blew down the grooves of time. It brought a story of the
passing hours. It breathed low of fighting men and praying women.
It sang clearly the song of love. That ever was the burden of its
tidings--youth in the shady woods, waders through the wet
meadows, boy and girl at the hedgerow stile, bathers in the
booming surf, sweet, idle hours on
grassy, windy hills, long
strolls down
moonlit lanes--everywhere in
far-off lands, fingers
locked and bursting hearts and
longing lips--from all the world
tidings of unquenchable love.
Often, in these hours of dreams he watched the girl, and asked
himself of what was she dreaming? For the changing light of the
valley reflected its gleam and its color and its meaning in the
changing light of her eyes. He saw in them
infinitely more than
he saw in his dreams. He saw thought and soul and nature--strong