sending already for James More, to whom I thought Mr. Simon must have
pointed when he spoke of men in prison and ready to
redeem their lives
by all extremities. My scalp curdled among my hair, and the next
moment the blood leaped in me to remember Catriona. Poor lass! her
father stood to be hanged for pretty indefensible misconduct. What was
yet more unpalatable, it now seemed he was prepared to save his four
quarters by the worst of shame and the most foul of
cowardly murders -
murder by the false oath; and to complete our misfortunes, it seemed
myself was picked out to be the victim.
I began to walk
swiftly and at
random,
conscious only of a desire for
movement, air, and the open country.
CHAPTER VII - I MAKE A FAULT IN HONOUR
I CAME forth, I vow I know not how, on the LANG DYKES. This is a rural
road which runs on the north side over against the city. Thence I
could see the whole black length of it tail down, from where the castle
stands upon its crags above the loch in a long line of spires and gable
ends, and smoking chimneys, and at the sight my heart swelled in my
bosom. My youth, as I have told, was already inured to dangers; but
such danger as I had seen the face of but that morning, in the midst of
what they call the safety of a town, shook me beyond experience. Peril
of
slavery, peril of
shipwreck, peril of sword and shot, I had stood
all of these without
discredit; but the peril there was in the sharp
voice and the fat face of Simon, property Lord Lovat, daunted me
wholly.
I sat by the lake side in a place where the rushes went down into the
water, and there steeped my wrists and laved my temples. If I could
have done so with any remains of self-esteem, I would now have fled
from my foolhardy
enterprise. But (call it courage or
cowardice, and I
believe it was both the one and the other) I
decided I was ventured out
beyond the
possibility of a
retreat. I had out-faced these men, I
would continue to out-face them; come what might, I would stand by the
word spoken.
The sense of my own
constancy somewhat uplifted my spirits, but not
much. At the best of it there was an icy place about my heart, and
life seemed a black business to be at all engaged in. For two souls in
particular my pity flowed. The one was myself, to be so friendless and
lost among dangers. The other was the girl, the daughter of James
More. I had seen but little of her; yet my view was taken and my
judgment made. I thought her a lass of a clean honour, like a man's; I
thought her one to die of a
disgrace; and now I believed her father to
be at that moment bargaining his vile life for mine. It made a bond in
my thoughts betwixt the girl and me. I had seen her before only as a
wayside appearance, though one that pleased me
strangely; I saw her now
in a sudden nearness of relation, as the daughter of my blood foe, and
I might say, my
murderer. I reflected it was hard I should be so
plagued and persecuted all my days for other folks' affairs, and have
no manner of pleasure myself. I got meals and a bed to sleep in when
my concerns would suffer it; beyond that my
wealth was of no help to
me. If I was to hang, my days were like to be short; if I was not to
hang but to escape out of this trouble, they might yet seem long to me
ere I was done with them. Of a sudden her face appeared in my memory,
the way I had first seen it, with the parted lips; at that, weakness
came in my bosom and strength into my legs; and I set resolutely
forward on the way to Dean. If I was to hang to-morrow, and it was
sure enough I might very likely sleep that night in a
dungeon, I
determined I should hear and speak once more with Catriona.
The exercise of walking and the thought of my
destination braced me yet
more, so that I began to pluck up a kind of spirit. In the village of
Dean, where it sits in the bottom of a glen beside the river, I
inquired my way of a miller's man, who sent me up the hill upon the
farther side by a plain path, and so to a decent-like small house in a
garden of lawns and apple-trees. My heart beat high as I stepped
inside the garden hedge, but it fell low indeed when I came face to
face with a grim and
fierce old lady, walking there in a white mutch
with a man's hat strapped upon the top of it.
"What do ye come seeking here?" she asked.
I told her I was after Miss Drummond.
"And what may be your business with Miss Drummond?" says she.
I told her I had met her on Saturday last, had been so
fortunate as to
render her a
trifling service, and was come now on the young lady's
invitation.
"O, so you're Saxpence!" she cried, with a very sneering manner. "A
braw gift, a bonny gentleman. And hae ye ony ither name and
designation, or were ye bapteesed Saxpence?" she asked.
I told my name.