carried his parasol, but had neither his book nor his pipe with
him. Amiably serious he laid his hand on his "dear young friend's"
arm.
"We are all of us a little strung up," he said. "For my part I
have been like sister Anne in the story. But I cannot see anything
coming. Anything that would be the least good for anybody - I
mean."
Renouard had recovered
sufficiently to murmur
coldly his regret of
this waste of time. For that was what, he
supposed, the professor
had in his mind.
"Time," mused Professor Moorsom. "I don't know that time can be
wasted. But I will tell you, my dear friend, what this is: it is
an awful waste of life. I mean for all of us. Even for my sister,
who has got a
headache and is gone to lie down."
He shook
gently Renouard's arm. "Yes, for all of us! One may
meditate on life endlessly, one may even have a poor opinion of it
- but the fact remains that we have only one life to live. And it
is short. Think of that, my young friend."
He released Renouard's arm and stepped out of the shade
opening his
parasol. It was clear that there was something more in his mind
than mere
anxiety about the date of his lectures for fashionable
audiences. What did the man mean by his confounded platitudes? To
Renouard, scared by Luiz in the morning (for he felt that nothing
could be more fatal than to have his
deception unveiled otherwise
than by personal
confession), this talk sounded like encouragement
or a
warning from that man who seemed to him to be very
brazen and
very subtle. It was like being bullied by the dead and cajoled by
the living into a throw of dice for a
supreme stake.
Renouard went away to some distance from the house and threw
himself down in the shade of a tree. He lay there
perfectly still
with his
forehead resting on his folded arms, light-headed and
thinking. It seemed to him that he must be on fire, then that he
had fallen into a cool whirlpool, a smooth
funnel of water swirling
about with nauseating
rapidity. And then (it must have been a
reminiscence of his boyhood) he was walking on the dangerous thin
ice of a river,
unable to turn back. . . . Suddenly it parted from
shore to shore with a loud crack like the report of a gun.
With one leap he found himself on his feet. All was peace,
stillness,
sunshine. He walked away from there slowly. Had he
been a
gambler he would have perhaps been supported in a
measure by
the mere
excitement. But he was not a
gambler. He had always
disdained that
artificial manner of challenging the fates. The
bungalow came into view, bright and pretty, and all about
everything was peace,
stillness,
sunshine. . . .
While he was plodding towards it he had a
disagreeable sense of the
dead man's company at his elbow. The ghost! He seemed to be
everywhere but in his grave. Could one ever shake him off? he
wondered. At that moment Miss Moorsom came out on the verandah;
and at once, as if by a
mystery of radiating waves, she roused a
great
tumult in his heart, shook earth and sky together - but he
plodded on. Then like a grave song-note in the storm her voice
came to him ominously.
"Ah! Mr. Renouard. . . " He came up and smiled, but she was very
serious. "I can't keep still any longer. Is there time to walk up
this
headland and back before dark?"
The shadows were lying lengthened on the ground; all was
stillnessand peace. "No," said Renouard, feeling suddenly as steady as a
rock. "But I can show you a view from the central hill which your
father has not seen. A view of reefs and of broken water without
end, and of great wheeling clouds of sea-birds."
She came down the verandah steps at once and they moved off. "You
go first," he proposed, "and I'll direct you. To the left."
She was wearing a short nankin skirt, a
muslinblouse; he could see
through the thin stuff the skin of her shoulders, of her arms. The
noble
delicacy of her neck caused him a sort of
transport. "The
path begins where these three palms are. The only palms on the
island."
"I see."
She never turned her head. After a while she observed: "This path
looks as if it had been made recently."
"Quite recently," he assented very low.