searching and insidious
fatigue that penetrates deep into a man's
breast to cast down and sadden his heart, which is incorrigible,
and of all the gifts of the earth -- even before life itself
-aspires to peace.
Jukes was benumbed much more than he
supposed. He held on -- very
wet, very cold, stiff in every limb; and in a momentary
hallucination of swift visions (it is said that a drowning man
thus reviews all his life) he
beheld all sorts of memories
altogether unconnected with his present situation. He remembered
his father, for
instance: a
worthy business man, who at an
unfortunate
crisis in his affairs went quietly to bed and died
forthwith in a state of
resignation. Jukes did not recall these
circumstances, of course, but remaining
otherwise unconcerned he
seemed to see
distinctly the poor man's face; a certain game of
nap played when quite a boy in Table Bay on board a ship, since
lost with all hands; the thick eyebrows of his first
skipper; and
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emotion, as he might years ago have walked listlessly
into her room and found her sitting there with a book, he
remembered his mother -- dead, too, now -- the
resolute woman,
left badly off, who had been very firm in his bringing up.
It could not have lasted more than a second, perhaps not so much.
A heavy arm had fallen about his shoulders; Captain MacWhirr's
voice was
speaking his name into his ear.
"Jukes! Jukes!"
He detected the tone of deep concern. The wind had thrown its
weight on the ship,
trying to pin her down
amongst the seas.
They made a clean
breach over her, as over a deep-swimming log;
and the gathered weight of crashes menaced monstrously from afar.
The breakers flung out of the night with a
ghostly light on their
crests -- the light of sea-foam that in a
ferocious, boiling-up
pale flash showed upon the
slender body of the ship the toppling
rush, the
downfall, and the seething mad
scurry of each wave.
Never for a moment could she shake herself clear of the water;
Jukes, rigid, perceived in her
motion the
ominous sign of
haphazard floundering. She was no longer struggling
intelligently. It was the
beginning of the end; and the note of
busy concern in Captain MacWhirr's voice sickened him like an
exhibition of blind and
pernicious folly.
The spell of the storm had fallen upon Jukes. He was penetrated
by it, absorbed by it; he was rooted in it with a rigour of dumb
attention. Captain MacWhirr persisted in his cries, but the wind
got between them like a solid wedge. He hung round Jukes' neck
as heavy as a
millstone, and suddenly the sides of their heads
knocked together.
"Jukes! Mr. Jukes, I say!"
He had to answer that voice that would not be silenced. He
answered in the
customary manner: ". . . Yes, sir."
And directly, his heart, corrupted by the storm that breeds a
craving for peace, rebelled against the
tyranny of training and
command.
Captain MacWhirr had his mate's head fixed firm in the crook of
his elbow, and pressed it to his yelling lips
mysteriously.
Sometimes Jukes would break in, admonishing
hastily: "Look out,
sir!" or Captain MacWhirr would bawl an
earnestexhortation to
"Hold hard, there!" and the whole black
universe seemed to reel
together with the ship. They paused. She floated yet. And
Captain MacWhirr would r锟絪um?his shouts. ". . . . Says . . .
whole lot . . . fetched away. . . . Ought to see . . . what's
the matter."
Directly the full force of the
hurricane had struck the ship,
every part of her deck became untenable; and the sailors, dazed
and dismayed, took shelter in the port alleyway under the
bridge.
It had a door aft, which they shut; it was very black, cold, and
dismal. At each heavy fling of the ship they would groan all